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Demonic Mirror EP1 + Sex-Only-Edit!
🕑 Added 2021-05-31 18:39:51 +0000 UTCYup. Here it is.
Full Movie
LINK (MEGA, Copy/paste the key in the link after the "#" if it asks for a password)
(if the link above doesn't work, here's an alternate one: Link)
Sex-Scenes-Only-Edit
No talking inbetween, just raw, dirty sex :)
The demons' voice lines have been removed from this edit since those are disturbing the "fapability" for certain scenes.
In addition, the sex scenes have been rearranged: Instead of cutting to Ayane's scenes after Honoka get's licked at the very beginning, the edit starts with all the Honoka scenes, followed by Momiji enjoying the view to the lesbian scenes and ultimately ending the edit with all Ayane scenes.
Hope you enjoy it!
[Personal cathartic WoT incoming]
I am trying my best to convey my feelings towards all of this as precise as possible with the very limited english skills I have:
2020 was rough. I was dealing with hard anxiety every further week it took me to finish this project. I didn't want to disappoint everyone
qualitywise while simoultanously trying to not take forever to release something. I've had two voices constantly talking to me:
"This isn't good enough."
"You're taking too long."
Most of you didn't even gave me the feeling of not being good enough. It's quite the opposite.
But these voices.. they are pretty pushy. They weren't listening. They are deeply rooted.
I remember 2-3 people being pushy on me with the release of DM on twitter. I lashed out. I got crazy mad.
Because I saw them as embodiment of the the voices that I constantly tried to shut up.
It's like pushing one very sensitive button with a fucking jackhammer.
At the end January 2021, I've opened up the discord server. I've always told myself "Nah, discord servers are messy as fuck. I don't
want that".
Truth is I was afraid. Afraid of these possible embodiments flooding my server which I would have to deal with then.
One of you came up to me back then and suggested to create the discord server and that he would help me out when help is needed.
He is not a random guy to me, we had a lot of back and forth throughout the year. It really helped me facing my inner demon a little.
It was the little push I needed.
And what I can say? The more I've talked to you guys the more I felt less and less anxious.
Not only because you were super nice and appreciative but because I faced my inner beast with that action a little bit.
The rational part of me was like: "See? These voices are talking shit. There's nothing more to it."
I am aware this was only the first step to deal with this. The anxiety is deeply rooted to my past where I never felt good enough.
But this step was important and I can move forward from there.
As you can see this isn't just "porn" for me. I grew with this project on so many levels and I'm eternally grateful for that.
You cannot fathom how relieved I am to finally release this. What was supposed to be a short animation turned into a beast.
And I am gladly letting it out of the cage now.
Just to make one more thing clear: I don't want to create an echochamber by receiving praise only just because I am insecure about myself.
Please do critize me in a constructive way. It helps me out big time to improve!
Special thanks
I am super proud of anyone who worked on this, everyone did give their best to make an outstanding job. It was a bliss
to work with these lovely people:
SilkyMilk as Momiji
PixieWillow as Ayane
LeoGreystone as Cop and Demons
LewdZaxk as Sherif
MissMoonified as Honoka
And the guy who did put the absolute most effort into it all (besides myself :P):
Alienaudiofx.
He was working non-stop on my movie while dealing with a lot of personal shit while still managing to pay attention to all
these little details that really make the difference for a professional sound design. He even offered himself to make the OST
for the movie without charging me extra money for it. He just did it because he wanted it to be good.
My words aren't enough to show my appreciation towards him. And I am sure the sound will speak for itself.
And last but not least: Thank you so so so much for all of you who sticked with me throughout the year and kept being awesome <3
Without your support, this wouldn't have happened.
Thank you so so much <3
