Colin Huggins
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Any pointers on how to be chill despite proverbial hell raining down?
🕑 Added 2023-07-25 20:22:15 +0000 UTCI bumped into a Couple friends yesterday and was determined to not act pathetic or in need of this or that. I tried to just keep the attention of the conversation off myself and on whatever it was they were up to. Eventually the horribleness of my situation could not remain hidden and discussing the horribleness feeling on the edge of tears soon took main stage.
Then kind of abruptly. A young man vibrantly smiling with a Senegalese accent passed by like a hype man for the most pathetic red haired hip hop artist of all time.
“He is the master! He is the master!!”
He shuffled off without explanation. My friends asked what that was about. So I started to explain how this hermit phase of my life is enabling me to better understand and resolve trauma I couldn’t understand before. I went on to begin explain the history of Sinegal for the past 20 years and the extreme and tragic violence there.
But unsurprisingly, my friends lost interest and interrupted me with a fist bump and a farewell.
Louder than ever negative voices determined to make me regret this phase of life and hate myself for such reckless choices can succeed in making me believe them.
But I did greatly improve my ability to resolve the emotional trauma of war. So there is that. I’ll try not to be overly proud of myself.
Anyone know a dentist who might be able to do a cleaning for a reduced rate? Text me if so. 6175047865
My smile is looking less than pearly.
Also, if you just want to help in general ugh
Venmo: everythingwillbeok
PayPal, colinhuggins.nyc@gmail.com
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Saraphina
Are you still in NYC? Regardless of where you are, check out dental schools. They are usually much less expensive because they are still training. If you have a more complex issue, this is not ideal, but cleaning and the basics? A great option.
