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{ space tier+ } general update 11.14.24
🕑 Added 2024-11-15 00:27:35 +0000 UTChey!
i apologize for the radio silence this past month (outside of having done a few streams), particularly for y'all in space/star tier; i've been feeling like doing a new general update post to at least let y'all know how i'm doing and what i've been up to.
i currently am still somewhat on break from doing any new youtube videos. it's been a...particularly wild couple of months since Part 3's release, admittedly. i definitely feel like i've gotten quite a bit of rest since its release, but at the same time, it has honestly been kind of difficult to get my head back into the youtube workflow for a Variety for reasons.
to start, all of my focus currently has pretty much shifted to working on a personal project that i wasn't able to do for most of this year because of Part 3's production demanding my full attention. with it done, and with me having had to stop working on said project in February, i more or less have this sense like i need to play catch-up to make sure i can get as much done as possible for it before the new year.
that's not to say i have no plans/motivation for more youtube stuff- i absolutely do!- but when you spend just about 2 thirds of a year working on one video, with barely any time spent on the Other big thing that i've had cooking before even that, it's hard to imagine why i would want to hold off on that for any longer now that the One Video isn't in the picture anymore. however, with me making much much more progress on this project in the past few months alone, i am feeling a little more comfortable with at least getting back into writing some new scripts soon, if the pace of this project keeps steady as it is within the rest of this month/year.
however, aside from this other project now having my full attention, there's also just the matter of a lot of things on the IRL end being a bit busy. i don't even have to mention the Global Circumstances that we have found ourselves in recently that have weighed on me quite a bit, but beyond that, i've gone out of state a few times to see some of my People, and yet simultaneously, i've just been dealing with a lot of exhaustion emotionally/mentally, which at worst, has made me crash pretty damn hard particularly in this last month or so on occasion; it's not a state that i feel comfortable to even stream in, let alone make videos as Myself in. this isn't a pity party though, people have their depressions and their lower points, and i just happen to be (HOPEFULLY) climbing out of one of them, after a wild series of ups and downs that have occurred since Part 3's release. it's been a bit of a journey, but it's resulted in me focusing again on reinforcing my comfort zone, and getting better at tuning out what i have to and just focusing on what i'm actually in control of. if i have the energy to write this post for you all, then i can tell you with confidence that i am certainly doing better now and hoping to keep on the up and up, despite whatever circumstances are Ongoing, and regardless of scale.
aside from that though, i am also just drawing a bit more lately, and i'm hoping to push commissions a bit more on the side while i do my thing w/ this personal project that i speak of!
i have a lot more that i could say about how i've been doing, and where my head's been at, but i do think i'll be saving it for a bit later, since the end of the year is starting to approach, and i think if i do get back to writing scripts, there's a good chance my first script will be for writing a proper update video for the end of 2024, going into 2025. i'm not sure yet whether it'll be uploaded to the main channel, or the side one, but that is something that's been on my mind, and especially as of recent, i think i probably do need something to just thought-dump into before i go back to "business as usual" with youtube.
it's looking like i'll...probably come back with smaller DELTARUNE videos to start, but i may also start working proper on a follow-up to the Staggering Winds video. i think what i'm going to do, is just write multiple scripts, and once i have more than a few, i can just pick one at a time to make a full video out of, depending on what interests me the most. there's also the fact that i am now Absolutely going to be making another bigger DR video in 2025 since toby has now said for certain that's when 3&4 are coming out, but it's hard to say when that's gonna be worth planning for, it could be in the first few months, or in the summer for all we know.
as for when i'll tackle another Bigger video of something that isn't DR...we'll see. i have no idea yet if i'll even do something of that sort in 2025, but there are a few ideas of that caliber that i def would have a lot of motivation to do whenever i feel ready to tackle them. i think it all really just depends on how things go with the personal project, and if i can keep a better balance of everything. it's weird to say but, up to this point i haven't really Existed creatively in a "normal" state on youtube, because TDT was such a large-scale series. and honestly, both for financial reasons but also out of sheer curiosity, i want to know what a mostly "normal" year for my channel looks like. one where i don't overwhelm myself with 6 hour long videos, maybe like 1-2 hours at most or on a rare occasion, but uploading more frequently as a trade-off. my only real hope for 2025, is to try to upload a bit more consistently/frequently to the main channel, even if that means the scope isn't as big as something like TDT was. i can't imagine im gonna have a video for every month of the year, but i'll certainly try to get as close to that if i can help it. it's probably just bc the more experimental/intense energy is more focused on the personal project, but, that's about where i'm at for now, i want to see if i can dial it back and keep it comfortable and steady on the youtube end of things. still going hard as shit on improving my technique n everything, but not TDT levels of crazy, y'know?
i'm debating also doing a poll on here in the future to see what people would be most interested in, but i'm usually driven away from those because i don't want the pressure of "The People Demand This" to influence my workflow and make me more anxious rather than excited to do a thing. but, we'll see! i'm definitely a bit less lost now than i was in, say, September, or even October, but i'm looking at the end of this year, and going into the new one with an aim to be more focused on my work/"branding" overall rather than dedicating absolutely everything to just one video like i did this year. if all goes well, i should be able to have a lot more proof that what i'm doing really has some longevity to it. the more i do this, the more i feel certain that i'm not gonna be stopping any time soon, or doubting my chances of it "working out".
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i think that's all i have to say in regards to myself. tl;dr, i'm doing better now overall, i've been locked in on something that isn't specifically related to the mollystars Label, and i'm more so looking at my plans for next year at this point. update video soon(?), and i'll likely be coming back with some smaller (or at most Average) bangers before i tackle any bigger ones again. things seem to be kinda scary in some regard out there, but if anything, that's made me only more motivated than i already was to keep doing what i'm doing. ideally, i'll still be locked in on said personal project, but also will have time to work on new videos, and have a more steady output for a while.
thank you all for sticking around so far, especially after the release of Part 3. i hope y'all have been genuinely taking care of yourselves, and trying to do what you want to the most.
and, while i'm excited to get back to videos and to even better improve my Presence, i'm just as, if not even more excited, to eventually show you all what i've been up to on the personal end...however, that won't be very soon, not quite yet. but i can feel that window ever so slightly starting to open...
...let's just see how things go from here.
take care! more to come soon. =v=
