Regarding the Future
🕑 Added 2021-03-01 21:27:04 +0000 UTCAugust of last year I attempted suicide. Since then, my mental and physical health has only continued to spiral downwards. I've reached a threshold where these issues and their origins must be addressed to avoid continued, escalating self-harm. I share this because my steps to get well, consequently affect Offcanny.
Garrett is no longer a part of the channel by my decision. Working with him caused me crippling anxiety for a year developing. This is not an invitation to make speculative claims or direct hostility towards any party. Despite the circumstances, we're both equally entitled to privacy and respect. In lieu, you can most often expect Trevor (ModestCube) to appear. His involvement will be limited to that of a guest, which there will be continued incorporations of when possible. Expectations can be set by the stunt video, as it was put together independently by me. I'll probably be a bit funnier in the future though since my grandpa despawned the week leading to that shoot. All out of grandparents now though, so we're in the clear.
Other changes I'm making to improve my health are developing or private.
I've avoided speaking to this immediately as I wanted to be better when I did. But better looks farther away than ever now. I don't want to be dishonest. I'd be happy to answer any questions within reason and for those of you who'll be done watching, thank you for your time.
- Jakob
Comments
Christopher Fontaine
Please put yourself first. We all love you my guy.
PRN
Thank you for sharing this with us, I hope that you're in a better place now. Take as much time as you need. We love you <3
Rabu Fuentes
I'm glad you're taking the steps to recover and putting that first. Please do whatever you need to do to get better. I can't wait to see what next steps you take creatively but your mental space and happiness itself is priority number one. Just take care and don't push yourself as the funny clown man, I'm sure many of us care more about you and your wellbeing than 'haha meme man funny break glass light fire.' Please take care of yourself first and try not to worry about any of this.
AndyBobandy
Putting yourself first with your health and safety is more important. Jakob stay safe love you man.
Korona
you're a great guy jakob, putting your health and safety is more important than anything else. love you, stay safe, and get better, i know you can do it.
isa
regardless of where you're at in terms of progress, we're all proud of you for putting your health first. take as much time as you need. love you and take care.
Fluff Monkey
Jesus Christ. I had no idea you were going through this level of shit. I knew you were going through somethings when I found out that you and your girlfriend broke up a while ago, but goddamn. This is a whole different level. Much love bro, and best of luck to you. Hopefully the rest of this year goes better for you. Remember that no matter how dark the tunnel, there’s always light at the end of it.
Ginger Salad
The content can chill on the back burner, we will all be here when you are ready! It's easier said than done, but be patient and kind with yourself. Positive mental growth can be so fucking hard but well worth it in the end. Much love, dude.
James
Big love dude, take your time, we’ll be here right along side you!
MegaPete
Big love for you Jakob. Getting to a better place in between your ears is a long journey, but it'll be so worth when you get there. Keep fighting brother ♥️
SweetCoolBreeze
Hey dude, your gonna get through this and there are a ton of people supporting you. Honestly your content makes me and many others happy. Always look forward for the next video. Your editing skills ans sketch comedy is better than most things out there right now. Keep looking up!!
bubrup
Jakob I love you. Life gets hard but I learned myself thats no way out, Life is good, even if you dont get to shape your future beyond today...... You make people happy brother. and........Bitch If you kill yourself M E2 so NO PRESSURE U GOT M E?
EazyA
Get well soon Jakob, we love you.
shitheel
I'm here for the long haul my sweet prince ❤️❤️ life really be hard. Opening up can be a pretty uncomfortable/weird and scary feeling, you doing that at all could be seen as a step in the right direction if viewed from the proper angle but sometimes ya gotta view force yourself to (like oh man I couldn't even do that X time ago, I guess that's a win) if that even makes sense. Idk what the point I'm even trying to make is, if there's anything I want you to take away it's I/we hope you're doing as good as you can be, staying safe and all that jazz.
Wheresmywaffles
Always look forward to what you make. Hope things get better.
iAyeCaptainKai
I truly hope things start to look up for you man. Content should take a backseat to getting yourself back to a level mind. Though I'm sure you know yourself better than we do, and what you're willing to put on your plate. Please stay safe and do your best to keep steady feet! Until next time~
purernge153
Please stay safe. We all love you. And we all wait patiently for your next work, however long it may take.
Roddan
love the content jakob, hope things get better for you
Finn Macpherson
so much love
Jason Sevilla
Thank you Jakob for sharing this and for what you've done so far for this channel. I wish you all the best and can't wait to see what else is in store for the future whether it is Offcanny or not!
Pabludes
Thank you for sharing. Hope you the best
Joshua Lamar!
I hope all is well. I've been in similar places. I just hope that you keep talking to those closest to you & to those you love. Hope you continue forward with a proud stride, brave, bold & happy! ^-^ Also, if you ever need music let me know. I play quite a few instruments and have work out already. Even if its not for a video I have a lot of healing & retrospective songs. I hope that they can touch you in any way & or heal you. One of my EPs was a suicide letter that helped me relieve myself. I hope it can do the same for you, even if a little bit.
Jish
Love you
Jessi
Take your time with whatever you need man. No matter how long it takes I always look forward to the content you put out and work on, its truly awesome and honestly thank you for all you do. But take care of yourself please!!
Nate
We're here because we want to watch the awesome stuff you put out. I learned during the closing of CC that the creators we watch are humans too and to be ok with the funny vids not being uploaded anymore. I hope you find what makes you happy. Your creations have definitely helped me, if that means anything to you.
Barry'sChefMadeHisGlueGunForTheTable&Drowned
Is Offcanny something that is helping or hindering your mental health? It seems like you don't intend to take a break so I imagine you are finding it to be a worthwhile and uplifting creative outlet. Either way, your own wellbeing and mental health always always always comes first and I hope that every day you continue to push a little closer towards better.
Glaive
No apologies necessary- take your time and keep putting out quality my guy
Garrett Zalenski
<3
Manraj Kahlon
Hey man, I know I as well as others on here, are just random people you don't know, another comment. But just because you can't see things getting better or know how they will get better as sure as shit doesn't mean they won't. There is so much out there it can feel overwhelming despite feeling like you have so much around you, but here IS not "might" there IS something out there for you. You don't know everything, this is both a shitty and amazing fact, because there is a reason for going forward in life and genuinely, i mean it genuinely a purpose in life, and before it will become meaningful to the world it will be meaningful to you. I had the incredible delight of meeting you in London at RTX a couple years ago (we talked about irn bru soda drink for some reason), its real fucking dumb but it was the happiest I had been in ages, I watched the content more than tv so it was more meaningful to me than meeting and A-list celebrity. I don't know you, I know of your content, your humour and your fashion sense, but I know as stupid as it sounds that you don't fully know yourself either. Giving yourself the chance to become something and grow is beautiful man. Sorry for long as post. We the fans/random people despite what you think, Love you bro. Reach out to somebody and please give yourself a chance.
Ass Blaster Allie
Jakob you do not need to apologize to us for anything you do not owe us anything at all. That being said, I am so thankful for all that you have done for us. Offcanny is legitimately my favourite channel on YouTube ever. The amount of effort put in is so fucking high quality. It’s so fucking hilarious, the editing is fantastic and the ideas are fun, creative, and somehow have that nostalgic feeling of “the good old days” of YouTube. It’s a breath of fresh air as I have been very upset with the lack of quality content on YouTube lately. I see so much potential for the channel to just explode. I always try to share it with my friends to grow the channel as much as I can and everyone loves it. You and Trevor making videos together?? Makes me so fucking happy! I’m sure many others are pumped! Keep doing what YOU want to do, keep doing what YOU need. I like offcanny because of you, you make it fucking fantastic. You’re superb. Stay strong. I know you may not read this, or think it’s a very good idea but if you EVER are in a bad place and just need a stranger to vent to please reach out. Please. We are all here to support you. You are so deeply loved. If there’s anything any of us can do for you or the channel we would all be happy AF to help :)
Patrik Dvořáček
It makes sense when I think about it. The biggest problem comes from having a lot of people doing the shoot. Just don't rush it, having fewer videos on the level of Knights or Stunts is more than enough.
Anthony Saraino
I became a patron because Jakob and Alec were the best part of cc (the homeboys video is honestly the pinnacle of cc content) I've stayed a patron easily due to the chemistry between most folks in offcanny. If I have to wait a month or two in-between videos, that's ok! Watching twomad do somersaults and watching Jakob getting kicked through a wall was definitely worth the wait. I think most of everyone knows their demons and how hard it is to share that and I respect you so much for that. We love ya' and take the time you need as long as you're happy and healthy, and I hope everyone else at offcanny is happy too! 🐊🐊🐊
reallypeanut
take time to focus on yourself and do what's best for you, we're all proud to see how far you've come and the amazing stuff you've put out into the world <3
OFFCANNY
The workload behind the scenes is manageable alone. I've always done a lot, so it's not totally foreign to me.
Kyle Snyder
We all love you mate. Just take care and focus on yourself first. 💜
sneeze burger
Literally just subbed to the Patreon last night, and I couldn't be more glad I did. Take the time, enjoy my 5 bucks, make some funny, and take care of yourself. Read some of these comments if you need a bit of a boost, even if it's just random text on the computer from strangers
Hector Lopez
The videos will come when they come, what’s more important is your mental health. We will still be here no matter what. We love you Jakob
Mikayla
We love you Jakob no matter what you do. We’re proud of your honesty and vulnerability. If you need to take more time in between videos we all understand. We’re here for you 💕
Borby Jones
I believe in you and this channel. Thank you for making me smile. Take all the time you need to get better, we will be here for the goofs and gaffs whenever that is man❤️
Toast
Mental illness sucks dick. I'm in a constant state of anxiety and I can confirm, it sucks dick. So please, sister, take time to yourself. There is support all around you, even when you don't think there is, there is. I hope as time goes on you live in a much better mental and physical state. HOORAH.
BigDogBun
Your mental health is important man, take as many steps as you need. Everyone here following you supports you and loves you, and we want what's best for you. Take your time healing! Its super brave of you to address this to your fans and it means a lot. All that matters is that you're taking care of yourself.
Zaveguin
just wanna let you know that you inspire me everyday man !! genuinely wishing you all the love in the world, brave brother stay strong
Michael Arroyo
Love you very much man you make all are life’s so much better you deserve the best get well my guy mwah kisses.
GR33Nxc
Incredibly brave posting this on here, its a shame that better seems far away but there's so many people both who you know and who you dont that want you to get there and will stand by you the whole way. Sending love G
Patrik Dvořáček
Shit man, that's rough. Take some time, don't rush it. We aren't going anywhere. Just a quick question: are you planning on going forward alone? I know Trevor will pop up here and there and you probably have some people behind the scenes helping.
Espy
Damn, can't believe how close it came to losing what has very quickly become one of my favourite channels. You're a trooper Jakob, and your videos will always have me crying with laughter : ^}
Alex
Been dealing with similar things myself recently and I’m happy to hear you’re taking steps to get better! I’m proud of what you’ve accomplished so far with the channel and I know it’ll only continue to evolve. Thank you for all the laughs man, I look forward to many more. We’re here for you!
Purce
I hope you understand how much you’ve done for me and this community, Jakob. Please take care of yourself, man. Offcanny is a fucking project of the century and I know you’ll continue to do amazing things with it.
Emma Saiter
wishing you the best jakob! take as much time as you need to be in a good headspace. <3
Allison Terry
Take care of yourself man sending good healing vibes all around. 💛💛💛
MrCmh
Do what you have to do. We all love you and only want the best. We are here for you!
Goblin
I hope the changes you make help to improve your mental health. Remember to take your time making content for OffCanny. The channel seemed to be made for people to have fun with, and when you're genuinely happy it shows. I'm really looking forward to seeing what you do in the future <3
Vincent Brown
Love you Jakob, keep working at getting better and the results will show. Will always show support however possible!
Ryleigh Dring
💛💛
David Torres
Thank you for sharing that with us Jakob, I know it doesn't mean much coming from strangers but we truly do appreciate all the work and passion you out into these videos, my face lights up whenever I get a notification for a new video. Stay strong and take your time.
Danny Sullivan
Jakob, you're what makes Offcanny special in the first place, so as long as you keep making it I'm gonna keep watching. Do whatever you can to stay healthy, take as much time as you need!
Han Ridden
Make sure you take care of yourself. Lots of love to you xx
OFFCANNY
I'm definitely going to try for more collaborations in that vein, sorry if that wasn't clear.
Unofficially Joey
Seriously Jakob, do what you gotta do to get better. We'll be here for you
Dogspit
Thank you for sharing this. I know in the past you have commented on your feeling of needing to be just funny guy, so I can imagine this is a particularly vulnerable moment. For me being in a mental illness rut makes me feel incredibly weak, so I would at least like to say that you are strong for making it this far. I know internet strangers are mostly incomprehensible as human beings, but if you are ever in need there are plenty of people out here willing to talk to you like a real person and not a form of entertainment.
Leo Boulevardier
Mental health comes first! You know you have support from everyone. Take all the time you need!
Austin Niño
Hey man, do whatever you need to do to make sure you're staying healthy
Jared Lainhart
Stay up bro. We love you.
Adam Cook
Hey Jakob, first of all I just wanted to say that I have never laughed more than I do at your videos. From Cow Chop to early OffCanny to your streams to now, you have an ability to make me Crack like no other and I can never thank you enough for that. That being said, take all the time you need to get well. And I know that sometimes putting time and effort into things (like OffCanny) helps, but don't feel obligated to do so if it would have negative effects on your mental health. I've been a Patron since the beginning and even in the months of no uploads, I never once considered canceling. Obviously I enjoy the OffCanny content, but at the end of the day I'm supporting you, not the videos. If my money is going towards a goofy prop for a vid, cool. If it's going towards a fucking game you wanna play in your free time or lunch for the day, who cares. We are all here to support YOU. Best of luck getting back on track, buddy. We'll be right here if you need us.
Danny
We love you Jakob❤️
Rachel Rinehart
I'm sorry jakob. I hope you get the mental health/help you deserve.
Jack
I'll never stop watching your content, no matter who is taking part in the video. We got your back no matter what happens, I hope you can find that balance between making content and keeping yourself sane. Love ya man
Tyler Comeau
I really hope you get better Jakob, please if need be take more time off to get better, your self health is so much more important then trying to make videos for us and we'll understand, love you dude, I hope you get better <3
jim
holy shit that was a bit of a mental email to read, glad you’re doing better though man and still looking forward to anything and everything you put out in the future! with you every step of the way (digitally)
charlie
i hope taking care of yourself is your number one priority. you deserve so much. you’re such a talent it’s insane. accessing mental health care can be a tumultuous journey, but something that is so, so worth it. i hope you find some peace and solace soon. the world’s a better and brighter place with you in it. all the love in the world to you 💕
Fork and Spoon Entertainment
Get better soon my guy. Love ya a bunch and hope moving forward you can start to feel better.
NonsensicalFox
Don't know what to say other than I truly hope you can get the help you need or do whatever you need to do to help yourself. Really respect you dude, and I'm really sorry you have to go through what you're going through.
Ctross
♡♡♡♡♡♡♡
benny worm
Ay man, take as much time as you need to get your mental straight. Just keep it in mind that while you are out here making goofy, potentially dangerous content, you are loved and cherished by (hopefully) not only your family, but all of us who love up every bit of content you put out. I’m genuniely proud that you are able to make this channel your own and still do twitch stuff on the side. My only question is, since this is gonna be mostly you and some Trevor, will there be more collaborative vids like the ones with Schlatt and Twomad? Also, as a side note, you never have to worry about not being funny. Seeing you pop in on CC vids was the highlight of that channel for me, so to see you branching off with these well-edited as fuck videos and doing the fun shit you want to do whilst going through it is really fucking honorable. Keep up the cool shit man. You got this. 🖤💛
S.C
Your videos bring so much light and joy to our lives, the least we could do is support you when you need it. I'm glad you're still with us <3
Raph
My condolences for your grandpa. Also please take care of yourself and we will wait patiently no matter how long it takes for you to get better and please never feel bad about it. I hope you’ll feel better soon. All love ❤️
Johnny Rivera
Hey man, just take whatever time you need and do whatever it takes to get to a better place mentally, no pressure.
Jabbles 'Raz'
Bro this community will always get your back. It's good to see you doing better, and looking forward to your next project.
PianoGarbage
Yo thanks for being honest here. I hope all gets better for you! Take all the time you need to do what you gotta do. ❤️
Squid
Man this breaks my heart to hear. Jakob just know that we support you in every possible way through this journey. Drop any thoughts about you needing to upload consistently or keep this channel going if you feel like it's not enjoyable for you. In the end that's all that matters. From now on do everything that's needed to make yourself feel happy again and know that there's a bunch of us that'll support you all the way. ❤️
Cody Burns
Take care of yourself Jakob.
Cristian castillo
Take as much time as you need Jakob, you’re mental health comes first and we’ll all be here for whatever you decide to make next ❤️
Ben
Love you Jakob. I think we are all here for the long haul and will continue to support you for as long as you’ll have us ❤️
John Preston Lindsay
I've been there before myself man. The sympathy of a random internet stranger probably doesn't mean much, but just know that I'll keep watching and keep supporting, because your content is awesome regardless of who's in it. Keep working on yourself, and don't worry about what other people say about what you should be or how quickly you should be getting "better." Only you can decide what being better means, and how and when it should or could happen. Hang in there man.
APackofNewports
holy fuck, i didn't know you were going through that. as someone who's overcome a really really dark part in my life i am really proud of you for opening up like this, things will get better and you should always take care of yourself. I may not know you personally but i very much appreciate the content you create, and personally knowing how hard a sucide attempt is (i have been in that situation too) i am really happy you are still here, and i feel like everyone who watches you and those who are close to you appreciate your presence and appreciate you. I know things hurt, but you deserve as much love and respect and positivity that you give to others. Thank you for being here alive today and thank you for all that you do.
Jack Singer
Your health is more important than anything, we are here for you Jakob!
MrCreamen
Hey man, you are funny and I respect you for it. I cant expect you to be funny 100% of the time because you are a human. You don't owe me shit, do what you gotta do because whenever you do upload I watch it asap. I like laughing to your vids, I pray life gets less stressful for you 🙏.
kpop star
It’s alright Jakob, we’ll always be here supporting you! You’re never alone. I hope that you’re doing better. ❤️
MeCo
Truly thank you for continuing even through your tough times. Take care of yourself first we can hold our breaths
Aida
So sorry to hear what you had to go through, but very glad you’re working on feeling better. Take your time and remember that you and your channel are very loved! :)
Jayden
Jakob i appreciate your honesty and i hope you begin to feel better!!! ❤️❤️❤️
Alex Zicaro
That's really brave of you to share your hardships. Glad to hear you're taking steps to better yourself, mental health is hard to talk about but super important. Best of luck to you ♥️
Matthew Brown
I love everything you’re doing! We are all here for you ❤️
Leon Brill
Your mental health comes first, we're here for you
Favio Gutierrez
We love you man! We will always be here for you💜
Catzilla
You’re mental health is the most important thing. Don’t feel like you need to be putting stuff out for us. We care about you and not just the content.
Brendan Howell
We’re all behind you and we love you and we’re so happy you’re here. ❤️
Glowl
Sending you my best wishes Jakob 💙 take it easy
urye
We love you Jakob, do whatever you need to do for your mental health 🗣🗣