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"Am I an artist?" Take 2
🕑 Added 2021-03-13 02:44:31 +0000 UTCDarnit, I had some art WIPs I was gonna put up first, but here we are...
I wasn't sure on sharing this, even tho it's my second attempt at an unscripted recording trying to ask myself (big/deep) questions. But what better place to just throw things out but here?! It's part of why I made a Patreon, to show those "behind the scenes" things more. Trying to figure this out, see if it's something I may do more.
The first recording I did was a couple weeks ago, and it was over an hour! That time I noticed I made a lot of pauses, probably because of thinking on the spot, but I also end up on "tangents" a lot. I often consider what more is connected to whatever I'm talking about, sometimes that ends up being more of a distraction. There's still of that here, could still be more concise.
I started doing this with part intention to begin sharing Q&As recorded like this, just voice, to try and preserve some of the voiced answers I've given over the years, or to just go a bit deeper into some of the stuff I think about (when painting), or my perspective, views, etc. I had to start somewhere, and of course I chose the loaded "Am I an Artist" to begin with haha. But I hope this is of some interest.
It's also because my streams and what I talked about during those, get lost in time (or deletion), and this would be a way to keep these answers around better and make them more accessible. I do miss my streams... I haven't felt capable of doing them yet, and listening to my last one I can hear the pain (headache) that was happening and caused me to stop for a bit. Days turned into weeks, into months.
PS: These last weeks have been different, all weeks this year kinda have. But I'm becoming very conscious about how much time is passing and how fast and I've yet to make a lot of replies I've been wanting to make weeks ago! It's been rough just trying to think of what to say, and sadly it ends up with with my thoughts just freezing up.
