Meredith
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today grief feels like freedom
🕑 Added 2022-02-21 15:36:40 +0000 UTCtoday it feels like freedom.
today it feels lighter
and gentler.
today my grief is giving me
a strange peace.
today my grief
feels like a balloon
that was emptied so quickly
but is now filling
and floating
into the cherry pink sky.
today i feel freer
and higher
and today i feel
like i could float off and on
and anywhere i go
i’ll be able to carry grief with me.
because today i am reminded
that after storms
after tears
after wanting to die
after image and image
of ending the pain
i remember that
because i let myself feel it
i have moments and days and weeks
where my focus is here.
present.
aware.
in tune with my toes in the wool socks
noticing the shiver down my spine
walking into the chilly kitchen
see her chase the cat,
play with her with the trains.
today i feel freedom and lightness
and the grief is still there
but not in THIS moment.
it’s stepped back.
in THIS moment there is just me
and her
and breath
and lightness
and light
and softness
carrying me towards the pale pink sky.
