Ryrythae
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My inactivity
🕑 Added 2019-05-04 15:37:23 +0000 UTCFirst of all, I'd like to say thank you for everyone who stayed even tho I haven't been able to give out rewards. Along with being on hiatus for so long. From the bottom of my heart, I'm truly happy and proud to say I have great support and I can finally continue to provide rewards again after a long hiatus.
So I want to share why I wasn't around for so long. I hope it is not too painful to read. (I am horrible at writing how I feel. But I still want to let everyone know.)
For a very long time, I have been struggling with myself, my confidence and my self worth. To the point where I thought I will forever be an artist that can never strive to improve ever again. It wasn't because I don't have love for art anymore at the time, but it was because of words that were harsh towards my art , those words that made me unwanted in a project but still used me to gain more attention .This wasn't a one time occurrence. It lasted years up until actions were made against said person. Note that I appreciate constructive criticism but never destructive.
Because of my naivety , I let myself down and ran away from what was making me happy and continued listening to destructive criticisms (without knowing it was), then I realize if I was worth the support from everyone here. It made me scared. I didn't know if I could ever give good art at all. So in the end, I was scared to deliver rewards despite being active on social media and posting new art every time. This was my fault for not being stronger.
I don't know what this post's message will deliver, both bad and good, I will accept it wholeheartedly. I just wanted to be honest about everything that was going on.
I also want to apologize for not speaking up about this sooner as I was still in the progress of getting back on what I love to do.
Thank you for reading and staying with me on my journey to becoming a better artist. The next update will be of past rewards that I owe, requests included!
Comments
Ry
Thanks Eric. :) But honestly, everyone deserves to learn and not get belittled for what they do.It took a long time for me to realize that tho! Haha. Your sister must be very happy and proud to have a brother who supports her creative side! I hope you two can have fun drawing no matter what. ^^
Eric Henderson
My sister is 9 years younger and even before starting college this past year, she already had WAY more artistic talent than anyone else in the family. She once drew a cubone with colored pencils in high school, and it was flawless. My art is limited to geometric designs on graph paper or a computer, but I do still have an interest in art, so I definitely admire those with actual talent like you and my sister ๐
Eric Henderson
Next time someone says โthat looks terribleโ, have them draw it so you can laugh at them. Anyone who can actually draw anything worthwhile wouldnโt speak poorly of your art, so if someone insults it, theyโre probably just jealous. Now, if they insult MY art, they have a point ๐
Klashvorn
And with that renewed strength, you'll surely get reacquainted with the fuzzy feelings this journey provides ! Glad you're able to get this off your chest. Now, on to filling the world with blushies !
