a good experiment
🕑 Added 2024-10-11 02:43:24 +0000 UTCI've written 3.4k words today. Some more the day before last. And yesterday was just an emotional rut.
I think this two-hours-a-day system has run its course.
I've been closer to every other day lately, and less productive over all, I realized, since it set in somewhere partway through September how financially uncertain our situation is.
(Here, I'll add a continued note of thanks for everyone who is supporting me here, because it really is completely critical right now.)
Anyway, something about trying to maintain a clock-stable system of work in the face of that instability is... not working.
I think I accepted that yesterday, but then today I felt somewhat freer to just, rather than focusing on the time I'm putting in, just focus on the work itself and spin out all of the segment I was working on.
I don't know if stepping away from the daily minimum will necessarily make me more productive-- clearly Just Putting Myself In The Room is a good thing-- but I think it will be more enjoyable when I am writing.
And like I said before, there's something incompatible about trying to write to any schedule while also being earnest to my emotional condition, whatever that is at a given moment.
All development is a continual workshopping of the processes behind it as well.
Let's see if I can keep my current momentum and carry it forward in a way that is more honest to myself.
