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{ space tier+ } general update 02.25.25
🕑 Added 2025-02-26 04:07:18 +0000 UTCheyo! hope you all have been well.
apologies for this month having been quiet from me! february's been a rather packed one, more so than usual for a Variety of reasons. between getting a lot of feedback on The Project(tm) behind the scenes, some shit flaring up in my personal life that i needed to sort out, and also a bit of struggling with what to do next and also being occupied with some new developments related to future things i want to cover, it's been one of those periods where i have been doing a lot and not just fucking around, but i don't have anything to show for it, unfortunately.
i think the main thing i want to mention is, since january was spent entirely on me working on The Project(tm), i wanted february to be spent more so on working on main channel stuff. i even worked on a special drawing for valentines day, which i'm still very happy with! but i also had tried to get started on a new video, that being one of the much shorter "minor" videos i had planned.
...and then, i decided to scrap it before i even got that far into the script.
so, to at least mend that, i'll tell you all what it was!
i was going to work on a new DELTARUNE video about The Knight! or, at least, that's one of the things this video would cover. it was some mix of a theory/analysis video of a much shorter sort, but also a response video to the feedback/perception to TDT and kind of a rant video about an approach to theorizing that i had been peeved about for a while; that being, writing off an interpretation because, "i think it would be Bad Writing if toby/whoever did this". at the end of it, i did genuinely want it to have A Take about the knight and who or what i think it could be, but i also wanted it to be a way to air out my frustration with people putting wayyy too much stock into their interpretations of a story that already has been decided, and calling into question just, what the fuck Bad Writing even means in the first place (what that means to me is not the same thing as what it means to you, etc). it was a really kinda chaotic ball of Thoughts that had been building up for the past few months, and there's more to it than even that, but at the end of the day, i wanted it to be this last thing to put out before the new chapters, and to tie up a thing i rarely ever mentioned in TDT itself.
that might sound pretty cool to you! and i thought it was a rather promising idea myself. so, why did i do away with it, you may be wondering?
there's a few reasons, so i'll go point by point:
1. Chapters 3 & 4 have turned out to be much Closer to release than even i thought. like, as i'm writing this, they are testing the PS5 version of the game, which seems to be the last version they need to test before it's like. READY ready. and while i do think that technically i could make this video before they come out, i had to do the math in my head just week-by-week, and it's becoming very clear that the likely scenario is i'd finish the video, and then not even a few weeks later, i would have to prepare for the new chapters to come out, and that's a generous estimate at that. it's clear that if this video had a time to happen, it had already passed, and i'd rather just save my deltarune vid energy for analyzing the new chapters.
2. ...it also became clear that in trying to write a more concise video, while i don't hate the intro to the script i made, i think i'm still trying to get a good hang of my narrative voice when i condense it to a much smaller size. brevity is very much a learned skill for me, and its hard to take out the "fat" in a script, the stuff that isn't Essential, without it basically just sounding...not like me. i think part of my own character in my scripts is my tendency to not shut the fuck up, and i need to find a way to incorporate that in a smaller size so that it doesnt feel lacking in the personality i'm used to these videos having. i don't hate what i wrote, but it felt off, is my point. my motivation to make it just wasn't quite all there, and i could tell.
and 3...i also just kind of don't care as much anymore about the topic(s) in the video. as much as i think it's a perspective that's worth sharing, i don't feel like i want to get into arguments with people or talk about The Knight of all things when, again, the new chapters are right around the corner and it doesn't really affect me personally all that much beyond some of it just striking a specific chord in me that could also be just written out as "i don't like people assuming my character because of the length of my videos when i clearly stressed that i wasn't ride or die about my interpretations-- rather just passionate to get them out of my head-- and to say a narrative can't be confident if it leaves stuff obscured/hidden in small details, is incredibly heavy handed". and as i said in the update video, i want to focus more on either music or Personal Project stuff this year, and if i feel like making this thing is gonna exhaust me more than it will help, i'd rather spend these next few weeks just doing the stuff that i already said would be my priority until further notice.
i always hate leaving an idea out like this, but it seems just easier on my mind to move on to something else that i know i'm more Consistently invested in, and also save up my energy for something that i know for a fact is going to be a lot more fun and in my wheelhouse once it's ready. i had initially planned for this year under the assumption that the new chapters would be out closer to may or june, but to see it could be ready as early as like...beginning of april/mid-late march ??? yeah, it kind of doesnt leave a lot of room to work on anything else before then, unfortunately!
there isn't much more to say here other than that! i'm just giving myself time to sort out some personal things, and upon realizing how close the next major video i'll have to make actually is, i'm just choosing to plan for that next instead of working on any other videos. i might do more project work until then, i may also hopefully just lock the fuck in on music until then. and, because of another major video topic having some huge development this month, i'm starting to also get some...new ideas, let's say, for what i should do this year. :)
either way, i'm letting this month be a time for me to shift my productivity elsewhere, as i knew i wanted to do so anyway. above all else, this is to say i haven't been doing nothing, and i'm alive and okay! i just really hope to have more to show for it soon <3
as always, thank you all for your support/patience. i really wanted this to be a more consistent start to the year, but these were the sorts of unknown factors i was also prepared to have pop up eventually. may as well get them out of the way now, and not later in the year, i suppose!
take care of urselves, and till then ^^
Comments
Noelle Holidgay (Fern Leaves)
whilst i was interested in that title specifically from your update video with all the mostly covered up titles, i am also glad you're doing what you think is best for you, and i can't wait to see more teasers for the personal project in comet tier posts
