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I wish I could be better, I'm trying.
🕑 Added 2025-09-01 22:22:00 +0000 UTCI wish I could be better. For myself, for you.
But I'm just not as good as I'd like to be. I liked to think that there was something more inside that I could show through my art, something unique and magical, like many great artists whose work I see every day. But I'm just jumping like a child, imitating and trying to reach the top. Sometimes it happens to touch by accident. But then I fall into my dark thicket full of thorny thorns. And I look up, thinking how great it would be to have wings on which I could carry something beautiful.
But the reality for me is a constant thorny path, it's difficult, it hurts. And sometimes I don't understand why I'm moving on.
But I can't help but go, art is a part of me, I was born in this forest.
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Once again, I really want to apologize for my absence for the past month. It's an awfully long time. I have seen a lot of your support and emails during this time, and I am incredibly grateful to each of you.
I was faced with a very strong emotional burnout and I still feel terrible. I tried to find the strength to at least respond to those who wrote to me, but I can't find the strength even for such lines, and I'm terribly ashamed of this, and I don't want you to think that I'm ignoring you.
I've been trying to relax for a couple of weeks, go somewhere, meet someone, do something abstract. But nothing helps. I still feel the same way. With terrible fatigue, drowsiness, apathy, depressive feelings and lack of interest in everything around.
I've been preparing for over a week to draw this picture and write this post. I'm trying my best to come back. And every new day without art makes me feel even worse. And the strength to move on has not returned.
I'm still trying, I'm really sorry. I wish I could be better.
Comments
Grayson Soldahl
Have you heard of the Chapel of Sacred Mirrors? They are spiritual artists who connect all kinds of people, especially artists, with their wings. I recommend them, and at the least, Alex Grey’s art is sure to inspire a wandering artist towards the light of many divine spirits. I hope your journey finds a clearing soon.
MK0015
Your're awesome Boni. Always. We are here for you ! ❤️
Ben143
Your art and your characters are so beautiful Boni. I hope you feel better.
