Samantha Blacklock
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But I swear... (Webtoon cover) [WIP + Update]
🕑 Added 2023-01-18 10:51:45 +0000 UTCHello! ^^
As some of you may know, I'll be posting my manga on Webtoon too, but the original cover I made didn't fit the suggested specs for Webtoon, so I'm making a new one that will easily fit there ^w^
I'll have more pages and another special drawing ready before the end of the month. I'm really sorry it took me so long to post something, but I didn't had a great end of 2022, was sick, and still working on a few commissions that were delayed too because december was just awful for me. Anyway, I have been feeling really motivated lately, eager to continue working on my projects, but I can't deny sometimes I feel really sad. The thing is, that while sometimes I have these dark, depressive thoughts, I am sure I'm not the only one, and sometimes I feel inspired to draw or write about them, use those negative emotions on creating something, but at the same time I fear that I could help someone else's depression get worse, or just give them a bad day. But who knows, maybe they'll feel less lonely, maybe it could help others express their own emotions and experiences.
I'd like to know your opinions, I want to make wholesome things that give hope and comfort, inevitably I'll have to talk about a few ugly things that are part of many trans people's lives, and I try not to be so pessimistic. I think most of you know that Avelyn was rejected and abused by her family, so she left, but she has a happy ending, and I want her to be happy as much as I want everyone else to be happy, but I'm also making another trans character she'll meet at some point, whose life is different from hers and has a very different outlook on life.
I'm making her because I feel I need to, because I want to, and while she's not here to turn the story into something awful and sad (I want her to have a closure and, while she'll probably not turn into a happy ray of sunshine, she'll at least feel more at peace with things) she'll definitely have very negative emotions, most characteristically envy and grief over her lost childhood/adolescence.
I'm not sure if that'd be okay. She'll be there and have her development, just don't know how much I should talk about her feelings, I don't feel uncomfortable writing her, but I worry, again, that she and her pessimism may have a negative impact on others, specially when they're just trying to read something wholesome ^^' I may make her own story in a different series so people who don't want to deal with these things can avoid them altogether (However Lynn will still be part of that)
Several months ago I made a similar question on Twitter and most people voted that I should talk about negative feelings too, but to this day I'm still a bit afraid of doing so, I'll eventually do, just don't know if I should make it more or less visible.
Thank you all for reading all of this ^^ I hope you're having a great day, and remember I love reading your comments! So please don't hesitate to express yourselves ^w^
![But I swear... (Webtoon cover) [WIP + Update]](https://img5.patrefans.com/storage/12/fy/lh/563145-019e8257-c00b-780a-9dc9-843517471d5f.png)
Comments
Dennis van Zuijlekom
This! ^
Clov
I think that reassurance that they'll be okay really helps! Too often people like us get given bad endings in media. But it's still important to express even your negative feelings, and not to sugarcoat the parts of life that are not so happy. It's your art, and you have to make it something that's true to you.
