(part whatever) a closing request
🕑 Added 2025-11-19 23:48:41 +0000 UTCSuffice it to say this approach for posts-- doing it when I'm in bed, committed half to sleep and half to wake-- has been working for me. It's an appropriate intersection between having the energy to type out thoughts, the focus and time to do so, and the honest feelings to fuel them.
Gee, when I put it like that, no wonder it's kind of my most reliable writing conditions.
But that thought is the mind killer. It will make me think things like I Should be writing something else instead.
No, this is working. And I Should let it work and prioritize as I see fit at a given moment.
I marked the prior string of posts as parts together because they were, some of them written at the same time, and others written in the same mood, and then the follow up, which is now this post but wasn't originally, became two more on its own because as it turns out doubts and reflections are not finite.
But with this I'd like to confirm that this style seems to work for me and it'll be my go-to so there's no need for arbitrary marks.
When I made the first posts I remarked it was cold and dark and I didn't want to get up. Well here I am several weeks further into the cold season. It's only darker. But I feel very warm right now. Part of that is probably just because I have Cass passed out on top of me, but no one tell her I'm talking about how cute and snuggly she is.
Anyway letting go of some of the ice in my heart probably helps too.
I'd like to get back to talking about the actual development soon. At least a little. Next time. But that's, like, an "I'd like to" rather than a "I Should". Much gentler. I am not spurred on by imaginary stirrups.
But the positive note I want to end on this time-- wanted to get to a couple times ago, actually-- deserves it's own query.
So a bit ago when I was in the throes of my self doubt (or deeper in them, anyway, because my pride and doubts are the same; only the water is a little purer now)-- I thought a more tangible, persistent reminder of the difference I've made for some people might be nice.
You all, and the community at large, have been very kind to me. But with all these words and faces being purely digital, text displayed and inevitably hidden on the same screen used for a thousand other purposes, it's easy to forget the meaning behind it. It slips through my fingers, and dissolves into the background of all of my other focuses. The kind words are warm, nourishing, important to me-- but difficult to hang onto.
So I've started writing some things down and putting them on sticky notes on my bedroom wall. One per person. I think if I had always been doing this the wall could be covered by now, but the second best time to plant a tree is today and all that.
So this is my request:
If I have, in any way, made a difference in your life (be it personally, through Reborn, something else), and you would like me to remember it, let me know. Comments are fine. DMs are fine. This is a perpetually standing request.
Remind me, give me a color you prefer, and I will put you on my wall.
Thank you again for being a part of my life.
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Foamy
Pokémon Reborn, and you by extension, is what allowed me and my former girlfriend to meet. And while the relationship eventually didn't work out, it was the happiest five years of my life. But if it hadn't been for you, we never would have known that the other existed. (I like green)
