amagicalworld
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Hi (Sorry, I dunno what else to put here)
🕑 Added 2025-10-29 16:15:03 +0000 UTCHi. Hello. How are you? I've missed this world so much. So much has happened, most of it bad, some of it kind of positive? None of it matters now, of course, but I guess now that I am rambling, I'll continue.
The last few months have been... bad. I got a very nasty DM on one of the websites about my writing that sort of made me re-question everything? Things just spiraled from there. The more I read my writing, the more I hated it. Depression isn't a pit, it's a sinkhole. You keep flailing but the more you struggle, the more you sink. I tried so many other things because I was convinced in my head that my writing was worthless. I could not bring myself to open anything related to it. This patreon, my story documents, the discord. Nothing. A part of me was just avoiding it, I guess. I did not feel worthy, but I could not leave it. And nothing else that I did made me feel good. My psych tried to help, but really, it was something that I needed to find within myself.
Ironically, it was a YouTube video about Slytherins that got me out of my funk. For no apparent reason (I'm taking it as a sign from the universe), that video got recommended to my feed that is mostly just dog and farmlife videos. And the depiction of Daphne in that video was horrendous. And I was like "FUCK THAT SHIT, Daphne deserves better". I started typing a comment, but for some reason that day, I opened a google doc instead because I wanted to give my favourite characters a better ending than that stupid video. So I kept typing and typing and I had a chapter of a new story! And when I read it... for the first time in like forever, I did not see flaws. I saw something that had made me happy. I was made to write, and it took me a year of kicking around in the wilderness to realise that.
So uh, ramble over. Hi, again. I missed all of you. How are you? And also, the quickest way to get me to write is to insult Daphne I guess, so say something bad about her, I guess? (This is a JOKE, I've fallen in love with writing again and you all have to deal with it by reading all the new chapters I am pumping out because I can't stop writing. I HAVE ALREADY POSTED A NEW CHAPTER TODAY FYI!)
Comments
Benedict O'Neill
Amazing to have you back
Nova Sana
I’m so very glad that you were able to find your way through that. I hope you can sense the welcome back from your subscribers.
