clotted dreams
🕑 Added 2025-01-31 17:08:42 +0000 UTCi'm getting through the current events.
i think they might be impacting my mood and function.
either that, or i'm simultaneously so resilient as to be unaffected by them, while also being so fragile that i am actually just using them as an excuse.
jury's still out on which of those is more likely.
i'd be lying if i said if i said my work was at all focused.
there has been work.
i've felt very motivated to just learn to Get Really Good at godot so i can use it for whatever i need in the future.
i was just trying to learn a bit more about its pathfinding tools, but today i got sidetracked and remade a tRPG grid control system. not that i'm planning to work actively on starlight again yet, but it was there, so... i did it.
that took me the better part of my starlight time in 2017 to make in it in rpg maker.
today it took two hours.
but it's not like it was a waste.
i can only do that now because of the time i spent then.
and even if i never use it, i'm sure the experience will help with whatever i do go on to do.
actually this is just me, this is who you're supporting:
[Image ID: a tumblr post of a fox chewing over the wires of a half-dissected computer tower. the image evokes chaos. it is captioned "me whenm i am. Prougraming on my Computer."]
the plans we had for this month fell through so our situation is still rocky.
you all continue to be our lifeline.
thank you <3
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this morning i made devonshire cream.
i "have been meaning to make it" at home ever since i worked in a tea shop where we served it with scones.
that was fourteen years ago.
it took five minutes.
