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🕑 Added 2023-02-12 08:43:43 +0000 UTChello! sorry about the long silence >< It's been ailment on top of ailment and I've been struggling a lot, even in just getting my big freelance job done. I only really have unfinished doodles aside from the birthday illustration and I want to offer more... so I've decided I will take a break and not send out charges for the coming month so I can give myself some more time to put something fuller together. thank you kindly for your patience! In the meantime, here are some Jo-related things.
The writing in the first picture is in sequence to a poem I wrote when I was still exploring what we call "Darkness" because Jaime always seems to be surrounded by it:
Pain has many faces:
Fear
Anguish
Loneliness
Rage
and when you reject these feelings,
pain grows into
Desperation and Cowardice
Jealousy and resentment
Entitlement and pride
and
Malice
Demons that hold you back
from doing what is right
Demons that push you
into doing harm
But when you enter the heart of the darkness
You'll find compassion
the part of you who loves you
Someone who just wanted to protect you
But forgot where they came from
Jaime as a character is an interesting thought experiment because she's the concept of love personified. Her story is what happens when someone embodies love so completely that she is by default at odds with her sense of self-preservation; she has no boundaries because love is boundless and indiscriminate. Teo and Bernard protect her because she literally can't protect herself. They are loyal to her as a person but also because they want a world where love is allowed to exist.
But i also wondered in the case of demons, why they would want to protect her when she is their "natural enemy" (??)... Her relationship with Jo was compelling to me because i got to explore what love and light really are, to demons.
Comments
Joodlez
thank you stephen! ;-; <3
Stephen
Beautiful and profound. I had to learn this lesson the hard way once, so these words hit hard, even years later. I wish you luck in navigating your storms and I hope you have a restful break :)
