Ricky Jamaraz
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jamaraz unreleased #31: 'Saudade'
🕑 Added 2025-01-20 20:00:04 +0000 UTCgreetings everyone! today i've got a very old track (3+ years old!) that I made as part of an album I scrapped called 'Affordable Happiness'. I've shared a few other songs from that album on here, so if you wanna hear the others you can go to the main page of my patreon and on the search thing the should be a way to filter by tags, and just look for 'Affordable Happiness' there.
this one's quite a long one, it's quite progressive I suppose, but I think it shows that I was up for writing complex songs even when I was really first starting out. (My singing is pretty shit tho icl so ignore that...)
For those wondering, 'Saudade' is an emotional state of melancholic or profoundly nostalgic longing for a beloved yet absent something or someone (thanks wikipedia). It's a Portuguese word.
Lyrics
I'm aroused by addiction
Dominated by fiction
Pretending is my religion
My mind is my place of worship
Insomnia is my friend
My dreams, I barely attend
I lay here in my bed
Figuring out what this is all about
It's starting to hurt my head
This pleasurable ache I chase after
It feels like pins and needles
In my heart and nearby regions
It traverses my arms as my conscience weakens
And I don’t know whether I like it or not
That’s what keeps me coming back
To the ever so painful pleasure attack
I feel a painful nostalgia
For things that I imagine
Things that don’t exist
Made up characters
Can one feel nostalgia
For something that never even happened?
I think I can
Does anyone feel this way
Or I am I all alone in this tiny world
That’s too big for me
My lungs won’t take in more air
But there is still space there
To others it’s quite a scare
To me it’s just a daily routine
My mind wanders for eternity
In the desolate landscape that once was me
I’m waiting for my personal infinity
To catch up with my unbearable melancholy
I don’t want your understanding
I just want you to know
Can one feel nostalgia...
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So there we have it. Bit of a weird song I'll admit. I wrote the lyrics during a maths test though so that's cool!
Comments
FRIZZY‼️
what if i cried because it’s not funny anymore stop making music that feels like you’re inside my head :( anyways this is amazing i love it sm 😭😭😭😭
rosyposy
writing lyrics about pain and nostalgia during a maths test is so real tho 😭 epic song btw
Alexa Not Siri
let's make a word in english for it, any ideas, anyone?
Oisín
Why did you never release this?
Ricky Jamaraz
thanks!!
LiamGameInIt
Holy crap!! This is so good!!!!!!!!
vmufinn
portuguese mentioned btw for anyone wondering saudade is the same thing as "missing" something. idk why there isn't a noun for that in english
