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🕑 Added 2020-11-16 15:37:49 +0000 UTCHmm I'm not really sure if there's anything tying this week's comics together. I don't think it's really necessary to have a theme for every week since my comics are mostly standalone but idk sometimes it's nice haha :>
Anyway I've been thinking a lot about strength lately and what that really means and if it means anything at all. Maybe it's not that deep ('it's not that deep' me @ me 100% of the time hahaha) and it's just something we tell ourselves to feel better.
And I don't mean that in a bad way either. Like, it's nice to think nice things about yourself. I think of myself as being strong because I'm resilient and I've overcome difficult things, but doesn't that imply that people who don't overcome hardship aren't strong? I don't think that's true... Especially because hardship is an impossible criteria... Everyone suffers. Everyone has to overcome something, even if it's just smiling during a bad day. I dunno... Maybe I'm not thinking about it in the right way.
I think to understand strength I have to understand weakness... And what constitutes weakness to me won't be the same as for other people so even that feels a bit futile idk... Talking about weakness can be weird and not good because I think a lot of the things that we'd think of as weak are pretty ableist.
For example, I think of being weak-willed and lacking determination as a weakness, but that's also a major symptom of depression to name just one thing. You never know what someone else is going through, what looks weak to you might not be weak at all. People fight invisible battles every day.
Anyway all of this is just me thinking out loud haha. I think I've got such a bug in my butt about it because thinking of myself as 'strong' is a core part of my identity as a person. I tell myself that no-matter how much I'm struggling, I will eventually find my way through because I know I'm strong. But maybe that doesn't mean anything after all. I dunno lmao I think this is a question for philosophers and not this humble comic artist ;)
Anyway god sorry for rambling haha. I think the self-care comic is pretty self-explanatory. As for Chrysalis, this is kind of about my 2018 mental breakdown where I ghosted all my friends for 3 months lol but it's also meant to be a bit of a cautionary tale I guess? Maybe? Like yeah you can shut yourself off from the world and only take care of your own needs but people will eventually move on without you. I was fortunate that most of my closest friends were still there for me on the other side but a few of them absolutely weren't and I still carry that weight around in a big way. I don't really regret what I did because I think it was necessary for me at the time but I do wish I'd handled it better?
Anyway I think I just wanna draw a big cosy chrysalis and that's really what this is about LOL
And that's gonna be it for this week's comics! I might not be able to fit Self Care into one comic so maybe it'll end up being two pages instsead of one? We'll see!
