Eddie Wilder
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The Black Belt Affair Ch. 25
🕑 Added 2025-09-29 13:00:06 +0000 UTCThe apartment was a shoebox. One bedroom, galley kitchen, bathroom with a shower stall barely wide enough to turn around in. Ashley had signed the lease 1 week after receiving notice that Jacob had stopped paying rent on their old place. The property manager had been sympathetic but firm. Pay in full or vacate in thirty days. She couldn’t afford to cover it alone, not with her part-time graphic design job.
She’d been lucky to find this place at all on such short notice. The real estate agent had called it “cozy” and “efficient,” real estate code for cramped and barren. It came semi-furnished, a futon that doubled as her bed, a wobbly table with two mismatched chairs, and a dresser missing one drawer. The walls were institutional beige.
Ashley stood at the window, clutching a mug of cheap instant coffee as she watched rain streak the glass. Her reflection looked back at her. Pale, hollowed out, hair pulled back in a hasty ponytail. She barely recognized herself.
A month had passed since the catastrophe at Iron Grip Academy, since her final, degrading encounter with Carlos. She’d quit jiu-jitsu the next day, sending an email to the gym manager rather than risking another face-to-face with Carlos. His texts had continued for weeks afterward, casual at first, then increasingly demanding, finally settling into silence when she never replied.
She’d found extra hours at work, taking on projects nobody else wanted, staying late when the office emptied out. The monotony of designing brochures for dental practices and real estate companies offered a numbing distraction. She’d even picked up weekend shifts at a coffee shop. Anything to avoid the echoing emptiness of her apartment, to exhaust herself enough that sleep might come without dreams.
The rain intensified, transforming the view of the parking lot into a blur. Ashley placed her half-empty mug on the windowsill and pressed her forehead against the cool glass, closing her eyes.
Why hadn’t she taken the Penderson account home to work on? The deadline wasn’t until next week, but it would have given her something to do besides stand here, marinating in regret. Besides, what else was there? No friends waited for her calls. She’d alienated most of them during the affair. No family lived nearby. Her parents were on the opposite coast, and she couldn’t bear the thought of explaining what had happened, of seeing disappointment replace the pride they’d always taken in her stable marriage to “such a nice young man.”
Her phone lay on the futon, screen dark. She glanced at it, the familiar urge rising again, the impulse to text Jacob, to see if today might be the day he’d finally respond. Every previous attempt had met with silence. She’d started with lengthy, tearful apologies, then progressed to casual check-ins disguised as practical questions about their old apartment, finally descending to single-word texts that screamed of desperation.
Please. Jacob. Talk.
Nothing. As if she’d been erased from his world as thoroughly as he’d removed himself from hers.
The rain’s rhythm changed, transitioning from steady patter to aggressive drumming. Ashley pushed away from the window, restless energy propelling her across the small room. She picked up her phone, then set it down again. Grabbed her sketchbook, flipped through a few pages of half-finished drawings, abandoned it on the futon. Paced back to the kitchen, rinsed her mug, left it upside down on the drainboard.
The walls seemed to be closing in. She couldn’t stay here, not tonight, not with this crawling anxiety working its way up her spine. But where to go? The coffee shop had already assigned shifts, the bars held no appeal without someone to meet there, the movie theater only reminded her of nights out with Jacob.
Jacob. The thought of him was a constant ache, an infected wound that wouldn’t heal. Where was he now? What was he doing? Had he found someone new, someone better, someone who deserved him?
She grabbed her phone again. Social media offered no clues. Jacob had deactivated his accounts shortly after leaving. Her thumb hovered over her text message threads, scrolling past her parents’ concerned check-ins, past work colleagues confirming meeting times, landing on a name she hadn’t contacted in months. Ryan.
Ryan, Jacob’s friend from college. Ryan, who had given Jacob a place to stay immediately after the discovery, before Jacob found his own apartment. Ryan, who would definitely know where Jacob was living now.
It was a breach of boundaries, a stalker move. She should respect Jacob’s silence, his clear desire to be left alone. But the alternative was another night pacing these four walls, another sleepless vigil of self-recrimination. Before she could reconsider, she typed a message.
Ashley: Ryan, it’s Ashley. I know you probably hate me, and you should. But I need to talk to Jacob, even if it’s just once more. Please. I just want to know he’s okay.
She hit send before she could lose her nerve, then stared at the screen, half-expecting an immediate rejection. Nothing came. She placed the phone face down on the futon and returned to the window, watching sheets of rain transform the world outside into a watery purgatory that matched her internal landscape.
When the phone finally buzzed ten minutes later, she nearly tripped over her own feet rushing to retrieve it.
Ryan: He’s fine. Better than fine. Leave him alone, Ashley.
She bit her lip, considering her response. Ryan had replied, which was more than she’d expected. He hadn’t blocked her number or ignored her completely. That was something to work with.
Ashley: I understand. I just need to see him, to apologize properly. To give him closure.
The reply came faster this time.
Ryan: He has closure. He’s moved on. You should too.
Her fingers flew over the screen.
Ashley: Please, Ryan. I’m not eating, barely sleeping. I just need five minutes. I won’t ask again after this, I swear.
The three typing dots appeared, disappeared, appeared again. She held her breath.
Ryan: You hurt him worse than anyone ever has. I watched him put himself back together piece by piece. I’m not helping you tear that down.
Tears blurred her vision. She blinked them away, steadying her breathing before typing again.
Ashley: I don’t want to tear anything down. I just want him to see that I know what I did, that I’m sorry. If he tells me to go to hell to my face, I’ll accept it. Please.
The response took so long she thought Ryan had given up on the conversation.
Ryan: He’s at the Parkview Apartments on Queens. Building C. Don’t tell him I told you. And Ashley? If you hurt him again, I’ll make sure everyone knows exactly what kind of person you are.
Relief and anxiety coursed through her. She had an address. A location. A chance to see Jacob face-to-face, to make him understand the depth of her regret, to beg for... for what? Forgiveness seemed too much to hope for. Understanding, perhaps. Or just a chance to see if his eyes still held that wounded betrayal, or if they’d hardened completely against her.
Ashley: Thank you, Ryan. I promise I just want to talk to him.
She waited, but no further response came. Ryan had said what he needed to say, given what he was willing to give. The rest was up to her.
Ashley glanced at the clock. 4:37 PM. If Jacob maintained his old work schedule, he’d be home around 6:00. She had time to shower, to make herself presentable, to rehearse what she wanted to say.
Under the weak spray of her shower, she scrubbed her skin as if she could wash away the past month, the past six months. She shampooed her hair twice, conditioned it, let the water run until it went cold. Afterward, she stood in front of the foggy bathroom mirror, wiping a patch clear to study her reflection.
The woman looking back at her was a stranger. Thinner, with dark circles beneath her eyes, cheekbones too prominent, collarbones visible beneath pale skin. When had she lost so much weight? She couldn’t remember the last time she’d eaten a proper meal. Coffee and protein bars had become her sustenance, consumed absent-mindedly at her desk while working through lunch breaks, her body an afterthought to the punishing pace she maintained to avoid thinking.
She towel-dried her hair, letting it fall in natural waves, the way Jacob had always preferred it. She applied minimal makeup, just enough to bring some color back to her face without looking like she was trying too hard. Dressed in jeans and that soft blue sweater that Jacob liked.
By 5:30, she was in her car, driving across town to the Parkview Apartments. The rain had slowed to a gentle mist. She rehearsed what she would say as she drove, discarding opening lines that sounded too casual, too dramatic, too needy.
“Hi, Jacob.” Too cheerful, as if nothing had happened.
“I know I’m the last person you want to see.” Too self-deprecating, fishing for contradiction.
“I miss you every day.” Too centered on her own feelings.
Nothing felt right, nothing captured the turmoil of regret and longing and shame that had been her constant companion since the moment he walked out. Perhaps there were no words adequate for the magnitude of what she’d done, for the pain she’d caused. Perhaps she should just speak from her heart when the moment came, without rehearsal.
The Parkview Apartments came into view. Three modern, four-story buildings arranged around a central courtyard with benches and tended flower beds. Building C stood furthest from the street, slightly elevated on a gentle slope. Ashley pulled into a visitor parking space, killed the engine, and checked the time. 5:53 PM. She’d timed it almost perfectly.
Now came the hard part. Should she go to his door? Wait in the lobby? That seemed too confrontational, too much of an ambush. Better to wait outside, to approach him as he returned from work, giving him the option to invite her in or to talk in neutral territory.
She got out of her car and positioned herself on a bench near Building C’s entrance, partially sheltered from the drizzle by a small decorative awning. From here, she could watch for Jacob’s arrival without being immediately visible to anyone exiting the building.
Minutes ticked by. Six o’clock came and went. Then six-fifteen. Six-thirty. By seven, Ashley was beginning to wonder if she had the wrong building, or if Jacob had changed his schedule, or if fate was conspiring to deny her this one chance. The mist had intensified again to proper rain, and despite the awning’s protection, she felt dampness seeping through her sweater.
Just as she was considering returning to her car to wait, the building’s security door opened. Ashley straightened, heart hammering, as a familiar figure emerged, but not Jacob. A woman she’d never seen before stepped out, opened an umbrella, and walked toward the parking area, not noticing Ashley on her bench.
False alarm. Ashley settled back, wrapping her arms around herself for warmth. Another fifteen minutes passed. The sky darkened further, streetlights flickering to life around the complex. She checked her phone. 7:21 PM. Perhaps she should give up, come back another day.
Just as she was about to stand, the security door opened again. This time, there was no mistaking the figure that emerged.
Jacob.
He looked different, his formerly lanky frame now carried a bit more muscle, his shoulders noticeably broader under a light jacket. His hair was shorter, exposing more of his face. But the most striking change was in his bearing. The slight stoop, the hesitant posture that had always characterized him was gone, replaced by a straight spine, a confident stride.
He was carrying a gym bag, headed away from the building toward the parking area, not in her direction. If she didn’t act now, she’d miss her chance entirely.
“Jacob,” she called, standing up.
He stopped, his body going rigid at the sound of her voice. Slowly, he turned, scanning the area until his eyes found her, half-hidden in the shadows of the awning. For a long moment, he just stared, his expression unreadable.
“Ashley,” he said finally, his voice neither welcoming nor hostile, just flat with surprise. “What are you doing here?”
She stepped forward, moving into the pool of light cast by a nearby streetlamp. Rain dripped from the awning onto her shoulders, but she barely noticed.
“I needed to see you,” she said, her carefully rehearsed speech evaporating, leaving only raw honesty. “I needed to tell you I’m sorry. So sorry for everything.”
Jacob didn’t move toward her, but he didn’t walk away either. He adjusted the strap of his gym bag on his shoulder, his gaze assessing her with a detachment that made her stomach clench.
“How did you find me?” he asked.
“I asked Ryan,” she admitted. “Please don’t be angry with him. I practically begged.”
“Ryan should know better,” he said. Then, with a slight sigh, “But I’m not surprised. He always was a soft touch for a sob story.”
The characterization stung, but Ashley couldn’t argue with it. She had used Ryan’s compassion, manipulated it to get what she wanted. One more sin to add to her ever-growing list.
“I won’t take much of your time,” she promised, taking another step toward him. The rain was falling harder now, dampening her hair, running down her face, mingling with the tears she could no longer contain. “I just wanted to tell you that I know what I did was unforgivable. That I never deserved you. That I think about what I threw away every single day, and I hate myself for it.”
Jacob’s expression softened slightly, not with forgiveness but with something like pity. “You don’t look well,” he observed, his gaze taking in her too-thin frame, the shadows under her eyes.
“I’m fine,” she lied automatically.
“No, you’re not. You’ve lost weight. Too much.”
The fact that he noticed, that he still saw her clearly enough to perceive the changes in her, gave Ashley a flicker of hope. “I haven’t been eating much,” she admitted. “Or sleeping. I can’t stop thinking about everything, about how I ruined us.”
Jacob shifted his weight, glancing toward the parking lot and back, as if calculating whether to continue this conversation in the rain or to suggest they move somewhere else. Finally, he gestured toward a covered seating area near the building’s entrance.
“Let’s get out of the rain at least,” he said.
Ashley followed him to the small nook, which offered protection from the weather and a little of privacy. They sat on opposite ends of a bench. Jacob set his gym bag on the ground and turned to face her directly.
“Look, Ashley,” he began, his voice gentle but firm. “I appreciate that you came here. I believe that you’re sorry. But I don’t think this is helping either of us.”
“I just needed you to know,” she said. “That’s all. I needed you to hear it from me, face to face, how much I regret what I did. How I would do anything to take it back.”
“But you can’t take it back,” Jacob said simply. “What happened, happened. We can’t change it.”
“I know,” she whispered. “But I keep thinking, if you knew how sorry I am, how much I hate myself for hurting you-”
“That’s part of the problem,” Jacob interrupted. “You’re punishing yourself. Not eating, not sleeping. Looking at you now...” He shook his head. “This isn’t healthy, Ashley.”
She laughed, a brittle sound without humor. “What am I supposed to do? Just move on? Pretend it didn’t happen? Find someone new?”
“No,” Jacob said. “But you need to take care of yourself. You need to find a way forward that doesn’t involve self-destruction.”
The calm rationality of his response was somehow worse than anger would have been. Anger she could understand, could meet with her own guilt, could use to flail herself further. This concern left her adrift, unsure how to respond.
“I don’t know how to do that,” she confessed. “I don’t know how to live with what I did to you. With who I became.”
Jacob was quiet for a moment, studying her with an expression that suggested he was choosing his words carefully.
“After I left,” he said finally, “I was in bad shape. Really bad. I couldn’t eat, couldn’t sleep. Couldn’t stop seeing... what I saw.” He paused, a momentary fracture in his composure revealing the pain still living beneath the surface. “I thought I’d never get past it. But then someone, my therapist, actually, asked me a question that changed everything.”
Ashley waited, barely breathing.
“She asked me, ‘who are you punishing by refusing to move forward?’ And I realized I was punishing myself for something I didn’t do.” Jacob met her gaze directly. “I think you need to ask yourself the same question. Who benefits from your suffering now? Not me. It doesn’t make me feel better to know you’re not eating, not sleeping. It doesn’t undo what happened.”
His words penetrated the armor of self-loathing. She hadn’t considered that her suffering might be another form of selfishness, a way to center the narrative around her pain rather than his.
“I don’t know how to forgive myself,” she said softly.
“That’s something you’ll have to figure out,” Jacob replied. “But it starts with taking care of yourself. With accepting that life keeps moving forward, whether you’re ready or not.”
There was something in his tone, a philosophical distance that hadn’t been there before. This new Jacob, with his quiet confidence and wisdom, was both familiar and foreign, the man she’d loved but evolved into someone stronger, more self-possessed.
“Are you... are you seeing someone?” she asked, the question slipping out before she could stop it. “Romantically, I mean.”
Jacob’s expression closed slightly. “That’s not relevant to this conversation, Ashley.”
“I know, I’m sorry,” she backtracked quickly. “I shouldn’t have asked that. It’s none of my business anymore.”
“No, it’s not,” he agreed, but without cruelty.
They sat in silence for a moment, the sound of rain providing a backdrop to the moment. Ashley twisted her hands in her lap, searching for a way to extend their time together, to delay the inevitable conclusion of this meeting.
“Tell me about your therapist,” she tried. “Is it helping? Therapy, I mean.”
Jacob hesitated, then nodded slightly. “It is. It’s given me perspective. Tools to process what happened without letting it define me.”
“That sounds good,” Ashley said, grasping at this small thread of connection. “Maybe I should try it. Therapy, I mean.”
“I think that would be a good idea,” Jacob agreed. “It’s helped me separate the betrayal from my sense of self-worth. To understand that what you did was about you, not about me being insufficient or unworthy.”
His statement was a simple truth. Of course Jacob would have questioned his worth, would have wondered what he lacked that drove her to seek fulfillment elsewhere. The thought added a new dimension to her guilt, not just the act of betrayal itself, but the damage it had done to his sense of self.
“You were always enough,” she said urgently. “More than enough. It was never about you not being... What happened was my weakness, my selfishness. You were perfect.”
Jacob shook his head slightly. “I wasn’t perfect, Ashley. No one is. But I was faithful. I was committed. I loved you completely.” He paused, then corrected himself. “I loved who I thought you were.”
The past tense was a final door closing on what they had been to each other. Ashley felt it like a physical pain, a severance of the last thread of hope she’d been clinging to.
“I should have been better,” she whispered. “I should have recognized what I had in you.”
“Maybe,” Jacob agreed. “But you didn’t. And now we both have to live with the consequences of that.” He glanced at his watch, then back at her. “I need to go. I have plans tonight.”
Plans. With friends? With a new woman? She couldn’t bring herself to ask, couldn’t bear to hear the answer either way.
“Of course,” she said, attempting to gather the shreds of her dignity. “Thank you for talking to me. For not just walking away when you saw me.”
Jacob stood, retrieving his gym bag from the ground. “I think it’s best if we don’t do this again,” he said gently. “I’ve made my peace with what happened, as much as I can. I’m moving forward with my life. And you need to do the same.”
“I don’t know if I can,” Ashley admitted, fresh tears welling.
“You can,” Jacob assured her. “But not by looking backward, not by holding on to what we had. That’s gone, Ashley. We can’t get it back.”
The finality in his voice left no room for argument, no space for the desperate pleas building in her throat. He was right, she knew he was right, but the reality of it, the loss of him, of them, was a weight too heavy to bear.
“Can I... can I at least hug you goodbye?” she asked, her voice small.
Jacob hesitated, conflict visible on his face. For a moment, she thought he would refuse. Then, unexpectedly, a corner of his mouth quirked up.
“I don’t know,” he said with the faintest glimmer of his old dry humor. “Are you going to take me to the ground and choke me out?” The jiu-jitsu reference caught her completely off-guard.
Despite herself, Ashley felt a smile break through her tears, a genuine smile that momentarily cut through the thickness of her grief. It was so quintessentially Jacob, that quiet wit emerging when least expected.
“No submissions tonight,” she promised, her voice wavering between laughter and tears. “I’m pretty sure you could defend yourself now anyway.” She gestured vaguely at his more muscular frame.
Something in the small shared moment of levity seemed to ease the tension. Jacob nodded, setting down his bag again.
“Okay,” he said. “A hug goodbye.”
Ashley stood, closing the distance between them. When his arms came around her, tentative and careful, maintaining a slight physical distance even in the embrace, she had to bite back a sob. She breathed in the familiar scent of him, different cologne now, but underneath it, the essential Jacob-ness that she’d missed so desperately. His body felt different against hers, more solid, stronger, but still fundamentally him.
The hug lasted only seconds before he gently disengaged, stepping back to reclaim his personal space.
“Take care of yourself, Ashley,” he said, and there was genuine concern in his voice. “Eat something. Sleep. Talk to someone. A therapist, a friend. Don’t let this define the rest of your life.”
“I’ll try,” she promised, though she had no idea how to begin.
Jacob nodded, satisfied with this small commitment. “Goodbye, Ashley,” he said, picking up his gym bag again.
“Goodbye, Jacob,” she replied, the words almost catching in her throat.
He turned and walked away, his stride purposeful, not looking back as he crossed the courtyard toward the parking area. Ashley watched until he disappeared from view, the rain obscuring his figure, erasing him from her sight as thoroughly as she’d been erased from his life.
She remained standing for several minutes after he was gone, trying to gather the strength to move, to return to her car, to drive back to her empty apartment. The conversation replayed in her mind, his gentle but firm rejection, his concern for her wellbeing coupled with his clear boundary against reconnection.
He had moved on. Transformed his pain into personal growth, built a new life from the ashes of what they’d shared. While she had been spiraling deeper into self-recrimination, he had been healing, becoming stronger, evolving into someone who could face his former wife with compassion rather than hatred.
It was both admirable and devastating. Admirable because it spoke to his fundamental decency, the essential goodness she’d carelessly discarded. Devastating because it confirmed what she’d feared most. There would be no reconciliation, no second chance, no opportunity to prove she’d learned from her mistakes.
Finally, when the chill had seeped into her bones and her tears had run dry, Ashley made her way back to her car. She unlocked her car and slid behind the wheel.
For a long time, she sat there, key in the ignition, engine off. She stared at the steering wheel, seeing nothing, her mind racing through the ruins of her life, searching for a path forward that didn’t seem to exist.
Jacob’s words echoed. “Take care of yourself. Eat something. Sleep. Talk to someone.” Such simple advice, so impossible to follow when the very foundations of her self-concept had been shattered. Who was she now, if not Jacob’s wife? What defined her, if not her marriage? How did she begin to rebuild when she wasn’t sure what remained worth salvaging?
A tap on the window startled her. She looked up to see an elderly man in a raincoat, concern evident on his face. Ashley rolled down her window slightly.
“You okay, miss?” the man asked. “You’ve been sitting here a long while. Everything all right?”
Ashley managed faint smile. “Yes, thank you. Just... gathering my thoughts before driving.”
The man nodded. “Well, drive safe then. Weather’s nasty tonight.”
“I will,” she promised. “Thank you for checking.”
As the man walked away, Ashley realized she’d been sitting in the car for nearly forty-five minutes. With a deep breath, she started the engine. She needed to go home, even if home was now just a barren apartment with bare walls and empty corners. She needed to at least try to follow Jacob’s advice. To eat something. To sleep, if sleep would come. To begin the process of moving forward, however impossible it seemed in this moment.
The drive back to her apartment passed quickly. Inside, the apartment was exactly as she’d left it, small, depressing in its lack of personality. She stood in the doorway for a moment, seeing it through new eyes, through Jacob’s eyes, perhaps. This wasn’t a home. It was a place to exist, to mark time while wallowing in self-pity.
She crossed to the kitchen, opening the refrigerator out of habit rather than hunger. Its contents were pitiful. Half a carton of almond milk, a withered apple, a package of sliced cheese with one slice remaining. The cupboards were equally bare. Some instant oatmeal, a can of soup, a box of stale crackers.
Jacob was right. She needed to eat. To sleep. To take the basic steps of self-care that she’d been neglecting in her spiral of self-destruction. With a sigh, she took out her phone and ordered delivery from the Thai restaurant down the street. Pad thai and spring rolls, comfort food she hadn’t allowed herself to enjoy in weeks.
While waiting for the delivery, she gathered her laundry, separating it into piles on the futon. The simple, ordinary task felt like a monumental effort, but also like a first tentative step toward reclaiming some semblance of a normal life.
The food arrived, and Ashley forced herself to sit at the wobbly table to eat it rather than standing at the counter or perching on the edge of the futon. She took small bites, surprised to find that once she started eating, genuine hunger emerged from beneath the constant nausea of anxiety. By the time she’d finished half the pad thai and one spring roll, she felt more grounded than she had in weeks.
After cleaning up, she completed her makeshift bedtime routine. Teeth brushed, face washed, hair tied back in a loose braid. Lying on the futon in the darkness, staring at the ceiling, she replayed her conversation with Jacob for the hundredth time.
“Who are you punishing by refusing to move forward?”
“Take care of yourself. Eat something. Sleep. Talk to someone.”
For the first time in weeks, as she drifted toward sleep, her last thoughts weren’t of what she’d lost but of what small steps she might take tomorrow. A proper grocery shop. Perhaps a walk in the park if the rain held off. Maybe even a call to inquire about therapy options through her health insurance.
Small steps. Insignificant in the grand scheme of her collapsed life, but steps nonetheless. Forward motion, however minimal, in a direction that led away from the wreckage rather than deeper into it.
As sleep claimed her, one final thought surfaced. Jacob had looked well. Healthy. Stronger in body and spirit than she’d ever seen him. There was a small comfort in that, a tiny spark of warmth in the cold expanse of her grief, the knowledge that despite her actions, despite the pain she’d caused, he was going to be okay.
It wasn’t forgiveness. It wasn’t reconciliation. But for tonight, it was enough to let her close her eyes and surrender to the temporary oblivion of sleep, free for a few hours from the weight of what she’d done and the uncertainty of what came next.
Comments
Sigma
This is not the end of the story. If I understand it correctly, she's been away from the gym for a month now? So we do not know what's been going on there for several weeks other than Carlos attempting to reach her a few times. Did the gym lose members? Is Liz still working there? Melissa training there? Is Jacob's refusal to answer if he's seeing someone because he in fact IS seeing someone, perhaps Liz or Melissa? Both those women had respect for Jacob and disdain for Carlos. So maybe Eddie's going to develop those relationships in future chapters. As for Ashley, there is a road to redemption here somehow. I don't see reconciliation down the road, but maybe a renewed sense of self. Maybe near the end of the story some kind of years-down-the-road happenstance meet-up where everyone's doing well. Carlos, though, has some possibilities. One is that Jacob joins another martial arts studio and becomes quite good. After all, he's noted for his discipline and focus and he is looking better physically. Another is a series of lawsuits by abused women. Another might be a different cucked husband kicking Carlos down the street or busting him with a pipe. Maybe something happens publicly at a tournament that humiliates Carlos.
Amer Gill
This is not the way I wanted this story to go.But I have to admit ,this chapter was fucking beautiful. I almost cried.What an incredible piece of writing. How exquisitely powerful and nuanced. It made my heart quicken and emotions swell.Jesus,that was moving.That was genuinely beautiful. Eddie can write.
