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Matters of the Heart.... </3
🕑 Added 2023-05-01 18:47:04 +0000 UTCI'm currently experiencing an excruciating painful loss of love in my life.
It has affected my ability to eat, sleep, breathe and believe.
I lost something I truly valued, loved and believed in.
I have spent every second replaying these past nine months in my head... wishing for what can't be undone and aching for what is no longer mine.
This is a devastation I have never felt before... it feels like I will never recover and if I do, I will never be the same.
I know there is a light at the end of the tunnel, I"m trying to focus on it and let it lead me back to who I was before this crushing pain darkened my world.
I'm starting to push myself forward as far as my modeling career goes but it is filled with resistance as it all seems so meaningless without his love in my life.
I'm trying to accept that what I truly believed in, was not something to believe in after all.
During this time of dealing with acceptance, grief and intense healing, I will focus on becoming the love that I need and that will eventually be enough for me.
I don't have an interest in "moving on" towards anyone new... just moving forward into making myself a better version of me.
searching for the light .....
Lumen
Comments
PaulG
You are not alone in this. A lot of people have been reevaluating everything over the past few years. Not that there won't be a future something, but this is the moment, of anger, but remembering who she is herself. I think she hit it just right with the timing of this song (just when she was starting to think she might not have another huge hit): Miley Cyrus - Flowers (Backyard Sessions) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QNv8iODCAwE
Bethany
Thank you so much for this message.... I truly appreciate it! I'm trying my best to heal and move forward no matter how slow. </3
Réan du Plessis
🙏🙏🙏moving forward will not be easy, but staying in the past will destroy any soul ❤❤❤❤ the decision is ultimately with the individual. Let your past not determine your future, 💪
