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Uboa - The Woman Does Not Exist (WIP)
🕑 Added 2024-09-22 09:24:47 +0000 UTCHere is a WIP of a song written around the same time as Impossible Light (2018). I recently made a second attempt at recording vocals and gave it a complete remix. An older mix was posted on soundcloud years ago, where my vocals were only scarcely in key.
I am really happy with how this song is turning out, but it still think I need to push myself further as a vocalist and mixing engineer. The song is in B minor, so I have to sing at the very bottom of my range, which isn't my favourite thing to do. No download as this will be canonically released in a record. Title is a reference to Jaques Lacan, who I was an avid reader of back in 2018.
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(CW: Sex work, Drug Abuse, Suicide, Eating Disorders)
It's an industrial (nu-)metal song, taking cues from deftones, ada rook, bjork, sewerslvt (it has breaks) and isis. Very little noise, and even has a pop-like structure. The lyrics are below, and detail a fictional character a Hikikomori camgirl and her ex-girlfriend, who passed away. It is however based on what I was going through in 2018.
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I have a latent fear
Of seeing you watch me stream
Without some sense of loss
Once more I see the sun rise
As I sleep
I feel more lonely
When everyone sees me
Crawl like a cockroach on the floor
Unread books and rotting food
A human cumrag forced fem hole
Too depressed to cam
or even move
The prettiest girls
Are the ones that cry the most
The prettiest girls
Are the ones that give up on hope
Shut up
And disassociate
And smile
And cut the phone cords
And black out the windows
Because thereās no-one worth knowing outside
I gave her more love
Than all the world combined
But she did not love me
As much as ketamine
And suicide
The prettiest girls
Are the ones that cry the most
The prettiest girls
Are the ones that give up hope
The prettiest girls
Are the ones who are tapeworm hosts
The best relationships
Are the ones that just do not work
I love the way
The camera
Blurs your image
Like light refracted through rain
Comments
MOREEAH
so amazing š
