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🐱 Stress Less Coloring Cats 🐱
🕑 Added 2018-05-26 16:11:07 +0000 UTC Worn out from a hectic week? Let's stay home, have a drink, lounge on the bed and color in some kitties!Obviously I'm back in my comfort zone with the makeup. Though I've clearly overloaded Jack with videos - I guess 4 in one week are a lot. It was a lot of work time, too, but I just really wanted to make another video this week. Problem was, I had no idea what. Turns out, when I narrow down the selections based on whatever takes the least amount of preparation, I'm at a loss. So I sat for hours just thinking about what to do while doing all the social media stuff for the last video - and ideas were happening but not fast enough and they're kind of just seedlings for now. I remember once after rebranding I was asked if I'd consider making a coloring video again, so by 2:30AM I decided I'd give it a shot. I gathered all of the things to include as many varied sounds as possible - pencil and paper, drinks, books, a sharpener... I wanted it to be cozy and relaxed so I liked the idea of just staying in bed.
What I was not prepared for is how much of a pain it would be to edit. I recall one of you asking me if I'd thought about launching a side channel for just basic ASMR to get more exposure. Upon creating this video, I am 1000% certain the answer is HELL NO. Don't get me wrong, I would like more exposure, too. Obviously that means more potential supporters, faster move and better stuff to expand my video creation abilities. The problem? Me. During editing I just really suffered the pain of editing myself doing nothing (or doing pointless things). It's the reason why my last job fucked me up so much - I have possibly the lowest tolerance for pointless activities. I can't even work out unless I combine it with something fun or at least mildly rewarding. I can't do cardio at home, I can't knit, I can't fold cardboard for a living - and I can't edit something that doesn't make me feel purpose. All for the same, seemingly trivial reason: It drives me insane. I say seemingly trivial because all my life people acted like that shouldn't bother me so much, but it does. I already put nearly all of my time and energy into my videos so they had better be worth it to me - if you know what I mean. I recently started organizing and saving all the different version of a video, thumbnails etc. for all my projects because unlike the popular crap I used to do, these actually mean something to me. There's something of me in them that wasn't present in my old videos that makes me care about losing them. I wouldn't miss my old videos and the only reason why lots of them are still up is because people flipped shit when I first talked about wanting to delete them. I consider this a compromise. But I can't go back to doing that because my body literally refuses to do something so meaningless and unfulfilling.
That being said, I don't actually know the factor that makes something fulfilling for me. I guess I'll find out as I go. The one thing I really like about this video and the last one for that matter, is how casually playful it is. I used to avoid being myself in my ASMR videos, obviously to play roles and stuff, but also because in my head I had an idea of what's relaxing based off watching other people's videos and then, you know, monkey see - monkey do. I really like humor and I love when I can throw in a funny one liner or reference to something. I find that if it makes me laugh, it's instantly more relaxing. It just makes me remember the video in a positive way if I laughed at least once during it. For some reason I thought humor and relaxation contradicted each other?
Now that I'm finally done with videos for the week, ideas are coming in for next week. I'm thinking about working on an energy healing type video first because I have a lot of nervous energy lately and need to do something with it. Paradoxically, being on edge helps me with energy work. Then I thought of making another soundscape video because I thought for next month's download, most would probably choose a sound based one over a sound+visual combo and so far the only one I have is the Aromatherapy Massage video so I want to throw another in the mix just to kinda give you a real choice. I'm very much inspired by WhisperCrystal for my soundscape videos because I love her style of engagingly narrated videos and those are by far the most watched for me. But I like to add more sounds and triggers related to what I'm narrating because, well, I have a really good recorder and I can. It would kind of be a waste not to make use of every single sound possibility with those. That being said, what I had in mind was a bath video since I've already done quite a few massages - something along the lines of a hot tub in a garden with cocktails. Let me know what you think!
For now, I hope you enjoy this coloring video, seeing as how it's the last of its kind on my channel. Cheers
//Ally
Comments
Wkwied
This has to be one of your best videos in a while. Keep it up! And if you do a bath video, don't get your hardware wet!
i like the bath video idea! you're a wonderful artist. i appreciate all your efforts!
