kynicole
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I'm sorry.
🕑 Added 2022-08-23 00:01:59 +0000 UTCfirst off- hi family <3 I'm really sorry for the wait on videos. I'm so beyond blessed and thankful that there are so many people on here that have stuck by me. you have no idea how much it means to me, because i know it's hard to do so when I go MIA.
there's literally so many reasons why I was so MIA on posting.. so bare with me. But i do want to tell you where I have been and what's going on in my life.
1. I had gotten the flu. It takes my body a lot of time to recover due to my medication that supresses my immune system.
2. Right after I was finally recovering from the flu, I woke up with insane, painful rashes around my eyes and cheeks. like the worst rash you could possibly imagine. the day after that, I woke up and my rash had spread over my entire face and neck. it was unbelievably painful and draining. I spent 90% of those days asleep and only waking up out of necessity or to communicate with my doctor. I found out the rashes were a flare up starting, due to of my connective tissue disease (i know that's vague, but i'm not quite ready to share about my diagnosis). I couldn't wear make up or put anything on my face (besides anything prescribed). That extreme pain and rash lasted over a week. I was put on some new meds that helped clear it up.
3. (this was a big reason why) last week I was in my fiancee's classroom, helping her get the room ready for the new school year. Sara, her mom and I were hanging up a massive map of the world on the wall. we were using Sara's industrial glue gun. It gets up to 320°F and the glue sticks are a lot stickier and stronger than your average glue gun. It runs on a literal drill battery.
As I was putting the glue on the perimeter of the map, I ran my hand over the map to flatten it... and when doing so, all the glue I had just put on was pushed out and ALL of it dripped onto my fingers. I felt it burning through multiple layers of my skin. Sara thankfully wiped some of it off (it wasn't as hot since it had been on me for awhile) to stop the burn from continuing. after soaking it in cold water, I also had to peel the rest of the glue off and let me tell you... I don't recommend.
I had burned my ring finger and my middle finger. my ring finger burn is smaller and almost a second degree burn. my middle finger burn is big and insanely deep. You can see more than 3 layers of my skin had been burned off and I was left with a deep crater.. and a huge chunk of skin missing. this burn was a deep tissue, second degree burn/potential deep tissue third degree burn.
these are the two fingers I use on my keyboard to edit, and I can't even use them for picking up a drink. BUT, i'm going to attempt to edit tonight. :) it just might take a bit longer. my ring finger will hopefully be out of the finger dressing soon, since it's smaller and not as deep. I'll still have a burn bandage on, but it'll be a lot easier for me to use that finger with just the bandage. the middle finger will probably need the dressing for a lot longer.
4. a few days ago I got the stomach flu and have been super sick and still recovering from it. I'm feeling better each day and I'm ready to at least be back and edit, even if I'm not well enough to film yet.
Thank you all so much for your continuous support and love.
y'all were the only thing helping me get by. I love you all so much.
Comments
Macie
I’m so sorry all this is happening to you :( don’t stress on posting we all completely understand ❤️
Yeah! Don’t worry, sounds like you have really gone through it recently. You are my favorite reaction channel!!❤️❤️
Don’t worry about posting. Just get better. We’ll still be here when you get back. I’ll just keep watching Heartstopper to fill the time.🤗🥰😃
I hope you feel better soon :) Take all the time you need to recover. We'll be here when you come back
Bridget b
Yea! I don’t blame you at all for taking your time and doing what you need to do to feel better! We will be here when you can be too!
thank you so much. this comment means a lot to me. it's sometimes so hard to explain to people. it is exhausting. chronic illness is no joke. I always feel God awful, but i'm good at masking it since i'm so used to having to function no matter what. however, this past month... it's been reallyyyyy hard to mask it.
thank you so much. <3 ENJOY YOUR FOOD HEHE
Bridget b
Hopefully you feel better soon! I can’t imagine how exausted you are. My mom has been in and out of the hospital a lot the past couple of years and I know how hard it can be on her. Wishing you the best always! ❤️
EddieSpice69
Damn sounds like a hell of a month! Sorry all this happened nicole but glad your feeling better and well enough to edit I rewatch my pledges spn reactions (that are still watching it) to pass the time between new reactions speaking of im gonna get my food and watch season 7 finale right now! And yes season 7 was dragged 100%!
