ailejne
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Letter
🕑 Added 2024-07-25 07:21:30 +0000 UTCHeya Taters,
Long time no update.
I’ve been dreading writing this letter for months now, avoiding why I’m not posting here for the past year. I owe you all an explanation. Some older readers who’ve been with me know that I joke around a lot but I wanted this to be a bit serious. I apologize for any grammatical errors but I wanted this to be as authentic as possible - straight from me.
In 2023, my last update was about Hello Baby’s launch. I was very excited. Thankful with Webtoon, they’ve been true to their word to help me with the launch. I am grateful. But the promise is starting to fade, as many other beautiful series are also being launched every day. I felt so down. Even trying to ask if I am still a worthy comic creator…
As there are a lot of people who have been very supportive with my work, there are also a lot of people who criticized my work. I can’t blame them - the internet is a free space.
The only wrong thing I’ve done was that I listened more to the people criticizing my work. It made me feel so bad about my work. About myself.
I am wondering if Webtoon is still for me? I can’t explain it well but I feel very left out. Maybe the management doesn't see any potential with my work anymore. I’ll be honest that it’s not doing numbers like Age Matters but I understand because everything is business. Age Matters did slightly well but Hello Baby? No. My editors don’t even bother to contact me unlike during Age Matters. You know how it feels when you’re left hanging in a relationship? Lol. They even asked me to stop updating Patreon and to focus on creating the Webtoon but f*cc it… I’ll continue to update here with what’s happening now. XD This sounds like a rant but I feel very betrayed after all the promises and stuff. They didn’t even post anything but the book 1 released. ToT The pre-order details about Age Matters book 2 are only there because I talked with them.
This is why I wanted to focus more on my personal work right now, during Hello Baby’s final season and maybe after. That’s why I’m creating more personal art stuff - starting with Play House (now on Canvas and soon on other sites) and another new GL I’ve been wanting to do. Of course, the R18 spicy versions are going to be posted here - exclusively! It’s been a while since I last did a GL, Third Party was around 2017? Hah. My friends are even telling me to try BL so I will complete all the genres now. Haha. But I’ll think about it, since I have a lot of stories I want to share. I want to try new things.
TLDR: I went into a spiral of depression the past year. I was so lost. I’ve not been very active with my socials as I was before but I am trying to get back. I don’t want to mind the negativity and only focus on the positive things happening to me and my works.
I want to apologize for the irresponsibility. I ignored all the help that my friends (my assistants) were trying to give me but I was wrong. I NEEDED the help, thank god I realized it. Now, I am listening more to all the positive comments and suggestions - I want to focus more on my own work. My self, as a creator.
PS: I am proud to announce new talented assistants that are collaborating with me for the patreon rewards.
PPS: I am safe for now. Yesterday, the studio almost got flooded by a strong Typhoon. This is the first time our area's been reached with water. I am thinking of moving to a better area ToT I hate and love my country at the same time.
Comments
PhoenixFyre
I just want to say I LOVE "Hello Baby". It is so heartwarming and I look forward to it every week. I do care about you as a creator and pray that you ignore those negative people in your life. We all do go through this thinkinbg we aren't good enough. It is a part of life and growing from it. But please continue with this series that makes me smile every week. And Thank You :)
Andy Salcedo
I'm sorry you are going through this. I hope things can improve and become a better space for you.
Life is beautiful
Been a reader since Age Matters and I always tell my friends about Hello Baby and Age matters. But you are right I believe you just need an entire new team staff and all of that because it looks like the current one does not give a Flying F%&k about your stories or you. We can also try advertising your stories. I stream so I will promote your story on my stream and hopefully more readers join! It is unfair that you are working so hard and yet they are doing nothing to promote you. Focus on your art who cares about the other writers art BE YOUR OWN UNIQUE self don't fall in to a trend that will stress you and make you wonder. Look we your readers are here for you because we love your stories your art. If we didn't why would we even be here? So chin up! In Mufasas voice: "REMEMBER WHO YOU ARE!" we love you for you! We love your stories. Sorry I went off. I just love your stories so much.
Zoë Everett Abrahamson
I know it’s hard to not let negative comments get to you- so I hope you can settle in a place where you know wholeheartedly that your work is unique, original, and wanted and appreciated! I recommend you as an artist to new comic readers. I’m sorry you got sucked up in the politics and business funnel of webtoons and hope you know that I and so many thousands of other readers will follow your work anywhere! I look forward to all of your updates and thank you for publishing 🥰
Adore Panda
Been a reader for a long time and I was finally able to support on the pates pretty recently. I was sad you hadn't updated in a while but knowing I was able to support one of my favorite authors was worth the subscription, even with just a small contribution. You're work is amazing. You're amazing. My sisters and friends absolutely love your work. We are saddened to hear how sad you were! And would like to remind you that you have supporters everywhere! Glad you're safe and know we will always be here supporting you regardless of what route you decide to take in storylines as long as you continue to write and tell them! Sending you a lot of love. Thank you for making our lives better one chapter at a time. !
Kyra Daily
Which is ridiculous that they don't think of you that way. Your art style is so unique and I love your story telling
Double J
Oh and btw, I LOVE hello baby. So refreshing and different from other stories 💕
Double J
So happy to read from you and to see you back here! Very sad to read how down you were 😢 just so you know, a lot of us will always be there to support you and your work! You’re a very talented artist who should not give up 🫶🏻 Also, I already have vol. 1 and pre ordered vol. 2 🤩 can’t wait to receive it!
Enjelicious
Thank yo so much 💕 I am very happy there are still people who enjoys and works. It keeps me going 🥹
Enjelicious
Thank you 😭 I hate myself for pushing their help away but not anymore 💕 I also hope WT won't mind me posting again here since I'm not considered a top creator anymore 😂
Enjelicious
It really does make one feel worse but I am proud that I am slowly getting out of it 💕 Thank you for the continuous support
AmberLiz
I’m sorry you’ve been feeling like this and thank you for the update, I always enjoy reading your comics and seeing your art!💕And I can’t wait for Age Matters vol 2 to come out🙌 Also I’m glad you’re safe from the typhoon
Hailea
The use of 'XD' hits me good as I use that daily hahaha but glad to see you're back here! Absolutely love and adore ANYTHING you do- won't ever matter how much time passes, you'll have my support forever (as I'm sure many, many others feel the same). Depression is a hell of a thing (I suffer from it chronically) so I understand that (in my own way). Anyways enough of my rambling—welcome back ♡ !
Kyra Daily
I'm sorry to hear you were going through all of that. It seems that WT hasn't been taking very good care of the creators that make their site even possible. I'm glad that you are feeling better and letting those around you help you (it's hard to ask/get help when you are able to admit to yourself that you need it ❤️) and it's ridiculous that they felt that they could tell you you "can't" post on your patreon when it's a part of your livelihood. Thank you for the update 😊❤️❤️❤️ also I hope that you are able to keep the rain outside 😅😂
