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DITW 15-18: Hearken to His Wife
🕑 Added 2024-10-30 02:02:27 +0000 UTCJosh didn’t say to stop, so she continued. “He came in my mouth, and I liked it,” she said, studying her husband’s profile, getting off on his poignant disgust. Her hand measured his resultant arousal; his cock hard as steel in her grip. “You know you liked it, too.”
Josh shuddered, his head pressing back into the pillow, his back arching. What she said was true; Josh couldn’t deny it. She should have told Josh sooner. Told him all the things he feared were true. Instead, she’d sought some sort of endpoint where Devlin had been subdued and she had better control at Stone. That’s where it had ended up. She had control. She had what she wanted. But if she’d invested in Josh’s kink and sealed his desirous deals earlier, maybe she could have spared him the hurt she’d caused. “I wish I could have told you, Josh. I wish you could have enjoyed it. I wish so many things.” His cock had returned to full hardness, and the way she spoke to him and the way he reacted, they might as well have been in Cayman or in the old apartment, whispering nasty things and playing games. Those had been fun times; intense and exploratory. In the bizarrest way, it had opened her eyes to Josh and his psyche and the worry and fear her husband held. Those times had been an erotic catalysis; and it had been wasted on Devlin Stone and the job she ended up taking from him, anyway, without the need to tread further down his ridiculous paths. “I never should have kept from you the things I was doing. I should have told you.” Josh’s cock flexed in her grip, his lips sucking into his mouth as he fantasized who knew what, weaved whatever tormented web, using her supporting words for his spider silk. “We really could have had so much fun together. You wanted the things I did, and you’re right, I took them from you and did those things for selfish reasons. I stole it from you. I stole all those things you wanted and I ruined it all.”
Josh groaned and nodded, his eyes closed, sealing himself alone with the dark chimera behind his lids. His body felt so good and homey against hers. His body blessed her bed. Her leg slid up his, her inner thigh coasting over the top of his; she straddled him, reached behind and palmed the base of his cock, pressing his length along her wetness, sliding her sex up and down with a curl of her pelvis. His cock was perfect; his cock had performed the designed function. He’d given her Colleen. “This is the cock I’ve missed, Josh,” she said, easing her hips back, angling him to enter her body. She sank his erection a few inches inside her. “Not Devlin’s. Sex with Devlin was nothing without you. You made me like it. You made me want it. You gave it value.”
Josh stared back in wide-eyed awe. His eyes trembled with the edging of horror, but she showed him with her expression and the rolling of her hips how she meant what she said. None of what she’d done had any meaning without Josh. She caressed his cheek and sank his cock all the way inside her. It had been more than a year without real sex. More than a year without a blood-pulsing cock inside her. Toys weren’t even close to equal.
Her hips rolled and roiled with his cock seated inside her. She moaned real moans and breathed deep, loving the feel of his arousal. Loving the knowledge that her lurid words could command Josh. She hunched closer to him, his beard brushing her cheek as she whispered in his ear, “I know you can’t love me the way you did before.” Josh groaned with emotional hurt, but she lured him closer to her, continuing, “But I want you to love me. I want you to love me in some new way that works for you. Works for us.”
Now she rose to sit squatted on Josh’s hips, running her nails on his chest. Josh joined the action now, his hips responding to hers, beginning to moil, his cock like a hard bar inside her. His hands came to her hips, held her there, bracing her as his thrusts gained fervor. She rocked with him, both of them building a pace they liked, their connection wet and slippery and so, so good.
She arched her lower back, leaning away, Josh’s hands spreading onto her hips and over the plain of her belly. The pleasure grew stronger. She rolled forward, thrashing him with her hair. She slowed, gripped his chin, held his handsome face steady, saying, “We can’t go on with me apologizing every day. That won’t work. I’ve apologized. I’ve done what I could to bring you back to me. Just love me; hear my promises and love me.”
Josh’s eyes stayed open, his hands going up and down her ribs, expression blank, bearded cheeks hollowed; his lips parted. “I love you, Kimmy. I do.”
She gasped a satisfied sound, lunging forward, one hand bracing her weight on the headboard, her chest over Josh’s face. She arched her back and sighed as Josh suckled her nipple. The new angle of entry was exciting, and as Josh sucked her sore nipple, she bucked frog-like on his spear, each little thrust blipping white pleasure in her brain. “I know I was bad,” she said. “I know I did everything wrong. But you have to know: I would have gutted him for you.” She withdrew her offered nipple, Josh wild-eyed, blown away and hot as a glass furnace now, any misgivings or reluctance turned to a molten, vitreous state. “I would have served Thanksgiving dinner with his head on a platter. Just to make you smile. Just to make things right.” She smiled and then bit her lower lip to quash it.
But Josh saw her in that moment in a way she hid. His eyes quivered.
She curved over him, her face over his, both of them rocking faster now, their thrusting squeaking the expensive mattress. “I would have broken him,” she said. “If you wanted, I’d make him do things to make us laugh. To turn us both on.”
Josh believed her. “You would have,” he whispered.
His faith restored her. If he could believe she would do that, he would also believe none of the harm she’d caused him was for the purpose of harm. “I hurt you, Josh. But what I wanted most was your transcendence. I wanted you to shrug off Devlin’s juvenile mantle. You’re so much more than he is.”
Josh’s mouth opened and closed, trying to say something but not knowing what to say. She had strayed too far from fantasy and dosed him with emotional concepts that he would argue against. But she couldn’t stop talking.
She said, “I would have got Devlin on his knees and made him suck your cock.”
Josh grimaced, nowhere near as turned on by the idea than she was.
She retreated from vivid imagery, saying now, “I would have broken him. I did it all wrong, but I wanted to break him for you.”
Her posture slackened, her rump squashed down on his thighs, his steely hardness not fading, still raging straight and stiff in her pocket. Josh studied her, his soft eyes roaming her naked body, wondering if she told him the truth. And what would he think of her if he deemed her truthful? That she was good? That she was noble? Maybe he would hear this confession as sin. As a promise of her powerful malice. It could frighten him.
“I did it, anyway,” she said. “But it was too late to be any good for you.”
Josh’s voice was a whisper. “You really did that?”
She bit her lower lip again, her hands fanning on Josh’s sweaty chest. Fuck, she liked that beard. She nodded, her hips sticking on a nice point near her G-spot, doing swift jerks on it, her eyes closing.
“You kissed me with his come in your mouth?”
Her eyes opened again, her features relaxing to an inscrutable mask, assessing Josh’s judgment before she spoke. The sparkle in his eye showed ignition—Josh’s motor ran at speed and the greased clutch fit right into place. She furrowed her brows in an impish arc; a cartoonish representation of the dimwitted moll, worried she’d done her Dapper Dan wrong.
Josh’s brow lowered and he grumbled with some locomotive desire, heaving her to her back with his hips and getting on top of her, her legs falling wide to accommodate him. His hand closed on her collar, then stroked her throat, his thumb caressing her tendon. There was anger in his eyes. Anger and disgust; but Josh sweetened that emotion with lust’s coarse sugar.
“You have to be kidding me,” he said, voice low and disbelieving.
She humped up her hips, wanting him back inside her, feeling the light weight of his upright organ slip along her membranes. She mewled with need, showed him her frustration.
Josh’s hand closed on her neck and pushed her back into the pillow. She writhed on the bed, humping her hips higher, Josh not giving her what she wanted. She chuckled and rocked her head side-to side.
Josh’s mouth found hers, his grip loosening, his thumb caressing. He put his hand between them, angled his point to hr slit and slid himself inside. She cooed and put her hand over his, both of them holding her throat, looking into each other’s eyes, gazing deeply. Josh plunged hard and rocked her. She yipped, then bit it back. He withdrew and plunged again, hard enough to make the bed bounce and rattle the wall. The corners of his mouth turned down, a sneering anger twisting his brow.
Josh didn’t fill her or stretch her, touch terrible deep places; Josh was comfort and safety and never danger. Not until now; not until she felt his anger’s grip, felt his frustration and rage. She gritted her teeth, snarled at him, bared her fangs. Josh showed her the same face. He pounded into her again and again, stabbing deep into her—deep as Josh could go.
And she met his thrusts with her own. The bed shuddered with their movement. The headboard banged. Josh arched his back and pushed himself to the hilt and held it. His cock twanged with stunning stiffness. His hand left her throat and grabbed a fistful of hair, pulling her head to the side and the back until she squawked.
“You’re worse than Devlin ever was,” he said, jaw clamped.
She smiled, found relief from her pulled hair by twisting her head to the side and up to the right. She said, “I hurt you like he hurt you, but he never loved you. He never cared about you.”
Josh roared and withdrew his cock from her hot scabbard, hoisting her to one side, scrambling to get her on her hands and knees. He’d let go of her hair, and she complied.
Josh palmed the back of her head and pushed her face into the pillow.
Comments
Chris K
Has anyone had any contact with KT? DMs? Anything?
Bill F Protagoras
If only he had the potential of a blank...
Bill F Protagoras
I hope you are well too, KT, and thriving... ¡Felices Pascuas!
Chris K
How do you feel now, over a month later??
Jim
Well, I hope KT is OK, but I am about done waiting. No updates, no messages explaining what's going on ...
Bill F Protagoras
Just a moment ago I was mentally rebuking myself, or the tedious vicissitudes of life, when I recalled another one of the constant refrains that insidiously informed the childhood of me and my little brother. 'There's no rest for the wicked'... It would be of little consequence except I'm pretty sure I haven't had occasion to use its profound irony in reference to 'Devil in the Waters'. I hope it's not too late! Or even worse... peremptory!
Kat
I hope KT is okay. It’s been a month since she updated DITW. Up here in Canada, some people decided that November 22 was Black Friday. Others have been calling all of November “Black Friday week.” Kind of defeats the purpose, if you ask me. Canadians don’t really get it, per usual. I’m still glad to be living up here (no offense US friends!). November 2024 has already been quite the doozy. :)
JL23
Hope all is well everyone. I used this joke last month, so let me double down and wish everyone a Happy Thanksgiving, or if you don’t live in the US, a happy Thursday. With Black Friday thereafter (a tradition we seemed to have passed to the rest of the world) it’s officially holiday season too. So as we put up our trees (or anything else used to celebrate the season), hopefully we get a present containing some new chapters when KT is ready to share.
Bill F Protagoras
Kafka fans?
Bill F Protagoras
The colour feels like it is being bleached out of the world like a bad trip on PCP... Thank the fickle stars for the mettle irony which underpins existence with... a mourning detective plying her thankless trade in the Remarkables, and a reluctant mean waiter playing second fiddle in the confused interior of Chinatown. The sting of synchronicity on Bloomsday! And fucking Christmas relentlessly coming... "If it wasn't for bad luck..."
Bill F Protagoras
CSH, I have been waiting for you to make a revisit to this corner of the multiverse, because I owe you an apology... You, it turns out, were right and I, as I am err to be, was wrong... Hope you are thriving... Felices Fiestas!
HTO
Arthur blank trump
Bill F Protagoras
The other day, upon the stair, I met a man who wasn't there.
Bill F Protagoras
Harvest festival... how ironic!
Bill F Protagoras
Absence makes the heart grow fonder, and 'I am a foolish fond old man.' Wot the Hell! Wot the Hell! Toujours Gai! Quality not quantity is foremost in life... though a tad of quantity comes in handy, in the right circumstances. A lot less Trump wouldn't be a bad thing either. Choking on banality is tantamount to evil!
Jim
I am very tempted to unsubscribe. Nothing worth reading for weeks now. I love the DITW series and would love it to continue, but otherwise it's repeating stuff some of us have already seen. Please answer honestly KT is it worth hanging on? What can we look forward to in the weeks to come? Sorry if this upsets some of you. we are (I hope ) all fans and supporters, but I would also think that it's not unreasonable to expect a little more for our monthly subs.
Chris K
Don't care so much about the output. A "hi, I'm still here" goes a long way in appreciation.
RCH
Not sure how long you have been a follower? Stuff happens in peoples lives that are beyond their control. KT will have slow periods I believe this is not KT's main job so I'm very willing to give her some slack. I've been following KT for years and she has her ups and downs as far as output for time to time. (note this is a new account as Patreon canceled my old account for suspicious activity never got an answer why!)
Chris K
Anybody else feel like KT has lost the will to keep writing? The releases are almost non existent at this point. The other two stories stopped cold, and I pretty much forget chapter to chapter what goes on in DITW, due to the length between. Hope all is well of course, but throwing out a few sentences to let us know what is going on isn't a big ask.
Bill F Protagoras
Kimmy makes it quite clear in her exculpatory soliloquy it wasn't the devil that made her do it... it was Josh... all appearances to the contrary... he was the tempter and she merely the tempting low hanging fruit... Not Eve, but carnal knowledge itself with a touch of the cerebral to drive Josh mad.
Kat
I must be smart, because I know what a cobbler is. And, no, it’s not made of apples. Haha
Bill F Protagoras
Whilst naive Kimmy and others see an illusory 'man' rising out of Josh's experience and self absorbed Kimmy Chang's 'encouragement and condescension'... Josh, in his underprivileged gut, feels the ambiguous presence of a dark chimera stirring in his womb... A chimera he seals within... Could be due to something more than a mere penchant for concealment... Certainly could be pernicious indigestibility... When is Hyun gonna be obliged to offer her squint at the truth of the slick siren success show?
Bill F Protagoras
The smarts you already have, Kat, or you couldn't be learning from what you read... as you clearly and cheerfully are! I'm just a cobbler...
Chris K
If anyone under the age of 30 is reading this, they probably have no idea what your talking about....
Kat
You say it far better than I could, Bill. I’m getting smarter, though, reading KT!
RCH
When this ride started I never imagined we'd be here! I can see our couple settling in to child rearing Colleen becoming their main focus. Perhaps adding a few more children to the brood in the coming years. Life is good! Zoom forward DITW part II: Jedediah has just left for university (Jed is Kimmy and Josh's youngest). It's time for KT to release the beast again. Kimmy is still hot in her 40's...
L_S87
I'm not sure I'm that far onto the Kimmy deserves this train... But... I do what Josh to do *something* unexpected. Whether it's what I said in my post or taking a belt to her like she did to Amy, I want Kimmy to *feel* it, not just get her easy enjoyment she's worked *so* hard for... at Josh's expense.
Bill F Protagoras
Error..."He put his hand between them, angled his point to hr slit and slid himself inside..." "He put his hand between them, angled his point to 'her' slit and slid himself inside..."
Bill F Protagoras
Hear, hear! Kat! At heart Milton 'was' of the devil's party... A fully de-fledged party to the rebellion against the cavalier adherence to the divine right of kings! Off with their heads! Truly enlightened despots!
L_S87
LOL! Only you would use that term after this chapter while discussing the inner workings of a manual transmission! You're great, KT! So.. the answer is no. Sort of. The flywheel will be steel, which connects the crankshaft output from the engine, but the other side of that will be the clutch disc (or discs, depending on make/model) made out of some sort of composite material. The pressure plate goes behind the disc and pushes it into the flywheel to create friction for movement. When you push the clutch pedal in, you're reducing the spring tension the pressure plate applies to the clutch, allowing it to slip. But you only want that slip to occur with activation. You put grease on the clutch discs, they won't lock up on the flywheel, they'll just continuously slip as if you had the clutch pedal pushed in, so no energy transfer to the drive shaft to get you moving. Now, I say sort of, because some clutch discs can be metallic , but they're still generally a composite material designed to be grippy and be a wearable surface. While that's generally how it works for most manual vehicles, or what a person thinks of when you say "clutch" (pedal), motorcycles also have a clutch, and those generally are a wet clutch. While some are dry (Ducati is known for this on some of their bikes) most typically share the same case space as the gearbox and engine, so they all are bathed in the same oil. (This creates it's own challenges and is why you never use car oil in a motorcycle) The clutch pack in a bike typically resembles an automatic transmission more than a manual one, even if you do manually activate it. All that blah blah blah is a long way of saying, that even in a wet clutch application, or an auto with clutches and wave plates, you would never use grease. It's not the right consistency. You want to create a controlled amount of friction, not remove it via grease. So... Like I said. I'm being anal. Sorry!
Bill F Protagoras
"For man will hearken to his wife, and to her hearken not But in his heart will wish to do what she has said." The perfect fit! And perhaps a rare insight into blind John's personal beliefs... a welcome distraction from dutifully justifying the ways of god to man... or a more abstrusely divine form of intervention... and hopefully repaying a heartfelt debt of gratitude and love!
Bill F Protagoras
Good one!
KT Morrison
yes!
KT Morrison
So you're saying it's raw-dog metal on metal!?
Kat
Kimmy is Satan (the Devil in the waters), and Satan always gets what it wants. Throughout this story, a constant has been Kimmy fulfilling her lusts and getting what she wants, no matter the risk. And when she doesn’t get her way, eventually she finds a way to make it work for her. She wanted to be rich, have a big, expensive house, have a baby, Devlin’s job, and be with Josh at the end of it all. She’s gotten everything she wanted. I believe she loves Josh desperately, but it has to be her way. She loves him, too, because she can control him. She could never control Devlin, until she found a way to betray him. In a romantic relationship with Devlin, Kimmy would have been the loser. Josh and Kimmy’s relationship is not one of equals. I’m not saying it’s bad. It works for them. Josh wants all of this. It’s taken me a while to realize it. Josh wants what Kimmy’s giving him. He also serves Kimmy’s need to dominate and be in control. Even when she needs someone else (Devlin), it means nothing for her if she also doesn’t have Josh. As for Hyun, I hope we find out something about their relationship. I’m convinced that when Kimmy said “real sex” she meant M/F sex. She also said that “toys” weren’t even close to being equal. I took that as sex with Hyun and their strap-ons, and the Devlin replica. I would imagine that if Hyun heard this she’d be very upset. Hyun said she was expecting Kimmy and Josh’s reunion, but she was pretty upset. Why would she be so upset if she wasn’t being Kimmy’s girlfriend all year? I need to know, or as you said, what was the point of Hyun in this story? Why would we feel anything for her, unless there was more to their relationship?
Kat
Kimmy is Satan, and I’m not saying that in an accusing way. KT, I’m always learning something from your writing. :)
KT Morrison
Hearken to his wife here isn't from the bible. It's from Satan in Paradise Lost, saying, For man will hearken to his wife, and to her hearken not But in his heart will wish to do what she has said.
Chris K
He'll probably just use his finger gun 👉👌
L_S87
Maybe you guys are right. It's obvious Kimmy loves him, broken and awful as that love may be at times. She's just so damn manipulative and cunning that I struggle to see this as anything but premeditated. Certainly she couldn't control all of it, and she was afraid of Josh rejecting her, but I feel like everything she's done in this final book has lead to this event. Something she orchestrated because she wanted it that badly. As to Hyun, I'm with you guys on hoping there's more there. Whether it's Josh finding out, or at least us knowing through Kimmy what went on, it feels off that it would end between them on that conversation. Mostly because if that's truly it, then what's the point? You could literally dump her out of the series, add in a hired nanny, and it wouldn't substantively change the series from a Kimmy and Josh perspective. Hopefully we get a peak at what's going on there. It still feels odd that Josh so clearly felt something was going on there and yet dropped it like a hot rock, for apparently no reason. Makes me think *something* will happen with that.
JL23
You could be right Kat. Her interaction with Hyun a few chapters ago certainly inferred there was more. I think we as a reader do need an answer on that question, even if Josh never gets it. I hate to use that word "need" since we're not the writer and aren't necessarily entitled to answers on everything. If KT wants to leave that answer ambiguous to everyone, that's a writer's prerogative. It would just feel a bit odd to tease it a bunch and then not at least give the reader a definitive answer. At least for me.
Kat
Really good thoughts, JL. There’s not much I can add. You’ve said a lot of what I thought, as well. this chapter is like the mirror image of the chapters in Book 13, right after Josh watched Kimmy and Devlin together. She’s working him the same way, dredging up his anger, which causes him to act in a more forceful way which she enjoys. She learned from her mistakes and softened her approach, too. There’s sort of an absolution with this Josh. She did wrong, but if Josh hate fucks her, it’s not totally bad. She gets what she wants and so does Josh, but at what cost? I also think there’s an opening for her to show him the videos of Devlin. Prove to him that she’d do anything to avenge him. Kimmy doesn’t consider what she’s done with Hyun to be “real sex,” therefore she doesn’t have to tell Josh. To her, it’s not a real affair because Hyun is a woman, and she trusts Hyun not to betray her secrets. Hyun would be terribly hurt to know this, and that it’s this easy for Kimmy to walk away from what they shared. I was also wondering if Hyun could hear them upstairs when she was downstairs “babysitting” for them?
JL23
Maybe I give her too much credit, but I don't necessarily think she's been planning this particular outcome for a year, or that she deliberately let Josh suffer for a year so that he'd be broken enough to accept this lifestyle. There may be some of that in it, I do think she needed Josh to come to her, but I do believe part of it was she was genuinely afraid of initiating a reconciliation herself and having Josh reject it. And I think on a certain level, she takes cues on where to push things from Josh's actions. She recognizes Josh looked for the panties, she sees Josh pushing in certain ways, and how he's responding to her answers. It's a two way street, I guess is what I'm saying. Is Kimmy manipulating? Yes, but Josh in many ways is asking for her to do that too. More and more, I wonder if the moral of the story is these are two people who are both probably bad for each other, but they're also perfect for each other. Maybe they'd be better off apart in the long run, but neither can really survive without the other long enough to truly find that out.
Tracey52
I hope he suffocates her.
L_S87
Completely agree with this. I may not *like* it, but this was very well done.
L_S87
KT, I know I'm being anal with this, so please forgive me, but the line "Josh’s motor ran at speed and the greased clutch fit right into place." makes no sense. A greased clutch is worthless. It would just continuously slip and you'd go nowhere. Okay, I'll now turn off my mechanical grumblings and we'll get back to your regularly scheduled grudge fuck.
L_S87
I was going to post my thoughts, but I don't really need to after reading this, because we're basically in the same place, JL. I wanted Kimmy to do right by Josh, to earn his trust, his love. Get them back by giving Josh the love, caring and tenderness he needed to be made whole. And she could have done it. But she didn't. Instead she played house with Hyun for months while she watched Josh from afar. Let him stew and marinate in his darkness and despair. I don't fault her for initially leaving. Things were a mess. She was a mess. But she could have ended Josh's suffering 6+ months ago. She didn't because she chose not to. Not because it wasn't right or the timing wasn't perfect for Josh, but because it wasn't perfect for her. You see how she's getting off on Josh hate fucking her, and she's loving it just as much, if not more, than anything Devlin ever did. And she wouldn't have gotten this, any of it, if she'd done the right thing and spent months loving Josh and earning him back slowly. Earning his trust back. No, she wanted what's happening right now because this is *her* itch, her need that she wants satisfied. And it only happens if she lets Josh suffer for over a year. Clearly a calculated risk that she almost lost multiple times, and I do think she loves him and would be awful for him and that she truly believes everything she's saying. But none of that changes that this night is still more for her than for Josh, or that she didn't leave him to rot and writhe in mental anguish simply so she could have this outcome. Because she doesn't get this nasty, depraved sex from Josh if she goes slow and gains his trust by making him whole. No, she needs him somewhat broken and full of hate for it to work. Would serve her right if Josh pulled her hair back while he was fucking her from behind and whispered in her ear "I lied too, I fucked Karina just like this while we were apart and I enjoyed her big tits and ass that's so much better than yours." That wouldn't ever happen, but it would be awesome to experience.
Donkatsu
Should we read anything into the line from Genesis, "Hearken to your wife" just as Jews are rewinding the Torah scrolls and moving through that part of Genesis over the next few weeks. Josh already had his time of wandering in the desert on the last run through.
Bill F Protagoras
PPS I presumed "Josh grimaced, nowhere near as turned on by the idea than she was." Was what you wanted to say... rather than the more uncomplicated... "Josh grimaced, nowhere near as turned on by the idea 'as' she was."
Bill F Protagoras
Though Othello deliberately in his maddened state misconstrues his wife as from the devil, her name from the Greek means unfortunate or ill-fated...
Bill F Protagoras
PS KT you never cease to amaze...
Bill F Protagoras
"Josh palmed the back of her head and pushed her face into the pillow." OTHELLO "It is the cause, it is the cause, my soul. Let me not name it to you, you chaste stars, It is the cause. Yet I’ll not shed her blood, Nor scar that whiter skin of hers than snow And smooth as monumental alabaster. Yet she must die, else she’ll betray more men. Put out the light, and then put out the light. If I quench thee, thou flaming minister, I can again thy former light restore Should I repent me. But once put out thy light, Thou cunning’st pattern of excelling nature, I know not where is that Promethean heat That can thy light relume. When I have plucked thy rose I cannot give it vital growth again, It must needs wither. I’ll smell thee on the tree. Oh, balmy breath, that dost almost persuade Justice to break her sword! One more, one more. Be thus when thou art dead and I will kill thee And love thee after. (kissing her) One more, and that’s the last. So sweet was ne'er so fatal. I must weep, But they are cruel tears. This sorrow’s heavenly, It strikes where it doth love." But Kimmy's no Desdemona... though demonic... and Josh's anger's probably untainted by regret... and he shares an incriminating scrap of tainted cloth with the Moor of Venice...
Bill F Protagoras
I still hope for the shoe dangling from Kimmy's foot to succumb to gravity...
Bill F Protagoras
"Hearken to his wife." That's some injunction... "And unto Adam he said, Because thou hast hearkened unto the voice of thy wife, and hast eaten of the tree, of which I commanded thee, saying, Thou shalt not eat of it: cursed is the ground for thy sake; in sorrow shalt thou eat of it all the days of thy life; "
Bill F Protagoras
"Josh roared and withdrew his cock from her hot scabbard, hoisting her to one side, scrambling to get her on her hands and knees. He’d let go of her hair, and she complied. Josh palmed the back of her head and pushed her face into the pillow." Bitch... The unspoken epithet of the goddess Hekate, only begotten child!... A silent burning reproach...
Bill F Protagoras
“You’re worse than Devlin ever was,” he said, jaw clamped." Josh said curtly and cruelly consigning Kimmy to deeper damnation than his lifelong nemesis... (see my retraction of putting Kimmy on a par with Devlin in a later addendum*),
Bill F Protagoras
"His hand closed on her collar, then stroked her throat, his thumb caressing her tendon. There was anger in his eyes. Anger and disgust; but Josh sweetened that emotion with lust’s coarse sugar." “You have to be kidding me,” he said, voice low and disbelieving." "No plan survives first contact with the enemy..." Some clever cunt!
Bill F Protagoras
"Her eyes opened again, her features relaxing to an inscrutable mask, assessing Josh’s judgment before she spoke." Wearing her realistic persona at last... catching him catching her breath...
Bill F Protagoras
"Josh studied her, his soft eyes roaming her naked body, wondering if she told him the truth. And what would he think of her if he deemed her truthful? That she was good? That she was noble? Maybe he would hear this confession as sin. As a promise of her powerful malice. It could frighten him." "It is better to remain silent and be thought a fool than to talk and remove all doubt.” Neither Lincoln, nor Twain... Much, much older than either...
Bill F Protagoras
"She said, “I would have got Devlin on his knees and made him suck your cock.” Josh grimaced, nowhere near as turned on by the idea than she was."
Bill F Protagoras
"She had strayed too far from fantasy and dosed him with emotional concepts that he would argue against. But she couldn’t stop talking." Presenting her argument... courting a man she hopes will become her client... innocence impossible... scrabbling on shale hoping to make a stand on a 'not guilty' verdict... each flailing in the residual darkness... They have both always secretly prided themselves on hiding things each from the other... "For now we see through a glass, darkly; but then face to face: now I know in part; but then shall I know even as also I am known." Corinthians, " Do unto others..." Is it the Golden Rule? Or the Golden Mean? "Someone must have been telling lies about Joseph K., for without having done anything wrong he was arrested one fine morning." The Trial.
Bill F Protagoras
“I hurt you, Josh. But what I wanted most was your transcendence. I wanted you to shrug off Devlin’s juvenile mantle. You’re so much more than he is." ”A chump. A cuck. A man whose wife ran games around his impotent ass." "It is better to remain silent and be thought a fool than to talk and remove all doubt.” *Although, when Josh excoriates Kimmy with the accusation that she is worse than Devlin she implies, in her rebuttal, that unlike Josh's compulsive bully, the degree of hurt she inflicted was unintentional. She did what she did out of love which is a line away from hate... thin though that line may be! Perhaps, the Lord permitting, she should not be misunderstood, and her intentions should not be fit solely for the purpose of paving hell bound thorough fares! Or... O Lord, please don't let her be misunderstood!
JL23
“Listen to Your Wife.” I see this chapter as almost a mirror version of what Kimmy attempted that night in their apartment after the fateful threesome at the Royal York. She’s using a lot of the same explanations to turn Josh’s engine up and get him to submit, to her and to his desires. But now she has a Josh who’s been adrift at sea for a year, and experienced loss, of his wife and 6 months with his baby. So she has a Josh who is more amenable to heed the beacon of light from the shore. Also, whereas in the apartment she was confrontational in a condescending way, she seems to be striking a better tone here, one more likely to result in her desired outcome. And in many ways, she’s spinning the fact that a part of Josh will always hate her and what she did, into something both of them can hang onto. Hate is a powerful emotion, and in many ways it feels like Kimmy has been able to spin that hate into a positive in her own head, as much as Josh. She’s turned on by the hate as much as he is, she’s deriving pleasure from the idea that Josh will “punish” her. In a lot of ways, she’s taking pleasure from the idea that she’s provided Josh his “man” card in a way, and now he’s showing her how he’ll use it. Really interesting and complex chapter, I think I agree with L_S87 that I need more time to let it marinate. I’m not sure I love it either, or that’s it’s a truly healthy relationship, but I can see how it would work for these particular people. Again, I really don’t know with the Hyun stuff. This is all in Kimmy’s POV, and telling Josh something about Hyun seems the furthest thing from her mind. She mentions not having “real sex” in a year, which could again just mean sex with a man, or it could mean she hasn’t had sex with Hyun either. I just don’t know anymore. I kind of wonder if she’s going to show him those videos though, it felt like a lot of her “confessions” could be leading to that revelation. You want to see how ridiculous I made Devlin look, what a chump I turned him into…let me show you,
Bill F Protagoras
"But Josh saw her in that moment in a way she hid."
Andrew Mellein
I love it.
L_S87
Okay, I think I get it now. Too much of a dissertation of thoughts to unload tonight, but really well done, KT. I don't love it, in fact I think I might hate it, *but*, just like Kimmy is absorbing Josh's hate and reveling in it, I have to admire how amazing this was that you thought this out to this conclusion.
