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BTS #004
🕑 Added 2017-12-16 03:58:35 +0000 UTC I just finished filming the last part of the Midnight Spa trilogy ... I always get so anxious when reviewing the footage but I'm happy to announce it's ... not trash. The way mercury has been fucking shit up I honestly was expecting it to have some kind of stupid error in it but it sounds fine.I survived an intense anxious and vulnerable episode that lasted two days. Today is day 3 and I feel a little more stable. Though I'm low on energy still - filming for over two hours really took it out of me. I've been going outside more often again and it's always hit or miss whether a particular outing helps or harms me. But it's worth it if I can get kitty love. Today I found the cutest little kitten and when I approached her to pet her she tried to climb my arm. I picked her up and she started purring ... for about 5 seconds, then she got distracted by birds. Typical kitten attention span.
I'm listening to one of my go-to ASMR videos to wind down while I have to lie down. You probably don't know this but my posture is pretty bad and my back hurts if I sit up for too long. That probably means that I need ... right, lots of massages. Just look at all the massages I've given since my last video went public. I deserve some in return. Jack's hands will be pretty busy when we move in together. Jokes aside, I'm glad you enjoyed my massage video so much. I hope the ridiculously long mani/pedi/soak package will be equally as pleasing. I successfully managed to trick some people into thinking I got a haircut... Boy will they be surprised when the next one comes out. Yep, this is how I entertain myself.
Ahhhh, second round of my video loop. I don't really have a video schedule because, well, things never really work out as I plan them even if I do bother with a plan. It's about time for our Friday night date and I didn't mean to be filming so late but it happens. I feel kinda bad I haven't been able to function enough to film more. That's all I really had to say. So many new ideas are going through my head and making them happen always takes so much longer than I expected.
I'm gonna go and enjoy a well deserved drink or 5. Send lots of kitty love my way please.
//Ally
