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About the comic ... (Long post)
🕑 Added 2025-04-28 17:12:44 +0000 UTCOkay, guys, first of all, I want to thank you for all the support you've given me. It means a lot to me.
I recently went through a bout of depression and anxiety caused by stress and other factors that have left my mental health unbalanced. Fortunately, I've been to therapy and I feel better.
Regarding the comic, I feel like I've reached a point where I no longer have a story to tell, just pointless porn panels, and I feel like that's not what it's about. The point of comics is to tell a story, or at least to immerse the reader, and I feel like that's not happening here.
I understand and greatly appreciate the positive comments you've left, but at the same time, I try to view my current comic with a critical eye. Comparing it to the one I made a few years ago, I feel like it's a step backwards. It's bland, the story isn't very immersive or entertaining, the dialogue is very bad, repetitive and cringey, and like I said, I feel like at this point, it's just random porn shots.
Despite having planned it beforehand and written a script, I feel like my lack of experience making comics played a trick on me, and I underestimated both the amount of work and what I could accomplish. This, combined with my tendency to push myself too hard, has caused me a lot of stress and frustration, especially because I feel like I've failed you and myself. However, it's important to accept when a project doesn't turn out the way you want it to, specially if it's taking a toll on you.
Even so, I don't want to cancel the comic suddenly. I'm thinking of a creative way to finish it in a funny and entertaining way with a couple more pages, at least so it doesn't end on a sour note.
All of this doesn't mean I won't make more comics anymore; however, it has served as experience to rethink how I will do similar projects in the future. I'm still trying to find a way of making comics that I feel comfortable with, that I can deliver something of quality in every way, and, above all, that I can have fun with and not get frustrated with. Some people have suggested small mini-comics, 4- or 5-page stories about a particular situation, I should try that, I'm open to suggestions and ideas.
That's also why I'm taking a break next month. I won't be doing the content poll, but instead I'll be working on the BeatBanger mod, which I'm sure you will like, even the ones who don't play the game. After all, there will be at least 10 animated loops, several illustrations, and a mod you can play if you have the game.
That was a lot of text, my apologies. Thanks again, so much for all your support. I hope you can understand, and I'm truly sorry if I disappointed you; that wasn't my intention.
Anyways, have a great day, guys 😸
Comments
Davide Amadori
Hope you will recover inspiration for a filling the tank part 2, that was awesome and had great potential. Have a nice time!
llMiXll
Thank you! I'll come back reloaded haha 🫂
llMiXll
Thank you so much for all the support :') 🫂
Pochon
Always take care of yourself Michi. :3 get plenty of rest in you must. I know you will bounce back.
TJab
We're here to support you and your art Michi! Some experiments don't turn out the way we want, and that's okay, that's why they're experiments. I'm glad that you value yourself as a creator that instead of pushing out something you aren't happy with, you're stopping and rethinking how you want to do it. It's a great thing, really, and I look forward to the BB mod next month!
