James_D_Fawkes
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CiP Tyranny 6.7 (Full) (Open)
🕑 Added 2018-11-02 05:27:09 +0000 UTC Right. Since this is kicking my ass so bad, like a lot of this arc has been (to my, and I imagine, your, frustration), I'm gonna open this up to all of you, here.Here.
At this point, it's just shy of 8k. I'm not sure I can finish it before hitting 10k. The fight itself, I have a pretty good idea of how and where I want it to go, but it feels like it just won't come out of my fingers - so to speak. It's like pulling teeth.
Part of that, I think, comes down to this negative feedback loop that's going on, here. I'm taking longer, these days, to get stuff written, so some of you are leaving and have stopped pledging - which, to be fair, is not entirely down to problems with me and sometimes has to do with people's income situation changing, but it doesn't help either way - which makes me feel shitty and incompetent, and that saps some of my drive, which makes me slow down even more...
With you guys and your support, I was getting by with almost $600 a month, at the beginning of this year. Not the best, but it was enough support for me to be comfortable and afford a few luxuries - like that drawing tablet that is so incredibly awesome - while also being able make the payments on my college loans each month. Now, we're back down to less than $400. The exact amount will fluctuate until Patreon has finished processing pledges. Most of those people who left listed the reason as a change in their financial situation, and whether that's true or just a way of sparing my feelings, I don't know, and I'm not sure I want to, because it might just make things worse.
To be even more fair, no, it doesn't come entirely down to that. Arc 6 has just been troubled from the beginning, and I wanted to be done with it before the end of summer, and it's already well into autumn and coming up on winter, so I'm way behind.
The most frustrating part of all is that 6.8 and onward is where it should pick up, again. I might stumble a bit when it comes time for the Leviathan battle, but everything leading up to it should just flow.
But until then, I'm stuck trying to finish this fight, which is ballooning past all of my expectations. And here we are. Me, starting to want less and less to do with this story, and you guys, starting to want less and less to do with me, because I'm slowing down so badly. Stuck in a negative feedback loop.
