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Concerning my recent inactivity
🕑 Added 2018-10-27 23:25:34 +0000 UTC Hello all. First and foremost, I am deeply sorry for the lack of updates. I've had a hard time lately finding the right balance between being transparent and oversharing. I apologize if this message winds up leaning too far in either direction.I've always suffered from major depression and at times, it's made maintaining a proper work schedule rather difficult. Finding the inspiration and motivation to work on my creative projects has been tricky in the past and I've had a tendency to move back and forth between being an obsessive workaholic and being unable to do much of anything. However, never before have I had the problem of sitting down, staring desperately at the open document and simply be unable to stop my mind from going blank, my eyes from glazing over and my heart from racing, a problem that has plagued me nonstop for the past couple of months. I wanted to finish the final update for Baleful Bassinet before Halloween so badly. Some part of my brain still wishes to work 24/7 between now and then just to see it happen. However, given the issues I've faced recently, I'm becoming less and less certain that it would even be possible to do so and the quality of the work would surely suffer even if I could.
A few months ago when I disappeared, I checked myself into an in-patient facility in hopes that they could help me. My move from Washington State was in large part due to the fact that my options for therapy in the place I was living were so limited. I hate disappointing all of you just as much as I hate disappointing myself. I'm sorry to each one of you that have waited for releases, only for none to come. I promise that I'm trying my best. I'm going to continue to try my best. I wish I didn't have to ask you all to be so patient.
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Normally, I can throw myself into my projects to help alleviate my depression. It's really frustrating knowing that working on this could actually help me but then sitting down to work and finding that I just can't. I wish I had the willpower to force myself out of this funk.
I know how ya feel... I suffer from depression i do this stuff because it takes my mind off of the depressing stuff
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Bearing the projected disappointment of others, in addition to the disappointment one feels towards oneself, is extra ungood. I appreciate the transparency (though, certainly don't demand it) and I very much understand the difficulties attendant to major depression, and what all of that entails for life's many facets. I hope that you find it in yourself to take care. I look forward to future updates, and understand that it may take some time for you to get them out. Rootin' fer ya.
