heartdamage
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IMPORTANT (pls pls pls pls pls read)
🕑 Added 2022-03-25 22:06:04 +0000 UTChey guys!
first off, let me apologize for being MIA. if you listened to my last audio post, then you know i was struggling with my mental health pretty severely earlier this month and almost sought out a psychiatric center to check myself into. before i start with the update, thank you so much for the continued support and general good vibes you all sent my way. i feel a lot better and that has a lot to do with all of you being so kind and supportive.
now onto the important stuff!
i will be pausing the billing on my patreon in April so none of you will be charged.
i know i've had a rough patch but a lot of you have been on patreon with me for a long time and know it wasn't until recently that i started having issues that interfered so much with my work. i've been doing this for 3 years and this will only be my second time pausing my patreon. i know that probably means nothing to some of you but i hope it says something about my work ethic beyond these last few months. i don't feel comfortable going into April not having provided what you were promised so i hope you allow me the opportunity to catch up and provide what you paid for. if by April 30th, you're unsatisfied and decide i'm not worthy of your support, then i understand.
in addition to doing this to provide you guys with the content you were promised, i am also doing this because patreon has weighed really heavily on me for the last few months and i just want to record and have fun again. i am hoping by may 1st, i'm completely caught up and i've completely shaken off all of this bullshit that's been going on in my life.
a few other reasons for my pausing my patreon are:
- i want to archive all my audios and have them be searchable by tier and tag via my website so they are more easily accessible to you all so i’ll be working on that through April. i had never done this before because i have SO many audios and archiving them is such a tedious process but at this time, i'm committed to prioritizing my patreon catalog so it's searchable for you all and then i can tackle the free audios when the time comes. haha.
- my family is moving in with me for 2 weeks in May + i’ll be traveling to Baja California so i’m going to begin recording ahead so i can start May off on a complete new slate and any issues in the future do not affect recordings. i have always recorded and posted in real time but i definitely think i need to evolve my method of posting and i'm sure you all would agree with me.
- lastly, i am trying to figure out what other platforms i can move my audios to as i seriously have not felt comfortable posting on GWA for over a year. if you're confused as to why that is, (this is tough) i was sexually assaulted in my past and being able to do femdom stuff has always been hella therapeutic in a way for me? like i was able to take my power back? and the mods consistently took down my work as r*pe, so i was basically forced to identify my work as such when i do not do that content, period. their inability to help and general better-than-thou attitude along with their shamey practices really really hurt my feelings on top of being targeted repeatedly and that community just generally not being good for my mental health. some people definitely thrive on that subreddit, and i definitely feel like i had my time but i feel like my time has passed and i need to move on. maybe pornhub or xvideos or something? only time will tell and i hope i have a game plan by the end of April.
a few of you wrote to me concerned about my finances doing this as i've been candid about my expenses and shit but i just feel like this is what i need to do to reset and get myself back to where i was. throughout this last month, i had a lot of time to think and ask myself if i want to continue doing audios or if i think my time is done. i am not done. i still have so much i want to do and my audio quality jumped a ton last year and i want to continue exploring that!
i hope you all allow me to as well.
all my love,
m
Comments
Mark Dalton
Wishing you massive amounts of healing and happiness!
Tung Nguyen
Just joined since I loved your old audios on GWA. Just wanted to say take care and hope you can get some mental rest the coming weeks. Stay safe and enjoy the coming spring.
Stephen Tabor
Do what you have to do. Your health and well-being should always come first.
FlexLuthor22
I'm glad to hear that you're feeling a bit better M! It's incredibly freeing to feel like you're finally on the other side of things. Your health comes first. Take care of yourself. And we'll be here when you return. Sending you lots of positive vibes.
Zenmunsta
Take your time be well! Naturally your mental health comes first!
Shane
Bless you M, stay strong and know that we all love, honor and support you.
Alex
Good luck M! Take care and we'll be waiting for you!
Bluff Oranzova
Im happy to hear you got help and have a plan! Its so hard but its really heartwarming to hear you’ve really got it down now and I hope your break treats you well. Im sorry about GWA, its so strange how many creators i met there that had a terrible experience and it doesnt seem to be changing. Its a shame but theres plenty of platforms to share on. I look forward to catching up with audios after your break! Take care M 🧡🧡🧡
Tilimo
Sending you many hugs and a lot of warm feelings your way. I hope you find what you are looking for and you are able to do the things you have in mind. What you wrote tells me you have a big heart for this community and the people that love your work. Take care
