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Padrona of Praiano part 2
while editing these, I realized that I enjoy the darker, more mysterious images. they have way more atmosphere...(takes note of this for future work)also...something about these, for me at least, has the gravity of the ancient about them
to resist is to exist, another human experience:
I think I am resisting again, the flow of my life by not knowing who I am. I don’t align with identity, but perhaps knowing more of the self allows more solidity than being a wisp on the wind, always being set a drift by curiosity, experience, all idly in the mind—and all quashed by harsh demand...
Feeling my Feelings?
for a long time my therapist would try to insinuate that I do not allow myself to feel, rather I rationalize my way out of feeling with logic; instead of just allowing the emotion to take over me, to take over the moment, and then allow that momentary feeling to pass. Like most things I find difficu...
The Feminine Urge Part 2, Look 2
something about finding your own aesthetic in the midst of societal screeching and influence, the struggle between the many ideas & forms of the feminine energy
Outlander
I recently got to spend some time in the Scottish Highlands for a project that involves my day job, and as an unashamed Outlander fan-I cannot begin to describe the happiness I felt frolicking in the mountains of Glencoe. Seeing the mountain range stretch out in front of me as I walked a long the st...
Blame
It’s not your fault. It’s mine for not knowing myself any better than I did years ago. I am no more myself or any less afraid to be, but I have stopped caring about identity having anything to do with my value or meaning. I embrace my chaos and to my best extent try to control it on a tight yet ...
Identity
It wasn’t so much about having to form a sense of identity, because I never had one, and knowing what I know now, I don’t need one. But you knew that, and you ate that shit up as a predator would: my emptiness, my possibility, my eagerness (or rather willingness, to please) what other people wou...
Betrothed part 4
one more part to go ❤️🔥
Betrothed, Blurred Video Full
https://mediazilla.com/q3yWIO8F8d
69
As I said the number aloud, “69…” the worry shed off me like water repelling oil. The shame of thought burnt my cheeks as the realization hit me: not every person had the same trauma, the same over sexualized existence. To some people, without the added sexual context or scenario to accompany ...
Over
I’ll give you up nowI wrote about my feelings (whether or not about the truth, is up to me) but your silence and position to distance says more and more by the day; that perhaps you really are the avoidant monster created from fear of scandal, love of the self always to be greater than—all (more...
Untamable Wilderness part 2
if anyone draws from these, please tag me! I'd love to see how you draw the surrounding foliage and flowers 🌼
Unknown Recipient, 2
Whenever I am summoned against my will to present myself to you, prostrate myself at your door****(instead of door read: dm box filled with countless others YOU are trying to possess, not the other way around,((you won’t by the way, I am rare, but in a stupid way.)) for your approval? Attention (t...
Upcoming Looks + a cute booty pic
there is one look that’s missing, but I guess that one will be a surprise!
the goat farmer part 1
you'll see...there will be 4 parts to this one!
Watching the Neighbors
In all the chaotic unfolding of life, I thought I saw you, in the thick of darkness, a stark pale figure. Same glasses, same stature of paunch, exact outline and hue of receded hair. You were with a dog, off leash but under your control. A real bitch, finally! One you always wanted, obedient, timid,...
Sticky Situation
the violence of self betrayal
Unknown Recipient: part 1
I am spiraling out of control and I think that acting in equally chaotic ways makes me feel like I am in control of the chaos in my life, but in reality I am just giving into chaotic patterns in an effort to stop the change that is necessary to grow, the stress and force of it molding me into myself...
Perception & Perspective
Perspective shifted when I realized someone didn’t have to be wrong in any given conflict. Fault could be shared into divided work, something to create more union in the shared effort of relationships. That there is truly an infinite number of possibilities per person. That our feelings are indica...
Bluey Party
allowed me to play dress up as an adult 🫴✨Which led me to the thought that there’s been a trend— having to deal with censorship online has led me to be more clothed in many of my posts and photoshoots, but there’s an aesthetic that I enjoy with more wardrobe as opposed to less, more layer...
Mistake!
I moved one of the novel tier sets to sell, thinking it would show up for novel tier members AND for purchase for free members, but it only shows it to one or the other! SO if you are experiencing any difficulties at all, please reach out to me and we can work it out together! :)
The Feminine Urge part 1, Look 2
What does it mean to be woman? A subjective idea to be sure and in an infinite (unimaginably so) array of variation, meaning, feeling, appearance. Singular to one’s opinion, and yet so readily demanded and dictated by so much external noise, influence, pressure. Woman. Molded, kept, trimmed and no...
Expression Study
In case you’d like to practice or do a study of some different facial expressions ♥️
Heart Sick;Lover Boy
Happy UnValentine's Day 💔💢‼️
