metallover
patreon
Preview/Update 20/7/21
🕑 Added 2021-07-19 16:37:42 +0000 UTCMorning, all! I didn't forget, I just... have not been well for the last few days. Have a look at the next Self Insert chapter, which, I'm gonna be real, is more than likely gonna be late again.
So, you know those days where you just go to work, do the absolute bare basic level of involvement with existence and then go home and sleep for twelve straight hours because you just feel like fermented ass? That. That was me yesterday. I just cannot shake this cold, no matter what I do. I spent all of last week off work, staring at my laptop with a tissue jammed up my nose just going... 'blah'. I still feel like death warmed over. I'm starting to think that this may have progressed from a simple cold, but doctors piss me off, so I'm kinda up shit creek. I do have an appointment, though. Self care for the win, or whatever.
So, I've finally gotten the Dark draft back from Rice, which I'll be finalizing and uploading after I've finished this update. Then it's on to Canon Self Insert, which I've got all blocked out in my head, I just gotta... do it. And, if the amount of typos I have to keep going back to fix just in this update is any indication, is not gonna go well.
I haven't really done anything else for the last week, except alternately watch educational YouTube videos and lay in bed wishing for my suffering to end. I did splurge a little and pick up the '2021 General's Handbook' for Age of Sigmar, and I'm actually really glad I did; it's got all the rules in it, it's got a bunch of pitched battle profiles, and it's got all kinds of other neato thingies in there if, like me, you're only really into playing one-off games, rather than narrative or campaign games. I'm actually kinda surprised about the rules; really makes me regret shelling out for the new rule book. I've also tried to get some painting done, but even that's been hard. Trying to paint minis with the room spinning around you is fun for all of five minutes before it gets old. I did get some simple terrain stuff done, though, which is better than nothing.
I'm gonna be totally honest here. Over the last year, between being sick on and off, and the stress of now having to work full-time around actual people (day shifts suck, I hate my life, I miss my over-night shift so much), I'm burned way the fuck out. I was burned out six months ago, and Rice has been telling me for all that time to take a break. Now, I'm pretty sure I'm on the verge of a breakdown or something. So! Not here to peddle a sob story, I'm here to talk solutions. And that solution is basically what I've been doing. I'm gonna keep Patreon open, keep trying to get alternating Dark and Canon chapters done for now, and behind the scenes I'm going to be seeing a psychiatrist. Yup, we've graduated from piddly counsellors and psychologists, I've hit the big-boy mental health professionals. BIG-big, if the impact on my wallet is any indication (orz). We're gonna do up an action plan, which is abso-fucking-lutely going to involve continued regular updates here, and see what happens from there. So, if I'm not fishing for sympathy, why tell you all this? Because you pay me for my work, which I am under no illusions has not been suffering during this period, and as such I believe y'all are entitled to a reason. Plus, it's easier to say in text than in a v-log or something where I end up becoming a blubbery mess. And, to quote a great man, "there's nothing worst than watching a fuckin' fat man weep." XD
Alright, enough whining for another week. I have editing and writing to do! Actually, I'm gonna do up a new poll, too! Fuck it! I'm gonna do three polls! For stuff! Fuck yeah! Thanks for the continued support, and Nagaspeed!
