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MA 2, Ch 8.1: Ashes
🕑 Added 2025-11-09 07:28:09 +0000 UTCMy mind's telling me nooo.
But my booody!
My boody is telling me yeaaahhh!
(Oh Merciful Heavens, wtf am I doing?)
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Six weeks had passed since the day Chen Mu killed the Boar King with nothing but a stick and his will, and the world had not ended.
He'd half-expected it to.
He had spent the first few days after the fight waiting for some catastrophic consequence —for Heaven's judgment to descend in thunder and lightning, for his forgotten past to come crashing back in a flood of terrible memories, for the very act of using such power to shatter whatever protection his amnesia provided.
He'd half-expected a party of cultivators to arrive, drawn by the spiritual disturbance his Sword Intent must surely have caused.
Waited for some ancient enemy he didn't even remember to recognize his technique and come seeking revenge.
Waited for the peaceful fiction of Chen Mu to collapse like a house of cards in a strong wind.
But...
But, day after day, the sun continued to rise over the eastern peaks with the same patient inevitability, painting the mountain valleys in the same shades of rose and gold.
Day after day, the wind still moved through the spirit pine forests with the same ancient song— a sound that likely predated human habitation by millennia and would likely continue long after the last human settlement in the area had crumbled to dust.
And Chen Mu remained... himself.
Still mortal in all appearance. Still without access to Xue or Ling Qi cultivation that he could identify. Still the same strange young man with white hair and indigo eyes and far, far too many skills for a simple villager.
The village had changed in small ways, though not toward him specifically. The people of Old Man Bao's nameless village had simply incorporated what he'd done into their understanding of who he was, filing it away alongside all the other inexplicable things about Chen Mu — his medical knowledge, his literacy, his strange stories about metal birds that flew between stars— as just another mystery they'd accepted without needing to fully understand.
He'd saved them. That was what mattered.
The how of it was less important than the fact.
These mountain villagers were a pragmatic people, shaped by generations of hardship into a philosophical acceptance of things beyond their comprehension. They lived close to the Azure Cloud Sect; saw cultivators fly through the sky and command the elements. And they learned not to question such things — to them, that was simply how the world worked.
And when Chen Mu announced he could cut through spirit beasts with little more than a stick and naked determination — well, that was apparently just another fact of life to incorporate into their worldview.
He'd worried, in those first days, that they might fear him. That mothers would pull their children away when he passed. That conversations would stop when he entered a room. That he would become other — respected perhaps, but isolated, treated with the wary deference that mortals showed to powerful cultivators.
But that hadn't happened. And, as the days turned to weeks, Chen Mu began to understand that it never would.
"More boar?" Widow Lan's voice called out as Chen Mu passed her house one morning, breaking through his introspection. Her weathered face creased into a smile — the kind of genuine, unguarded expression that people only showed to those they considered family. She stood in her doorway, stirring something in a massive clay pot that sent aromatic steam rising into the cool autumn air. The smell was rich and savory — herbs and root vegetables and that distinctive, slightly gamey scent of spirit beast meat that had become ubiquitous in the village over the past month and a half.
Chen Mu couldn't help but return the smile, feeling a persistent warmth in his chest that he still didn't quite know what to do with.
"Thank you, Auntie Lan, but I just finished breakfast. Old Bao made dumplings!"
"Dumplings! Tsk, that old fool and his dumplings."
But she was laughing, her eyes bright with the kind of contentment that came from having a full larder when winter was approaching — a security that mountain villagers rarely enjoyed.
"As if we haven't all been eating boar for six weeks straight! Still, I suppose we shouldn't complain. Spirit beast meat! Keeps us warm, keeps us healthy. Why, my joints haven't hurt this little in at least a decade!"
And it was true, Chen Mu had noticed. The effects were becoming increasingly obvious as time passed. The Boar King, for all its corruption and malice, had still been a genuine spirit beast — and far from a weak one at that! Its meat, once everyone had finished the monumental task of butchering the massive carcass (a process that had taken three full days and required nearly the entire village's participation), proved to be rich with residual spiritual energy.
Not quite enough to outright grant Ling cultivation to mortals — that would have required absorbing beast cores or undergoing proper training. But more than enough to strengthen their bodies in subtle, cumulative ways. To improve their vitality and longevity. To make the elderly feel decades younger and the young feel as if they could run up mountains without tiring.
Chen Mu had watched the transformations with that strange mixture of satisfaction and unease that seemed to characterize all his interactions with the village now. Widow Lan, who'd needed a cane to walk just two months ago, now moved with the spryness of someone a full twenty years younger. Chief Tian's chronic back pain — the result of a lifetime of hard labor — had simply vanished nearly overnight. And the village children had grown visibly healthier, their cheeks filling out, their energy now seemingly boundless.
Even the local dogs and cats that had been fed the scraps had become noticeably more vigorous — sleeker, stronger, more alert. One of them, an ancient hound that had been on its last legs, had experienced what could only be described as a renaissance, and now happily ran and played alongside the children as if it were a puppy again.
They'd feasted on that boar for weeks.
Roasted boar haunch, the meat so tender it fell from the bone, its fat rendering into a rich, flavorful juice.
Boar stew with root vegetables — carrots and turnips and wild onions, even an occasional ginseng root or two — all herbs that absorbed the meat's essence until they tasted almost meaty themselves.
Smoked boar strips for winter storage, hanging in every smokehouse in the village, their preservation guaranteed by both salt and the inherent spiritual properties that made the meat resistant to spoilage.
Boar dumplings. Boar buns. Boar stir-fried with wild mushrooms. Boar rendered into lard that made everything taste better, and much, much more besides...
The village children, who normally might have complained about culinary monotony, devoured it all with enthusiasm — they could feel themselves getting stronger with every meal, could run faster and jump higher, and treated the whole thing as a grand adventure.
"I'm headed out to check the snares," Chen Mu said, adjusting the simple pack on his shoulders. The pack itself was one of Bao's old ones, worn leather that had been carefully maintained for decades, and its weight — loaded with water, dried food, rope, and various tools — felt almost negligible.
It would seem that he was still getting stronger. He tried not to think about that fact too carefully.
"If I bring anything back, you'll be first to know."
"You're such a good boy, Chen Mu!" Widow Lan called after him, her voice carrying that particular tone of maternal affection that made his throat tighten inexplicably. "Don't stay out too late — it gets cold quick these days! And watch for ice on the rocks up in the high passes!"
He waved acknowledgment and continued down the village's main path, such as it was. The "road" was really just a section of ground that had been worn smooth by generations of foot traffic, winding between houses that seemed to have grown organically from the landscape rather than being deliberately planned. The morning was crisp and clear, one of those perfect autumn days that made the mountains look like something from a master painter's scroll. Frost still clung to the shaded areas, turning spiderwebs into delicate crystal sculptures and making the grass crunch underfoot.
His breath misted in the air, visible proof of the temperature differential between his body heat and the cold morning atmosphere. But the sun was already working to burn it away, golden light creeping down from the peaks to flood the high valley with warmth.
The village was stirring to life around him in the slow, comfortable way. Here, the day's rhythms were dictated by sunlight and seasons rather than arbitrary human schedules. Smoke rose from hearths as families prepared their morning meals — the scent of cooking rice and steamed buns and -- yes -- more boar, drifting on the gentle breeze. He could hear the rhythmic thunk of someone splitting wood — probably Chief Tian's eldest son, Tian Wei, who'd taken over many of the heavier tasks from his father. The sound was steady, practiced, speaking to years of experience with an axe.
The sound of children's laughter drifted from somewhere nearby, high and clear and untroubled, along with Xiao Hua's voice calling out instructions for their morning lessons. She'd taken over teaching the village children some of the more useful trades; practical knowledge that would serve them well as they got older.
Chen Mu paused at the sound of her voice, feeling that now-familiar warmth bloom in his chest like a slow-burning coal. It was followed immediately by a persistent undercurrent of fear — the knowledge, deep in his gut, that this peace was temporary. That he would inevitably destroy it simply by being what he was.
But...
But six weeks had taught him, if nothing else, that constantly waiting for disaster was rather exhausting... and ultimately futile. Perhaps the other shoe would drop, or perhaps it would not. Regardless, it was better not to overthink or dwell on things he couldn't control.
Better to accept the moments of happiness when they came, to hold them carefully and treasure them while acknowledging their fragility.
They hadn't spoken directly about what had happened before his fight with the Boar King. The kiss in the village square, witnessed by half the population. The desperate confession, her tears, the weight of everything left unsaid hanging between them like morning mist.
But the whole village knew what it meant.
There was an understanding between them now — something unspoken but mutually acknowledged, a shift in the fundamental nature of their relationship that everyone had noticed and, in their pragmatic way, simply accepted, just as they had accepted everything else.
She would catch his eye across the village square and smile, and he would feel the world narrow to just that moment. To just the curve of her lips and the warmth in her gaze.
They would walk together to the newly-improved water wheel when she brought lunch to the workers, her presence beside him feeling as natural as breathing, and their hands would brush — casually, accidentally-on-purpose — and neither would pull away.
She would sit beside him during evening meals at the communal fire, close enough that their shoulders touched, and they would talk about nothing important while the real conversation happened in glances and comfortable silences.
It was peaceful. So peaceful.
The kind of peace that a man with no past and an uncertain future had no right to expect or hope for. The kind of peace that made Chen Mu acutely aware of just how much he had to lose.
And yet... he was learning to accept it. Learning to live in these moments rather than constantly bracing for their end.
"Brother Chen!"
A small, bright voice piped up, and Chen Mu looked down to find little An-An trotting toward him with the purposeful determination of a child on a mission. Her pet fox — leg now fully healed from the injury that had first brought the animal to Chen Mu's attention — was cradled in her arms like precious cargo. The creature had grown noticeably over the past weeks, fed on scraps of spirit boar meat that An-An had carefully saved from her own portions, and now sported a coat so glossy and lustrous it seemed to shimmer with internal light in the morning sun.
"Good morning, Little An," Chen Mu said, crouching down to her level — a gesture that had become automatic over the past months, a way of making himself less intimidating to the village children. "Shouldn't you be at your lessons?"
"Teacher Hua said I could take a break to exercise Yín Lìng!" She held up the fox with obvious pride, and the animal — tolerant in the way of pets who'd been thoroughly socialized by loving children — calmly regarded Chen Mu with luminous amber eyes that seemed to hold far more intelligence than any normal fox should possess.
"See? Her leg is all better now! She can run and jump and everything! And look how pretty her fur is!"
"So I see, little one! You've been taking excellent care of her."
Chen Mu reached out carefully, letting Yín Lìng sniff his fingers before gently scratching behind the fox's ears. The animal's fur was impossibly soft, like touching clouds or high-quality silk, and she made a pleased chirping sound that was somewhere between a bark and a purr.
An-An beamed with the pride of a caretaker receiving validation, her face lighting up in that special unguarded way that only young children ever managed.
Then her expression turned serious with the peculiar gravitas that children sometimes adopted when discussing matters they considered to be cosmically important.
"Brother Chen... the other kids say you killed the Boar King with magic. Is that true?"
Chen Mu considered his answer carefully, aware that whatever he said would be repeated and embellished by the village children until it bore little resemblance to the original.
"Well... I used a technique," he said finally, choosing his words with the precision of someone navigating a verbal minefield. "It is called sword intent. I wouldn't call it magic, exactly. It's more like... a very particular way of applying your will to the world."
"But your tec-... tech-... your move cut through a giant monster!"
An-An's eyes were wide with the particular awe that children reserved for things they considered impossibly heroic — the kind of uncomplicated admiration that made Chen Mu simultaneously uncomfortable and oddly touched. "And through a giant boulder! And Teacher Hua says the cut kept going until it knocked down trees really far away! That definitely sounds like magic to me!"
"Your Teacher Hua has been telling stories again," Chen Mu said dryly, though he couldn't quite suppress a small smile.
Of course she had.
Xiao Hua had a gift for narrative, for taking events and weaving them into tales that captivated her audience. She must have learned that skill from him and his own fireside tales.
It was just that, this particular story just so happened to be true.
"I did what needed doing. Nothing more, and nothing less."
"Will you teach me?" The question came out in a rush, as if she'd been building courage to ask it for weeks, storing it up until she had the opportunity.
"How to fight like that, I mean? I want to be able to protect my precious people too! I want to be strong, just like you!"
Chen Mu felt his throat tighten with an emotion he couldn't quite name.
The absolute trust in her voice, the way she looked at him as if he were something worth emulating rather than something to fear — it was both humbling and terrifying.
He paused, considering how to respond.
"...When you're older," he finally said gently, reaching out to ruffle her hair. "For now, focus on your lessons with Teacher Hua. Knowledge is its own kind of strength, An-An. Sometimes, knowing day to day skills is much more important than knowing how to fight."
"That's exactly what Teacher Hua says too," An-An grumbled, but she was smiling, her disappointment clearly not serious. "But... but I still want to learn to fight! Just... later. When I'm bigger!"
"Yes. That's the spirit!" Chen Mu straightened from his crouch. "Now go on — you don't want to be late getting back to lessons. And take good care of Yín Lìng!"
"I will! Say goodbye, Yín Lìng!"
An-An held up the fox's paw and waved it at Chen Mu, the gesture so earnestly childish that he felt his smile widen despite himself. Then she scampered off toward the small clearing where Xiao Hua held her lessons, the fox bouncing along beside her with a gait that showed no trace of her former injury.
Chen Mu watched her go, feeling the weight of small interactions accumulate like stones in his pockets. Each conversation, each casual greeting, each moment of uncomplicated trust —they were all threads being woven together, binding him to this place and these people with increasing strength.
This was his life now, he realized. Not some temporary refuge while he figured out his past. Not a way station on a journey to somewhere else.
No, this was home — in a way that transcended memory or rational choice.
These people had accepted him. Had woven him into the fabric of their community so thoroughly that extracting himself would require tearing away something fundamental. And the most dangerous part was that... he didn't want to extract himself. Didn't want to leave.
What he wanted — with a mad intensity that surprised and frightened him — was to stay here forever. To just... be Chen Mu: the hunter and handyman and storyteller. To build a quiet life of morning walks and evening meals and comfortable community.
He wasn't sure when that shift had happened. When "the strange young man Old Bao found in the woods" had become simply "Chen Mu, who lives with Old Bao and helps out with heavy work and knows how to do everything and saved us from the Boar King."
But it had happened.
And six weeks after demonstrating power that should have made everyone fear him — that should have made everyone treat him as something other than human — they simply... didn't.
They treated him just the same as they always had.
They were grateful, yes. Respectful of his abilities, certainly.
But they didn't ask him to demonstrate his techniques or pepper him with questions about how he'd done what he'd done. They didn't treat him as something other. As something to fear. Didn't bow or scrape or avoid his gaze or speak to him with the formal deference that mortals showed to cultivators or powerful martial artists.
They just... offered him boar stew and asked him to check the snares and trusted him with their children's safety and education and their grandmothers' health and their village's future.
It was the most dangerous thing that had ever happened to him, Chen Mu thought with something between amusement and despair. More dangerous than the Boar King. More threatening than his lost memories. More terrifying than any technique or power.
Because it made him want to stay. Made him want to believe that this peace could last forever, that the man called Chen Mu could continue to exist rather than being just a temporary fiction before his past came to collect its debts.
He reached the edge of the village and paused at Old Man Bao's hut — technically his own home too now, though he still thought of it as Bao's house, and probably always would.
The structure was simple but well-maintained: rough wooden walls that had been carefully chinked against winter winds, a roof of layered thatch that Bao replaced sections of every few years, a small covered porch where they sat on warm evenings to watch the sun set over the western peaks.
The old man was outside now, feeding the chickens with the practiced efficiency of someone who'd performed this task more than ten thousand times. He scattered grain with economical motions, and the chickens — also noticeably healthier and more robust from their diet of boar scraps and meal leavings — swarmed around his feet with enthusiastic clucking and competitive jostling for position.
Bao looked up as Chen Mu approached, his weathered face creasing into a smile that made him look decades younger. The past six weeks had been kind to him. The spirit meat had eased the arthritis that had plagued his knees for years, and had even restored some of the vitality that age had stolen. He moved with more energy now, stood straighter, complained less about aches and pains.
"Going out again?" Bao asked, scattering the last of the grain and dusting his hands on his simple tunic. The chickens, realizing the food supply was exhausted, began to disperse, pecking at the ground in search of any missed grains.
"Just to check the snares, and maybe scout for deer. Da-Li's still recovering—"
"—and you're the best hunter we have now anyway," Bao finished, his weathered face creasing into a knowing smile that held layers of meaning Chen Mu was still learning to interpret. "Even before you saved us from the Boar King, you were bringing in more game than Da-Li or any of the other experienced hunters. Now?" He shook his head with something like amused resignation. "That business with the Boar King wasn't a fluke, was it, boy? You really are something special."
Chen Mu felt the familiar unease at the observation, but forced himself to meet Bao's gaze steadily. They'd had variations of this conversation many times over the past weeks, each iteration peeling back another layer of unspoken understanding between them.
"I don't know any more than you do, Old Man. I'm just doing what I can with what I have."
"Which happens to be significantly more than what any normal person should be able to," Bao said dryly, but his tone held no accusation, no fear. Just the pragmatic acceptance of someone who'd lived long enough to know that the world contained mysteries beyond mortal comprehension. "But I'm definitely not complaining. You saved the village. You've been feeding us. And you're still the same strange boy who overthinks everything and broods way too much and helps old women repair their roofs without being asked."
He stepped closer, and his voice dropped to something more serious, more weighted.
"That's all that matters to me. To all of us. Not what you were. Nnot what you might have been. Just what you choose to be right now. And right now, you're choosing to be a good man. That's more than enough."
"Thank you, Old Bao." The words felt inadequate for the depth of what he was trying to express — gratitude for the acceptance, for the trust, for the kind of unconditional support that Chen Mu was increasingly certain he didn't deserve.
"Oh, don't thank me! Just come back safe. And try to bring back something other than boar this time — I love the stuff, truly I do, but even I'm getting a bit tired of it!"
He paused, his eyes twinkling with mischief.
"Though... I'd never admit that to Widow Lan. She's been experimenting with boar recipes and gets quite offended if you suggest we might want variety."
Chen Mu laughed, the sound surprising him with its genuineness, with how natural it felt. Seven and a half months ago, he couldn't remember if he'd ever laughed. But now, it came easily, prompted by an old man's gentle teasing and the comfortable rhythms of village life.
"I'll see what I can do! Deer season is coming on — the bucks will be moving to lower elevations for mating."
"Excellent. Now go on, before the day gets away from you. Oh, and Chen Mu?"
Bao's expression turned serious again.
"Be careful out there. I know you can handle yourself — obviously — but still. There's been smoke visible from the northwest these past few days. It might be nothing, but..."
"I'll keep an eye out," Chen Mu promised, noting the concern in Bao's voice and filing it away.
Smoke to the northwest.
That would be toward Five Pine Village, the neighboring settlement about a day's walk away.
They were likely just clearing land for the winter, or burning brush. It was nothing to worry about.
Probably.
Comments
DeadSlime
Edit Suggestion: Nnot(Not) what you might have been. Binge Time!
Nùmenor
I loved this chapter. I'm glad you decided to keep going.
