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Patreon Livesteam & Little Update
🕑 Added 2021-02-08 17:35:32 +0000 UTCHello friends!
First things first, here are the details for this month's livestream:
Where? https://youtu.be/G8ZMJ_jnnSI
When? Thursday, 11 February, 7 PM Berlin time (Check the link above to adjust to your time zone).
There will be a chat, so please come join us to hang out, ask questions, show your artwork etc. etc. !
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Now, let's talk about how I completely blew that challenge I set for myself! It was going well and I was drawing a portrait a day, but then came... the weekend. I took two days off as always. And returning back to work today (Monday), I noticed that I completely forgot about that stupid challenge!! I feel a bit dumb for not thinking about this. But I just remembered that this is the reason why I haven't done one of these in a few years. I love my weekends and they keep me sane. So now I have the choice to either pick up where I left off or to stop all together. But to be honest, I don't really feel like it. I don't have a lot of energy at the moment. And this feels like breaking good eating habits and then just going like "whatever, hand me that cheesecake". Times are weird and tough and it turns out, I don't have the willpower to keep this going at the moment.
Also, you have probably noticed that I have started many paintings and projects over the last few months and didn't finish a large percentage of them. It's much more than usual. More often than not, by the time I finish a sketch, I'm already tired of my idea. So I'm just struggling a little bit, trying to come to terms with what I actually want to do and what gets me excited at the moment. I think I'll just focus a bit more on getting inspired, rather than trying to create painting after painting. So I'll watch a few movies tonight (and maybe over the next couple of days), go out into the snow, and then come back refreshed with hopefully some more insight.
Thank you all for reading and for being with me on this journey. <3
Comments
Mylène Cassen
Have a rest! This is so difficult to find the right balance between healthy work hours and everything we want to do. I wanted to do the challenge but I am already working on studies on weekend and at the end of my full time job, I am often exhausted. Take care of yourself.
Djamila Knopf
Matt, thank you so much for all this! It really means a lot. And I think you're absolutely right. I do enjoy being more spontaneous, rather than planning everything out in adavance. I think that's a valuable lesson to learn. And I'm definitely going to take some rest and time to recharge my creativity. I've been at a point where I almost got burnt out in the past, and it definitely wasn't fun.
Matt Brown
This sounds to me like a classic case of burn-out and disorientation. I get this as someone trying to kick start my art career, so i can only imagine and sympathise with you for how it must feel to have the pressure of an audience or "customers" to please...but seriously I think i'd speak for everyone who has joined this Patreon, we aren't here to watch you struggle to impress, we are here to support, admire and join you on this journey. you're an artist and an honest whole hearted one. First off, please be kind to yourself, although not finishing a challenge, or project can feel disappointing and frustrating, it's also good data telling you something valuable. Maybe you just aren't the big project/challenge type, from following you over a few years and seeing your work i honestly wouldn't have had you down for it anyway, you seem much more of a spur of the moment, paint it as you feel it type artist and i wonder if maybe the idea of a project or a challenge feels restricting to that part of your mind that just wants to play...which leads me to my second piece of advice. Take the time you need to rejuvenate, watch all the feel good films, breath in the clean air and try to think honestly about the things in your art and the creative process that you enjoy the most and let them guide you. sometimes we think we want to do or be a certain thing in our art, but our art and personality just have different ideas. so when you do come back your fan base will still be here and excited to see some more of your beautiful, honest artwork in whatever form it takes. As a fellow artist its heart breaking to hear another artist struggle but its also humbling to feel the very human side of it and know you aren't alone. Take care and see you soon :)
