KenCougr
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What's Going On?
🕑 Added 2025-12-15 03:04:24 +0000 UTCOkay. Let's see if I can make myself express myself and explain what goes on around me.
I've been dealing with psych issues for forever. I've been on medication for... a long time. Since I lost my job and became retired, it's been a circus dealing with insurance and doctors and medications. If you can't guess, I live in the United States.
I spent more than a year without head meds and dealing with being an emotional block of cement. I am insured now and getting help with all the fun things that you inherit when you get up in age.
I am in an unfortunate condition where the meds needed to handle my psych issues are causing me body tremors which is making doing art and a lot of things that require fine control frighteningly difficult. People who have not seen me streaming the last few weeks... that's why I haven't. Pen-to-tablet, typing, gods, even touching my forehead is... like some cartoon routine. Obviously, I hate it.
I'm beating on my doctors to figure out how to reverse the situation. I want to feel alive again and I want to do art again. Total pain in the ass there isn't some quick switch to flip to fix it. I'm safe and secure, at least. I continue to work on making things better.
I appreciate the patience you've shown me. I want to resume doing things to show that appreciation.
Thanks and take care.
Comments
Trianine
But it's nice to have an idea of what you are fighting. You are a legend in this fandom and to be able to partake and contribute even in this small way had been a blessing. My heart goes out to both of you.
Trianine
Finally moved here from ko-fi, giving P another chance. I'm glad to read about your trials here, though the news is not great. When you dropped off there, it was just "another one of those things."
Geemo
The symptoms sound like Tardive Dyskinesia to me as well. I'm glad you said something!
Iridium Wolf
I was worried as I had not seen you stream in a while. I'm sorry you're going through this and I hope you and your doctors can find a workable solution. If there's anything we can do to help, please do not hesitate to ask!
IbramV8
Ah, insurance... always a hassle... I'm sad to hear about your troubles and unfortunately, I understand your difficult situation... I'm sending you lots of courage and strength to fight this situation. Psychological suffering is truly difficult, and no one deserves this. Thank you again <3 Thank you so much, my artist, whom I admire greatly! You will always have my support for your magnificent art. (I think you know this, but: Lazy Nezumi might be able to help you stabilize your lines.) Once again, I'm sad to hear about your troubles. Lots of courage, and I hope you find a solution <3
Arilin Thorferra
I'm hoping for the best for you, and soon. Hang in there.
Itchigo Icetalons
We always have loads of patience for you, don't you worry about that. It's not fair that all this is happening to you.
Vishki
Been following your streams for a while now, and glad to hear the update, even if it's not the best news. Regardless of the outcome, you've been a huge influence on me, and it's always been an honor to support you!
Byron
Your health always takes priority. It just sucks that you live in a country where the healthcare system doesn't also believe that...
Ulfra Wolfe
Wishing you the best of health.
Broadpaw Fox
Damn, you've been though some stuff... you have my sympathies. Been there myself in a way... I had my issues for almost 20 years and just kept thinking "it'll get better when...". I finally broke down amd got in to see a doctor and he immediately put me on a couple meds for depression and anxiety and oh damn, the difference- it was profound. I did find a med (family) that causes the tremors (TD, or tardive dyskinesia) amd one of those meds did that to me so he stopped that one and tried another. The second one worked great - so the point of all this is that there are other options for whatever you're taking - ask about those and don't just settle for something that does that to you. Now with all that said, you probably already know/have asked about these things, but I still like sharing experience for others, so here it is. π We're here for you whenever you need or want.
Kagur
Don't worry, we aren't going anywhere. I hope the doctors can figure it out for you soon. Please take care and enjoy the holidays.
