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Please read. Burnout + Changing plans
🕑 Added 2020-12-09 02:54:12 +0000 UTCTL;DR I had the worst burnouts moments those last days and I must need to change my plans to respect my body and my mental illness. Mitsuri will be a January/future set and I will send Xmas Ann + Elf and casual new sets this month.
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Hello Cherries! I need to talk a really serious thing about my health.
After 8 months insisting pretending I was fine, my body is asking for a rest. Recently I had an horrible burnout and so I decided to respect myself, finally. You guys already know because I have talked about it before, since April I lost all my income, here on Patreon and also lost my Offline work. They were really bad months because we live here in 4 people and only one didn't lost his work (and well, it wasn't me haha.).
In those months I tried to work 10x more here, earning 10x less than normal... That's it, Since april I have been earning $50 everymonth on Patreon. I spent money from my own pocket to do new sets everymonth to try to receive more support, but it's very hard, even if I am trying in all ways on social medias. The pandemic thing destroyed my body and my mental health too. I got back with my artesanal work a few time ago and I’m working absurdly more, sometimes 18hrs a day without any breaks, only with the artesanal/offline work, to get money in the month to pay the bills and still get a little to do new sets for Patreon, since my Patreon income doesn’t revert any money to new sets anymore.
I always feel the fault is because my face or my body, because I am not pretty enough to be sucessful on eromodeling. I have been here doing lewds for 5 years now and it looks like I can never grow in my eromodeling, even if I follow all the tips of other girls say to me to grow and even if my prices are lower than the majority girls. Its sad and my mental health got worse and worse in these past months, to the point that I have problems of not being able to take pictures because I see myself horrible.
Anyway, I am trying to be better. But this month a lot of bad things happened and I had to overload myself in my offline work, going 15 hours a day without sitting and resting, to the point of starting to have severe pain and almost faint from exhaustion. I hurt my body and I am still feeling pain. I couldn't do the december sets at the weekend because I had to work non-stop with my offline work, I had terrible changes in plans and I'm still working without being able to stop to rest or posting in my social medias.
Because of that I really don't have any conditions to do 3 new big sets this month. Since the Elf and the Mitsuri will be big sets with big scenario and efforts (usually I do my shoots in about 6-8 hours), I will choose one of them to put my last efforts and respect my body. I need to be ok to do my eromodeling and do a beautiful work for you, my lovely Cherries.
So I chose to do the xmas elf OC and Mitsuri will be the erocosplay for January or other month. I will send the Xmas Ann photoset as Set #1 and do a big content with the elf original character. I will try to do cute casual pics for a xmas gift in the same day and also a cellphone pics. They will be not a big production (only the elf one), but I will try my best.
I will need to exchange this month schedule too, to be able to send all content without burning out me even more. In the next days I will talk better about it.
Really thank you if you read this big wall of text and sorry for this post. I feel I need to be honest with my Cherries, because I don't want anymore Manager Z needing to do posts saying I had a burnout and I am sick. So I decided to be 100% honest with you Cherries and change a little the plans to be more lighter for me and be able to send a better content for you.
Thank you again and have an amazing month! (๑♡⌓♡๑)
Comments
Anonymous
I’ve been following for a few years, and being a patron when I can, but I just wanted to say that it isn’t you. You do great work, and even if you never become super famous you have made a lot of people happy along the way. That said, burnout is really tough and I am happy you are stepping back and taking care of yourself. You are more than a model to a lot of us - we care about you as a person and want you to be happy and healthy. Your mental health matters!
Anya Twerk
Thank you for this information 💜💜💜💜❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
