heartdamage
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hi!
🕑 Added 2021-08-26 00:21:39 +0000 UTChey so i wanted to hop on really quick and tell you guys a thing!!
first of all, i have 2 nsfw audios scheduled to go up on here before the end of the month but i forgot to record the airplane early access so i am actually going to be recording 3 instead of the 2. i’ll be posting the poll for the other 2 audios either today and tomorrow and record and post the airplane audio tomorrow so i hope you guys are hype!
second of all, i don’t plan to announce this publicly but i’m probably going to take a break from GWA in September and not post any content over there. idk if any of y’all know what happened last night but another audio of mine got deleted and then reinstated. my audios haven’t been performing at the standard i set for myself and i’ve been getting downvoted for no reason and i have no idea why. for the last few months i’ve been just trying to focus on myself and making my audios better and i would be lying if i said it’s not discouraging to know there are people who want me to fail when i’m just trying to commit myself to making the best content i can make.
this is no way meant to be me complaining because i am grateful for everything i have and all of you being here. if i’m being 100 percent honest, being a part of gonewildaudio hasn’t been good for my mental health since last year. there was a while at the beginning of the year where i didn’t want to be alive because of stuff related to GWA. i only really post there because i treat it as “advertising” for my patreon. it’s gotten to a point where i get extremely anxious every single time i post on there or comment on anything because i know so many people want to see me fail and i’m going to get reported or someone is going to make me feel like a crazy person simply for being a woman on the internet.
i just thought i would let y’all know because i know a lot of you take your leave at the end of the month and look forward to my content over there and i always want to be completely transparent with you guys about anything going on in my life. if i change my mind about this, i’ll be sure to post about it on here and i’ll still continue posting audio previews and stuff on my reddit profile as well.
i know that in the grand scheme of my life, downvotes and shitty dms and comments don’t matter. but sometimes being a girl on the internet feels like i’m the girl in the princess and the pea, laying there in my big comfy bed and still bruising because of something as small as a pea hidden underneath.
anyway that’s it. i hope you guys have a nice rest of your day. thank you for being here and enjoying what i make. if it wasn’t for all of you, i seriously don’t know what i would be doing with my life these days and that is never lost on me. i appreciate you.
-m
Comments
Ernie Bass
Hang in there, M. We love you
Pete
It's okay M you're literally perfect and I'm sorry that happened but always take care of yourself first🥺
m
it happens to everyone tbh that's just how it is when platforms get bigger. i guess my skin just isn't thick enough and that's nobody's fault but my own.
m
shane thank u 😭♥️
m
it's not like i haven't gone through this before tbh i've been targeted over there a few times and it sucks every time. i'd rather just put my energy into making audios for y'all on here than wasting any energy on anonymous people on the internet tbh
m
thank you so much, seriously. and thank you for being here 💖
m
thank u so much ♥️i don't want to give any of the like rude people any attention so that's why i just want to focus on making content on here for y'all instead
m
thank u sm ❤️
m
this means so much rick thank you so much 💕
m
thanks willow ur a prince 💖
ManyEyedCrow
And yay on the new audios, though that seems much less important.
ManyEyedCrow
That is awful, M. You don’t deserve to feel like that. I am having a hard time understanding the kind of cretin who would downvote your posts. Difficult to understand. If love and support from your fans helps, you definitely have it. Much love.
Shane
Please know that we all love, honor and support you! You are amazing, you are strong and you are special.
Rick
Well said.
chickpea
I am sorry that you felt like you didn’t want to be alive, it always hurts to read that. And I know it’s not particularly uncommon, but I think it is worth acknowledging what an awful place it is, and that no one should have to be there. On a more positive note, I hope the break helps and your words and audios have helped me when I have felt very low. Thank you so much for that.
Kyle Fengler
That is very relatable and understandable. I think it's important to use an external platform with more discoverability to network to your Patreon, but maybe Reddit isn't the thing for you.
There's a reason we're all here, we love your content and want to support you. Don't let random assholes bring you down on reddit. I appreciate everything you do.
Kenny
Everyone here loves you and the work you do! Don’t let faceless / nameless jerks get to you❤️Do what you need to do love
In the Ether
TAke care of yourself and know people on this site are here by choice.
Rick
I personally try to avoid things like Reddit. The reason I am here supporting you is because I love your work and think you have some proper talent. I am looking forward to the upcoming audios. Especially the airplane one as I did send that type of suggestion in and over the moon that you are considering it and even "hand picked it" that all said I am not going anywhere as long as you're here you have my support. I am sure I am not alone.
Willow
Do whatever you need to for your own mental health! ❤
