Suede Of The Union 23/02/2020

Your worth and value aren't based on humans. It's based on being made in God's image, so I'll pray for ya'.

Awesomeness11

Honestly suede just remember none of your videos are going to be Masterclass in fact I would say some are only Pokeball quality (only some don't take this to the extreme) however your Pokeball quality stuff is still fun enough to waste 20 minutes on so don't worry about perfection it won't happen. weather or not your video is bad by your standards we will still enjoy it and we won't riot if you make a bad video every once in a while. so maybe make a bad video on purpose just to see the reaction it might help you calm down and not worry about the quality.

BlackDevil1942

Suede you do you. I've watched you long before I became a patron and I've always enjoyed your work. You've always brought quality with a sense of humility to your work. You do what you have to. Not for us, but for yourself and your enjoyment of what you do.

Malory Zajdel

Hi Suede, I'm not even sure if you'll see this or if it will or make things worse, but here I go. You should be very proud of what you have accomplished. I use to love writing stories,so much that I wanted to get published one day, but I too have a mental condition that stops me in my tracks and no matter how much I want to write I can't. I haven't written anything in years. You broke though your blocks, and made something that people love. We pledge to you because we like what you do, no one is forcing us to, but honestly you don't need to do this for us. Do it because you want to, do it because you have a passion for something that despite the difficult times you face, nothing has put out that spark yet. Do it because you love what you do no matter what anyone else cares or thinks. If you need to you can always disable the comments and only have thumbs up and Thumbs down. Don't let your spark die and always remember why you started in the first place. Hope this helps, if not I'm sorry, take as long as you need. We'll be waiting patiently.

Aryeh Baruch

For what it's worth, I know that pain, too, all too well.

De

I suppose if there was anything we could do about it you'd tell us, like if there were key words we should avoid in comments. I mean that wouldn't work on Youtube but it'd probably work here. If we kept our comments to mostly discussions about the episode itself instead of directing them at you? I went to a class to learn how to do writing critique and one of the rules was never direct comments at the the author, not even praise. The work is not the author. I know it's counter to the whole Youtuber culture, which is one of access, but it could be worth considering. Also, being paid for your labor is not a compliment. We aren't just paying you, we're paying Jess too. How would you feel if Jess did all this work and didn't get fairly compensated? It doesn't matter if Jess enjoys doing it, the only way she can continue to do this fulfilling job that she enjoys is if she gets paid enough for it. We like the work and want it to keep being made so we pay for it; we even pay for the people who like it but can't afford to chip in every month. I've been following your work since before you were married but I don't know you. I know some things about you but we've never met. I might say hi to you at a convention if my health allowed me to go to conventions, but I'd never stop by your house, that'd be weird. I don't know you enough to like or dislike you, but I know your work very well and I'm happy to pay for it.

Andrew Welsh

You always do a great job. When I feel in a slump, I use cold logic to get myself out of it. You say you do this job to support your family, repeat that to yourself. Think about if you choose to not have this life style (patrons and videoes), would you be happier. If you come to the conclusion of yes. I think all of us would understand.

PaperFox19

I don't know how to help, what to say even. I've always thought you've done a great job in the past. I had no idea this was so hard for you. Hugs! I pray a solution comes. I think you are great hugs

PaperFox19

Hugs

Try tricking your brain, or consider having someone read them for you. See if there's a way of fooling your subconcious into believing "this is a random list of people" somehow. A simple version would be simply reading peoples names as a list without the special thanks pretext, then recording the pretext seperately, although I doubt that'd go far enough to work. Maybe try recording it as a conversation with Jesse and see if reading a list of names gets around that way, it might be able to circumvent the barrier in your brain if it's a conversation. Regardless, best of luck, brain enemies are the worst enemies since you can barely fight them and its soooo hard to find a detour.

Zender3162

I just got here but I've been watching for years. The truth of the matter Suede is that I have wanted to help support this for the longest time for one reason and one reason only, you helped me find my love for something I have been missing for a long time. Pokemon was so all encompassing for my gen that it is more strange not to have a bunch of old pokemon cards around that you treasure from elementary school but I fell out of it and sure that came back eventually but it died again until I felt the want to watch the series again with the problem of not wanting to do it alone. That's where you came in watching the videos listening to your reactions it was like watching the show with an old friend. Suede I would like to continue on this pokemon journey with you and everyone else. We will always be here cause you are worth it

edmg7

Well that really sucks. Sorry you have to deal with that 😔 The only suggestion I can think of having someone else do the Patreon readings. Possibly have a PR person deal with the comments. Though I'm not sure if that'll make the problem worse.

HungryWinner

As someone also on the Autism Spectrum you have my sympathies. Unfortunatly I don't have any ideas for the issue at hand. :(

Mizu

That sounds quite tough indeed, and you have my sympathies. Could you have your partner Jess read them out instead, perhaps?

Chris Adams

No worries. Mental health always comes first.

Rachel Bush

Wow, your posts are always so honest, man. Whatever you need to do, take care of yourself and your mental health. If we can help in any way, just let us know.