Gdylan91
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Allow me to explain the 2 week hiatus...
🕑 Added 2020-08-26 02:57:11 +0000 UTCI'm going to keep this long story short. I've been struggling mentally and physically, with the impacts of my weight gain lately. I love fat, the feeling of it in my hands, the look, and the presence of it, but the byproduct of my changing body isn't always rainbows and lollipops. I struggle from time to time with appetite, and it becomes somewhat of a chore, or a punishment, to eat for the purpose of gaining weight (Partly due to my IBS).
This bundle of emotions, and the physical soreness I've been feeling lately, leads to me feeling flat. My sexual drive, desires and self image can take a plummet when I'm feeling this way, and I'm in no mood to record anything. The sharing of my body should be a feel good experience for both you and I. If I were to do anything while feeling this way, it would be conveyed in the content, and i'd rather release no content, than releasing something that has an underlying negative mood.
Part of all of this is my heightened anxiety of leaving the home to shop for food. Not due to self image, but due to the current pandemic. I've had less food around me as a result, which then leads to less consumption, less gains, more pressure, and no results. Leaving me with that flat feeling. It's a cycle that needs to be broken. I have to find a balance, and I'm trying to.
I've released new content today because i'm feeling better. I've come to a realisation of the issue and what needs to be done to fix it. I'll be working out some sort of food plan... where I plan ahead and make sure there's enough around to indulge. Overeating, grazing stuffing... food in general, is all an arousal, and is part of my overall sexual drive and determination as a gainer.
I can only hope that you understand and know that i'll be back to normal soon.
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Comments
Justin Farinosi
Hope you figure out whats best for you m8. We all support your decisions regarding your health
