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A personal note, and a thank you.
🕑 Added 2024-01-01 20:05:14 +0000 UTCI've always tried to be as private as possible, and not bore others with tales of my personal life. I wanted to break that rule for a moment and talk to you about what your support on here means to me.
TL;DR - I've recently been struggling to understand why people watch my videos. You guys give me the confidence to believe that maybe I do have something to offer. Whether you've been here for a month or a year, thank you so much for the support!
I've become increasingly aware of what it means to click the Publish button on a new video. Something I made alone in my bedroom might be watched by 100,000s of people. Looking back, it's strange that this never phased me. It was just normal. This dawning realisation has made me more insecure about the quality of my content, and I've wasted so much time recently making videos that I end up scrapping.
This is paired with the feeling that I'm losing touch with what people like about my videos. I still enjoy making them, but in a world of TikTok and snappy narration, I don't know why people enjoy my slower style of editing. I don't know if I even like it anymore.
This is at least what I think the problem is. I'm still trying to figure out exactly what I'm going through. I wish I could go more into detail, but sometimes you just can't explain anxiety.
In 2023, LEMMINO followed me on Twitter. If you aren't familiar with his work, he makes exceptionally well-edited videos. I talked with him a bit and he said he's watched me for years and likes my editing style. On my last video, another popular creator Garreth Watts left a really lovely comment about how he's been watching my videos and how great an editor he thinks I am.
Receiving compliments from these two creators, as well as the continued support from you all on here, has been a bit of a wake-up call that maybe my self doubts are all in my head. I know it's all in my head, but I've just been trying to find out how to work through it.
Despite this sob story, I'm still looking forward to making videos. I'm not rolling in cash like a lot of YouTubers, and I do struggle with making content, but I'm incredibly grateful for what I do have.
I still don't know what I've done that inspired so many of you, and the 100s who have passed through here, to donate your own money to help me out... but I'm so grateful! Thank you!
Happy New Year! <3
Comments
ssmelllyboi
I know it’s been a couple of months but your content itself is what’s so special; your creative output. It glistens like a calming cloud in a sky full of raptor jets and it’s been like that for YEARS. Whether you create or not, everyone is grateful that you decide to share your works with us. Thank you for your work again, and have a good one!
FunWithGuru
Wishing you the best too, Deb! I think you've been here longer than anyone. I'm eternally grateful! <3
Deb
No worries, Guru. Wishing you good things to come in 2024.
FunWithGuru
Creatively? I want to feel more comfortable using my voice in videos, just because there are some videos that I can't make without it. Personally? Find more hobbies. I hope you accomplish all you resolutions this year! <3
hyftyhyfty
We love you guru! You got any resolutions for the year?
Josh Kriesman
Almost 10 years I've been here, and I wouldn't change that for the world. Thank you for being you.
Bradley L
Been watching you for 10 years (first vid wus B02 zombies Easter egg) and I’ve stuck around cause the style of video you’ve woven with editing and gaming have been remarkable. The more developed your content has become the more I want to tune in for another video. I could be here for another ten years and not blink an eye because your vids have always been so timeless, poised, and thoroughly enjoying. You have a style like no other and I hope that these messages can relay a bit of reassurance with your ability in this craft. So far no one has come close to how you can make these vids feel. Thank you for providing the content you do, I’ll be here till the end fr. (Also you got me into electronic music lowk w petit biscuit so ty🙏)
FunWithGuru
Thank you, Tyler! I know you've been supporting me for while. I really appreciate the kind words! <3
FunWithGuru
I really appreciate the advice, Geoffrey! Speaking to other creators who felt similarly really helped, and I do think it's getting better for me. I'm sure I'll bounce back at some point.
Tyler Comeau
God Guru, where to even start man, I've been watching you for YEARS bc growing up I was always a sucker for easter eggs and your clean sleek editing is just so satisfying to watch in video form I don't know how to explain it, I'm such a huge fan, I even remember watching the 10 hour video you posted YEARS ago and telling my dad I was watching it bc I was so happy you uploaded, I know I'm just a fan but hopefully me saying I'm proud of you for becoming how big you are today from where you started fills you with joy, BC I've had the amazing opportunity to watch you and your editing style grow over the years, keep it up man, you're always gonna have people behind you backing you up, sorry for such a long message, just thought you'd appreciate it, much love Guru <3 - sincerely, a dedicated fan : )
Georges Chastanet
I love your channel Guru. For years it has been for me a calm and comforting moment to sit and watch your videos. You made me love this idea that somewhere in all the games we play there is this small detail, left by a caring human who thougt about the watchful.
Geoffrey Garrett
Keep doing what you love! Easter eggs are one of my greatest childhood memories. Now I'm just an older child, and Easter eggs are still one of my greatest experiences. Thank you for all that you do.
Geoffrey Garrett
I took LSD for my first time in 2012; the first half of my night was the greatest time of my entire life, and the second half of my night was the worst experience of my entire. I then struggled with anxiety for the next two or so years. The two things that helped me through these times were 1) knowing that I was not alone, and 2) exposure therapy. Keep doing the scary things in a safe, controlled environment, and slow but surely, inch back towards "normal." And now, I am stronger for having suffered and conquered.
raydencaye
Still one of my fav content creators of all time even after all these years 😤 You’re videos are truly art, hope you know that! Much love and appreciation to you and your craft 🫶🫶 Cheers to another year supporting you 🎉
