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Camilla (WiP 08.17.23)
🕑 Added 2023-08-18 03:38:15 +0000 UTCIt’s almost Friday!
Im going through my usual problems lately of wondering if I’m doing the right thing with balancing a low paying job & drawing at night or sporadically throughout the day rather than dedicating my whole day to it like I had usually done; all with the JP studies I’ve been keeping up with. I really do want to become a great artist but I had a sudden feeling of demoralization after feeling like the studies I’ve done so far had little effect, like not much sticks with me, but at the same time maybe I didn’t do nearly enough.
Then it’s like I’m trying to keep a social media presence up, trying to keep commissions coming, keeping my sub count from stagnating which has been difficult, and then finally drawing what I want to draw for the fun of it.
people say it’s never too late to learn to draw, of course it’s not but it really was a blessing to have so much free time when younger, and unfortunately for me I didn’t know that I would really want to be a professional artist one day so now I have to have these adult problems (like everyone else of course). I wish I could be someone who can learn things in strides with enough time. Maybe I distract myself too much
im just rambling at this point, I’m only slightly frustrated with myself. I just hope things turn out better once I put in the time and effort
Comments
Katsunei
I did ask one recently and they told me they did basically study under a pro for a while who helped them. Of course they also drew a lot but I always have that lacking feeling with no sensei. It’s hard getting one (for free) but even when it comes to paying, with the rise of online learning, people want to sell hands off pre recorded lessons for hundreds of dollars, or only an hour a week for like 80-150 dollars per lesson and such. It’s not really like living in Japan where every illustrator in your country lives so close together sadly. I just live in the middle of nowhere learning what I can online
Poptard
sorry to hear that still troubling you. It can be rough when you haven’t seen how the work you do now isn’t paying off yet, but I think it’ll come soon. If you’re worried your hard work isn’t paying off the way it has for other artists who do it full time, maybe reach out and ask them for how they gained their success? you would hardly be a random hopeful, but a fellow talented artist in the spot they were only a short while back.
