Why I was away yesterday and why I might not code as fast as I'm used to.

Thanks a lot for the message Mikayla. Happily, things a extremelly better nowadays. Not only I'm much better with my wife, but also ot light on demanding to myself. Now I'm able to sleep about 6h per night (i used to sleep 4h per night) The sad part is that the projects keeps piling up, but as you said, health is more important. After all, if we are not feeling good, or our home is messed, how can we do the best work we can? thanks a lot for your message, it trully means a lot. 😍

I can relate on the aspect of balancing time with projects & loved ones - so sorry to hear your wife is facing such burdensome obstacles. Suicide is a life-altering trauma and I absolutely understand the need to take time away. The tools and software you build are amazing but there are other priorities that matter and I send my respect and admiration as a fan - Sending positive wishes and hope for better health for your wife's sake and for yours as well. I hope you can find time to breathe and time to be close to your wife, and find peace within your goals.

I really appreciate your message, and reading it, probably the biggest issue was me rushing myself. Interesting is that I was already feeling some other problems. Memory issues, axienty. this all came not only to help my wife, but to help myself. I see now that what I was doing was crazy. My sleep was a crap, sleeping at max 4h each day and filling myself with all sorts of programming stuff. At the end, if my wife didnt had a breakdown, I would. It was just a matter of time. Now I had to spot for her, but also for me. She is feeling better now, and I'm also feeling better now. Things are clearer and much better. Thanks a lot for everything..

Thanks a lot for such caring message. I must say, you are totally right in every aspects. Its more a matter what to care most at the time. To try to have more income to support the person you love, or to spend most time with that person? Tough question. It depends. Now I'm doing the opposite, I'm spending most time with her and managing the other part in the moment I have left for myself only, my mornings (sfrom 4am to 6am) This is a very little time, because I have also other things to solve at this timeframe, but its not a race, and I'll do my best to not only give support for her but also for you guys, that are amazing with me, supporting even with words. Words that matter a lot, and helps on this difficult moment. happly this most difficult part has gone, I fixed the pc and I'm spending more time doing intersting things with my wife, spending quality time with her. And the rest will come when it has to come. I'll stop running like a maniac and try to enjoy more life. that is something I can say its very important and sometimes we dont see it. Enjoy more life, and we will be great 😊 thanks a ton!! really.

Thanks a lot Riccardo. Things are starting to get better, and I'm slowly back to coding. The support I'm receiving is amazing. Never talked that much with people about health issues like this one.

My man i cannot express how deeply sorry i am for what is going on with you i do hope that things will have a turn in your life and that everything will be better. Family is very important there is absolutely nothing to be sorry about especially not for taking care of your family. I wish your wife a swift recovery and hope for best for both of you. I myself know that family is everything so do not worry no one will ever abandon you for posting slow or not making stuff as fast as u can as long as your ok and your family is saved mentally and physically and you both are fine i'm certain everyone agrees with me, that we will be here supporting you and anything you make as we all wish you the best!

I know you must be passing trough a lot of suffering, just remember is all temporary you have to keep the faith and hope things are improving constantly ceasesly. There is a bright future for good programmers like yourself and this things come to test our character sometimes and take your time and prioritize the important things in your life everything that is material is regainable you already demonstrated how to get what you have and you can do it again. A broken computer sometimes happen just by iregular voltage. What I am saying is that you will pull through this and what happen wasn't your fault either you are doing great to care for your wife you are providing for her and I don't want to be hard but the true is that no matter what she should be thankful that you are doing your best and you are a good man and that her actions is something you could not have stopped. I hope you are feeling better now and wish the best for you and for her hope happiness love health and all the beautiful fill both of your lives.

I was speachless reading about what happened and I do totally understand that your beloved wife needs you the most. Don't worry for your coding, I care more about your personal life than add-ons. Take your time to be with your wife and code when you can, because this is also an important part of your life. I wish you all the best for your future and your wife's recovery. A big hug.

Thanks I tried to write just the important partas to make sense of what I wanted to show, and to be able to give the right amount of information for people that takes the time to read this "book" could reflect on their own lives, and be sure that is not neglecting those respective loved ones.

Great composition..