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Cuteness Won't Load (pre-release) 🎉
🕑 Added 2024-04-05 18:43:41 +0000 UTCA special access release to my supporters, thank you so much! This song will be out on Spotify on the 19th of this month!
LYRICS:
Just another insult of today
While I'm just trying to
Have fun and play
The internets like
A cyber jungle gym
Where you can still get
Pushed to the pavement
I’m-- trying to do me
But I feel like
I can’t fucking breathe
Been dealing with this
Since the 20 teens
But I can’t take it personally
Projected insecurities
A little color
And you’re not creative
A bit of sparkle
And you’re trying too hard
A drop of sweetness
And you’re called fake
But dare to be different
And you’re painted a mistake
“Your cuteness won’t load”
This saying's getting hella old
I’ve been in the game too long
And seen too many green toads
Words mean nothing to me
Wish you fair well
And recovery
Get well bitches
Jealousy’s a tough disease
Cuteness, your cuteness won't load
Cuteness, your cuteness won't load
Cuteness, your cuteness won't load
Cuteness, your cuteness won't load
Cry, kick, and scream
Behind your screens
Just let it all out
Sick darlings
Oh, it’s clear and simple, I see
You're angry at things
You wish you could be~
Loud and confident
And you're called conceited
Be more silent
And you're too deceiving
Show some skin
You're a scandalous sin
There's no way
You can even fucking win
“Your cuteness won’t load”
This saying is getting hella old
I’ve been in the game too long
And seen too many green toads
Words mean nothing to me
Wish you fair well
And recovery
Get well bitches
Jealousy’s a tough disease
Some background:
Since the 20 teens (i.e.; 2017), I've encountered insecure people for lack of a better word, despite maintaining a modest presence (i was pretty PG/too shy to even do anything remotely suggestive). I even had one obsessed person (a former peer I worked with in the past), that I wrote a song/about what she put me through (which I never released due to my old laptop breaking). Thankfully, Karma found her.
That all fizzled out and I focused on my growth, leading to a major breakthrough towards the end of 2019-2020 (several videos I made went viral). However, despite my efforts, I had little to no growth from late 2021-2023. I was starting to lose hope and considered starting over. However, a miracle happened towards the end of 2023; a cover I made went viral.
However, the success was bittersweet this time around: While the cover was well-received on my channel, it faced significant negativity when posted elsewhere. Especially on TikTok (and on re-uploaded YT shorts), attracting mass comments like "cuteness won't load", "post on reels babe <3" (a bait to get slaughtered, reels are far more toxic), "You have no talent. You can't sing/voice act", + more colorful words/death threats. Floods of these comments spread all across my TikTok videos; getting over 3k+ likes. They were, mainly from women, which was unsurprising given my past experiences. As a girls girl + a bisexual, it's disheartening to have been hated by those I wish to connect with the most. I've been wanting more females in my audience.
This overwhelming negativity/gaslighting pushed me to address these long-standing issues through my music and myself as an artist. I realized it doesn't matter what I do; if I'm completely PG, PG13, X rated--I'll still get hated. I'm no fool to this game; get well, bitches; jealousy is a tough disease. I'm fine now and way over all of this but i thought you would all like some exclusive BG, which will only be here <3 Maybe this time around, this song can make it's way towards other girls who resonate with this, too.
Comments
Nii Nari
Aa thank you!! ;;o;;
Nii Nari
Thank you so mnuch!! i'm glad you can resonate with my work
Connor (MegaGamin073) Fielder
This is such a banger. So excited for it to come out on Spotify so I can add it my playlists! I came to your Patreon for the music, and this just proves why.
Luna Yuki
Amazing song as always. I really love your content, it always makes me feel better when i'm feeling down. I'll always support you as much as i can. I believe that you'll accomplish whatever you're trying to accomplish. You're the best, nii
