Samantha Blacklock
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Avelyn at 18 years old
🕑 Added 2022-02-04 12:39:15 +0000 UTCI got a comment on one of my posts on Reddit several months ago, saying something like "Am I the only one who hates that artists draw trans girls just like cis girls?" or something like that, and honestly I was well aware that Avelyn doesn't "look trans enough" (not that there is a particular look, some of us pass really well, others (like me) don't) I never considered that comment something negative, I didn't get mad or anything. I understood why they said it. I replied politely, but the person who made that comment probably felt a bit bad after reading my answer and they deleted their comment.
Since I started drawing Avelyn back in 2017, I had some questions about her looks.
At first she was going to have more tipically-masculine features, but, on the other hand I wanted her to have something many of us can't, because I just want to help someone the way I wished someone had helped me back when I was a teenager.
I know Avelyn is one of the lucky ones, but I can and want to give her that. I also want to write about other transgender women who started their transition later in life and who don't pass as well as her, because I'm one of them, and lately I've been really sad about it xD The problem is that I have a ton of depressing toughts about it and I don't want to write a lot of depressing things. I want to give hope, not tell everyone about how I lost mine. Maybe some day.
Anyway, just wanted to let you know that I want her to be happy and maybe I'm giving her a little too much, but that makes me happy, so she can be whatever she wants to be.
Also, recently I met a trans girl younger than me IRL and I'm really happy because I've been able to help her at least a bit. Not as much as I'd like to, because she lives in another state here in Mexico, but at least I've provided her with info and contacts and she started her transition a few months ago, and I'm so happy to see every little step she gives.
To be honest I hope we can meet in person soon, I've been always excited about doing someone else's makeup if they don't have experience, or lend them a dress or things like that. I even have a wig I bought just in case I find someone who needs it xD and, as I always say
Elizabeth is the person I wish I had met when I was younger, and Avelyn is the person I wish I could help now that I know a lot more things.
Comments
Samantha Blacklock
Awww, thank you! i've probably been a bit traumatized by a couple events a few years ago, months into my transition. I've discussed that with my therapist but of course it's really difficult to get past it u.u I usually come back once and again to that really bad experience and sometimes it really gets me, but I try my best to stay positive ^^ Thank you! <3
Samantha Blacklock
Thank you so much! ^w^ <3
LittleLilithPad
Cute drawings as always, I remember seeing the picture of you you posted awhile ago and idk to me you looked quite good and passing but I understand the inner feelings are hard to get past. I wish you nothing but love and I hope you can reach your ideal form ♥️
Atsuko Ito
It's really tough to see ourself in a mirror and feel dysphoric. Sending you all the hugs, Sam <3
