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(Audio Continuation) Touch-Starved Best Friend Needs You Tonight (Part 1 + 2) (FWB) (Friends to More) (Cuddles) (Kisses) (F4M)

🕑 Added 2023-11-13 23:54:56 +0000 UTC

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Ecoterrorist Thot

This was the audio that got me to discover your work. It's not only great because of the cozyness or the emotion, and you're definitely one of the most emotionally potent creators in the space but because in the first 10 minutes there's multiple instances where I resonate with the bitterness, as awful as it is on my part. In 15 days I'm turning 25 years old, the age the speaker mentions and I have so little to show for it in terms of connections. No one has ever been attracted to me. This isn't an exaggeration, as it is affected by years of pretty brutal and needless self-isolation. When the speaker asks what it's like to fall in love... I've only had two crushes and one was completely engineered by peer pressure. But the weird part is I never convinced myself I'm happier single, I think for a while I thought being openly miserable was the noble thing to do. Late in 2024 my living situation changed, I'm around more of my friends than ever, life is overall better than ever but something burst a few months back and the loneliness got worse and worse (around fucking Valentine's Day- a day that never affected me even at my most self-flagellating). I'm now trying to get back in therapy and working hard to stop pushing my closest people away with needless negativity but sometimes although it obviously won't solve what working on myself will it feels like I need just one win to stop feeling invisible or less than human. Allowing myself to be a bit vulnerable and putting myself out there has been very hard and it has illuminated that I've "done this wrong" and put myself in a big hole socially. It sucks so so much. Every day there's people who overcome themselves or their perceived limitations to build connections because it is the natural, human thing to do. And it's beautiful but it's somehow not me and it hurts so painfully every day. Things like ________ ideation are manifesting for me worse than ever despite the fact I'm otherwise in the best position I've been in my life. And ASMR has been a huge help as a cope honestly, although it depends on my mood what kind of audios I can listen to without being infuriated. Not only is having gentle voices around me very nice and helpful but also it makes me think about life situations I've never been in and frankly might never get to. Hear words or be treated in a way I'd never imagined would happen in a relationship (and I'm talking about the more realistic content here, although tropey stuff has its place too). I'm kind of burying this comment by putting this in a way older audio even though it's the most relevant one. Although I really appreciate your work and I'm sure a lot of vulnerable people have reached out in some way, you're not my therapist, I don't want to take advantage of anyone's kindness, I want to respect your boundaries as a person. I just needed to vent somewhere instead of keeping it inside and taking it out on others. I am genuinely sorry for anyone who might read this. Remember that life goes on and you're always your harshest critic and should give yourself grace more often no matter what you feel like you deserve.

Heir Elentiya

That was Lionel Cassio playing!! I did not expect that, I love his music so much. I see now it's in the description, but it's not something you hear often so it was a pleasant surprise