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fresh meat, page 79
🕑 Added 2020-11-20 21:13:38 +0000 UTCokay, here's the next page; it's late because i had a pain flare this week that mercifully only lasted a day...?? the shading will probably be done on sunday since it's comic work anyway.
something i removed from the dialogue here for the sake of brevity/pacing is carmilla mentioning that it's not difficult to draw a rose or chains because they're both mechanical patterns, and that she used to draw them as a teenager.
there's also just, development sprinkled in here -- mentioning some kind of occupation outside of the ward for carmilla, and hinting that she doesn't function well in daily life if she can't even care for plants well.
what she says here about the rose elaborates on her own concept of deliberate antagonism as much as it comments on kim's more abrasive/defensive interactions. the chains obviously refer to more systemic structures like the ward.
it's also difficult to draw "different styles" in my style, especially because they are all still rendered in pixels... for carmilla, i tried to make her lines scratchy, add some flaws in the anatomy and perspective and composition, and had her do pillow shading, so that it looked less experienced.
i also mentioned on stream that maybe it will be surprising to some readers that carmilla seriously participated in this therapy instead of continuing to me flippant; in my experience -- art therapy was not mandatory at the ward this was based on. there was a slot for recreational therapy, where you could go to several different activities, some of which would be not available in that slot just because the person who runs it is absent.
basically, it meant i never really encountered anyone who want to art therapy to screw around because it wasn't mandatory anyway... it felt more meaningful to have them be consistent with this experience. in the original script this was not the case, but carmilla was always slated to draw a rose chained up.
the reason the newt is doing this one is because they needed an actual therapist to host art therapy for some reason... i dunno why. it was also a good excuse to use her design more than once.
anyway, that's all i have to say about this page. sorry for the lateness.
Comments
Andrea Nolastname
Now I am super curious what others there are drawing ...
gray Folie
i asked while i was in a voice call and drawing this, "is dickbutt old hat or is it still funny?" but the response was not encouraging so i just didn't lmfao but yeah it dickbutt reveal to me
prettypinkpansy
if only patreon allowed you to upload images, i'd upload a quickie edit of camilla having drawn dick butt like "SIR! A MESSAGE FROM CAMILLA" i do love that we see her being a bit more sincere, but at the same time it's sort of like... how do i describe this... it's a sincere, genuine effort, but it's also a middle finger at the ward, because like you said the systemic structures imply that. the rose has thorns (its attempts to protect itself and preserve personal autonomy) but the chains, cold and unfeeling, constrict that. like, it's very much a gigantic "fuck you" to the entire situation she's trapped in. and i imagine it's going to fly right over newt therapist's head lol. speaking of, the newt's design is great and im definitely not just saying that because it gives me lemur vibes with the big eyes and long neck and front-of-body-differing-from-back-of-body coloring lmao. however BOY talk about someone i want to punch in the face. that "as a THERAPIST, i've never seen anyone with those personality flaws improve, not from therapy, not from meds" in a ward... where a lot of people... are involuntarily hospitalized... for suicide... because they feel they won't get better from severe mental illness... like holy shit. people with personality disorders especially are so often subject to that kind of deeply damaging rhetoric. i've worked IT for a nonprofit that had mental health professionals so god knows i'm not blind to the fact that a lot of therapists have those ideas and aren't shy about it, but the openly venting to PATIENTS about it with absolutely zero self-awareness or giving a fuck of how it could affect them or hinder their progress, god. love the detail also that she is just fucking talking about her own shit to no one, nobody is engaging her, nobody is saying a damn ass word, nobody asked. she, a therapist, is literally using the patients she's supposed to be treating as a free therapy session, and not giving a fuck about how it may negatively affect them. lol @ the pedantic nickname of "carmy" too and using her position of power to cut off carmilla's valid complaint and stated evidence that the system does not need to be this way. i also love carmilla's little dig of "music that's actually good" lmfao. im imagining norah jones here (no offense to anyone who's down with that music, it's not like bad, i just had a coworker who used to play it for hours and hours and the slow singing and piano put my ass to SLEEP and i feel like it'd be exactly what a snotty little therapist would pick to involuntarily subject people to in art therapy)
