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(Suggestive) Hot milf summer
🕑 Added 2023-06-16 05:08:01 +0000 UTCSomeone sent me the most insanely skimpy swimsuit in my DMs and wanted to see Lucian in it so I did it... but also, I've been really in the mood for just a subtly older version of her. Like in her 30s "it's 5 'o clock somewhere" wine mom era. Just does not care at all but in the good nihilist way. Definitely says things to be purposefully a little inflammatory, but more in a way where she actively wants to challenge people's perceptions (she gets that particular habit from Styga, one of the guys y'all have yet to be introduced to). 100% in her she/her era, but also very firmly and proudly talks about being a gay man because it's like... shit that was such a formative and important identity for her that allowed her the first step to being comfortable in her queerness. She gets it now, those two things exist together. She doesn't have feel like her bid to be hypermasculine in her past invalidates her present self. Rather, it enriches it. Those experiences are a part of her and make her who she is; it is not a bad thing, it is not wrong. But also she's happily a dude, and being a woman has enriched her experience as a man in a way far more meaningful than anything she'd done in the past (no amount of social posturing, going to the gym, or fishing was going to make her a cis dude). That's genderfluidity for you baby, it all is meaningful and exists together and that's the beauty of it.
I wrote that like I had an awakening/realization, but it's something I already thought and talked about frequently with my close friends for some time now. However, it's something I only felt okay to say to others more recently because I realize that if you don't get it, or you hate gender nonconformity, you're just going to inherently despise me. It's pride month and we have enough of that as is so who cares? Anyways, it was pretty clear from how I draw Lucian. I'm just saying it explicitly now because I'd be doing a disservice not just to Lucian, but to myself and others otherwise.
And to clarify for anyone who's confused about how to refer to Lucian, I did want to say that I default to he/him pronouns with Lucian mostly because it's the only thing he goes by at this point in time in the webcomic (~ep. 90 of NPCs). I do my best to use the pronouns he would go by at the point of his life I draw him at (which is mostly in the first year he isekais). However, if you use any other pronoun, it really does not matter at all, they're all right! And in instances like this where I draw him older, I literally just throw a mental dart in the pronoun board in my brain and go with whatever I hit. Today it's she/her, tomorrow, who knows?
I wonder what neopronouns Lucian would use... something somehow tangentially math related because the older she gets the more nerdy she becomes. Like 3 fantasy phds in and on her 4th one right now, she's actually almost done with her dissertation if you want to hear about it, it's really fascinating stuff to do with theoretical physics and its relationship to the magic system in this world--
I'll end this off by saying this story after NPCs (it's called Lucent and I'll make a tag for that in the future), is about a long, arduous journey of self-discovery, self-love, and how being comfortable in one's body and identity makes them an even better lover to 9 guys who also definitely need to have the same situation happen to them (spoiler: it does--the self-discovery and love, not the transgendering. The ones that are, already figured that out long ago because it's my fantasy world and I've decided it's pretty trans friendly actually)
I cannot believe a drawing of subtly milf Lucian really brought this out of me.
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Thank youuu🥺 she’s my babygirl fr
Adaptive Chaos
Wow wow wowie I love her and her gender so very much 🥺🥺
Aster
honestly no matter how they identify Lucian always gives me Gender Envy and i love them for it. I wish i were that level of comfortable.
