ASMRCham
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My YouTube account has been terminated.
🕑 Added 2025-08-02 04:03:16 +0000 UTCI’d like to write down my thoughts, just to calm my heart.
Through YouTube, I learned so many things.
At the beginning, I had very low self-esteem. I lacked confidence, and honestly, I hated how clumsy I was.
I didn’t feel like I had any talents.
But there was one thing I truly loved: listening to ASMR.
One day, I felt like trying to record some sounds myself. So I posted something on YouTube, almost on a whim…
And when I saw people resonate with that world of sound, I was deeply moved — I still remember that feeling vividly.
At first, I didn’t speak at all.
But then someone requested I whisper, and that gave me the courage to try saying just “Hello” in a whisper… haha.
After that, people said things like “I love your voice!” and “Please talk more!”
Even though I only whispered “Hello” for a long time, everyone kept encouraging me patiently and helped me gain confidence.
I used to get so nervous that I’d shake while recording.
I never smiled in my videos, and viewers would kindly tease me about it — haha.
I was so focused on capturing the sounds that I had no room left to smile. haha
If you’ve only recently discovered me, you might be shocked if you saw the old me — I was nothing like how I am now.
Even the fact that I started showing my lips was because of my viewers.
It wasn’t just my ASMR — everyone helped shape who “Cham” is today.
That’s how the current “ASMR Cham” style came to be.
And that’s why losing my YouTube channel this time…
feels like everything I built has started to crumble. My heart just can’t keep up.
Being able to smile and speak so openly in front of the camera now —
that’s all thanks to everyone who gave me confidence and helped me grow.
Before I knew it, over 600,000 people were listening to my work.
But…
I lost the channel we built together.
Even though I knew the chances were low, I found myself dreaming that maybe — just maybe — we could reach one million together.
I really wanted that Gold Play Button, for everyone who supported me.
But I never imagined that seven years of effort on YouTube would end so suddenly like this.
My precious space… is gone.
And yet, as I write this, little by little, I feel myself calming down.
There’s still so much more I want to say,
but for today, I’ll end it here.
Thank you for staying with me through this emotional journey.
【YouTubeアカウントが削除されました。】
心を落ち着かせるために、想いを綴らせてください。
YouTubeを通して、私は多くのことを学びました。
当初はとっても自己肯定感が低くて、自信がなくて、不器用すぎる自分が嫌いでした。
得意なことも何もなくて。
でも、唯一好きだったのが、ASMRを聴くことでした。なんとなく自分でも音を録音してみたくなって、なんとなくYouTubeに投稿してみたら…
その音の世界に共感してくれる人がいて、とても感動したのを今でも覚えています。
最初は、喋ることはしていませんでした。
でも、「囁きのリクエスト」をいただいたのがきっかけで、恐る恐る「こんにちは」だけ囁くようになって…笑
それでも「声好き！」「もっと喋って！」とたくさん褒めてもらって、
しばらくは「こんにちは」だけだった私に、みんなが根気強く自信をつけさせてくれました。
緊張しやすくて、震えながら動画を撮っていた頃。
笑顔が一切ない私に、視聴者さんが優しくツッコミを入れてくれていましたね 笑
音を録ることに真剣になりすぎて、笑う余裕がなかったんです 笑
最近知ってくれた人が過去の私を見ると、今と違いすぎてびっくりするかもしれません。
唇を見せるようになったのも、視聴者さんがきっかけでした。
ASMRだけじゃなく、みんながChamという存在を育ててくれたんです。
そして、今のASMR Chamのスタイルができあがりました。
だからこそ、今回のYouTube削除は、築き上げてきたものが崩れていくようで、心が追いついていません...
今のように、カメラの前で笑顔でたくさん喋れるようになったのは、みんなが自信をくれて、育ててくれたから。
気づけば、60万人以上の人が聴いてくれるようになっていました。
でも...
そんなみんなで築き上げたチャンネルを、私は失いました。
可能性は低いとは分かっていても、みんなとなら100万人いけるのではないかと夢見てしまいました。応援してくれている人のためにも、どうしても金の盾が欲しかったんです。
でも、こんな形で
7年間のYouTubeでの挑戦が突然終わりを迎えるとは思ってもいませんでした。
私の大切な場所が...なくなってしまいました。
でも、こうして書いていたら、少しずつ少しずつ気持ちが落ち着いてきました。
まだまだ書きたいことはあるけれど、今日は一旦ここで終わりにします。
私の心の整理に、ここまで付き合ってくださりありがとうございます。
Cham
Comments
Rezing
That's so shocking and unbelieveable.....I've got used to sleeping with Cham's latest video since my senior school.....That must be banned by mistake and I sincerely hope Cham's YouTube channel could be back......
Sakthidharran Rajkumar
You are by far my favorite asmr creator, it is extremely disappointing that YouTube would do such a thing. I hope you feel better soon and this gets resolved.
大 熊
昨日寝る前に、Chamちゃんのチャンネルが見つからなくてびっくりしちゃったの…！QAQ 何もなければいいなって思ってるよ〜 わたしは台湾からのちっちゃなリスナーです♪ Chamちゃん、がんばってねっ！！焦らなくて大丈夫だよ〜✨
El Timõ
Didn't find your videos in my history anymore. Went to reddit cause there's a thread for everything. Found out what happened, created a patreon account. Now I'm here. Hope you're doing well regardless of that loss
Nova Sivart Hale
Noticed my YouTube recommended didn't have ASMR on it anymore, so I went to Twitter to find out what happened. Can't believe YouTube terminated Cham when there's way more obscene creators out there. Where are we supposed to get our TK TK TK supply from now?
DJ
This is terrible news 💔 I'm a new fan and only been watching for a couple of months but you and your channel are my favorite!! I don't understand why YouTube would do this, but I will continue supporting you here or whichever platform you decide to post content on. Your work is amazing and I'm sure you'll thrive wherever you go, so please keep your chin up Cham! We love you!!❤️❤️❤️
Vachiom
This is absolutely heartbreaking! :( You very quickly became my favorite ASMR creator when I found your channel years ago, and one of very few channels I turned on notifications for. The effort and care you put into not just your videos, but also posts like these (multiple languages!), has always come through and shown just how much you love creating and the community you've built here. It's so sad that YouTube just removed it all like that. I might not comment much, but I'll continue to support you on whatever platform(s) you create on! ❤️
Zerox62
I have been watching Cham since around 2019 if I recall well ,her ASMR relaxed me countless time ..I have watched most of her videos throughout the years and if I’m 100% she is the sweetest and most innocent people on the ASMR side of YouTube ..Shaming other YouTubers isn’t my goal but it makes me ANGRY when I see Chamcham channels being deleted while lewd YouTubers continue to thrive ..Anyway I support with all my heart Cham-san ,I think it’s fair that she don’t want to start a new channel but I must say the hard truth ,the future of this channel can’t be on Patreon .Like someone said earlier here ,I think YouTube is overwhelmed and strike anybody for anything ..I urge Cham to take actions to recover her channel as quickly as possible because THE WAR ISNT DONE YET..The sole fact we might loose those last 6/7 years of precious Cham content makes me angry and sad ..and the fact I might miss the future content because Patreon isn’t an app I go often arrange nothing . Cham we are proud of you ,don’t abandon YouTube so quickly yiu might miss a key element to recover the channel Lots of love (marry me please) -Zerox from France
Nadhir Nadzlee
https://www.reddit.com/r/asmr/s/23RWAsAxp1 Please read this. I just saw this and I hope it helps
ち い
大変心が痛みます．メンバーシップに加入し，ほぼ毎日睡眠のお供に聞いていたのでチャンネルがBanされたとお聞きしてとても辛く悲しい気持ちになりました． チャンネルメンバーシップが停止されたので，今まで加入意欲はあったものの加入していなかったPatreonのメンバーシップに加入しました． 限定動画や投稿などを見て落ち着こうと思います． Chamさんも心が落ち着くまで美味しいもの食べてたくさん休んでください． またChamさんのASMRが聴けることを心待ちにしております．
