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🕑 Added 2022-02-18 19:19:02 +0000 UTCMy new monitors arrived! I feel like I finally have a proper setup!
My room looks like a dream now, I have a nice wardrobe with my favorite things and clothes inside, my stationery desk, my makeup desk, a nice pc setup, a cool TV and an amazing bed.
I know I should be happy, but it just makes me think of "what is next?", and I can't think of anything to be next here.
I feel like it's time to move to a different country, start my dream life, chance my dreams.
My room is complete, it's comfortable, cozy, everything I ever dreamed of. It's a completed goal, but my next goal seems unreachable (moving).
I don't know what to do now. Moving seems so impossible because here I have my meds, doctors, my family that takes care of me and forces me to eat even when I'm too depressed to do so.
But I need the change. I need the new goals, the new life.
I started with small goals, now I've conquered even the big ones I have here, I feel like I'm done with my story in brazil, but I dont think of can make the move yet, especially because of how unstable my mental health is and with the whole covid thing.
I'm at a crossroad, and I feel like I'll be standing here forever. I finally made it here, but I dont have the courage to take the next steps.
Sorry if this is too much info, this is just what I have in my mind right now.
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Monitors look great
