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{ space tier+ } general update 12.19.25
🕑 Added 2025-12-19 22:10:15 +0000 UTChello once again! as always, i hope you are all doing well.
i wanna first say, thank you all for supporting me despite the lower volume on my part, it really means a lot. i just recently realized it's been a hot minute since i've made a more general update post on here, and i think that's in no small part because A Lot has happened in my life these past few months.
since i left off on the last one, one of my partners has now moved in with me, and it's been 3 months of getting ourselves settled, gathering the tools/materials needed for both of us to start working on our things again, and most of all getting used to consistently sharing a space with another person in such a way that i'm at least pretty new to. it's safe to say that aside from brainstorming for my projects and working on some music and commissions, most of my focus has really just been on re-acquainting myself IRL. there's a lot i feel like i'm re-learning, but none of it i regret, frankly! for that, i now have someone i'm working alongside with, and i think that will make working on things much easier for both myself and my Person.
but, that's not the only thing working in favor of that! for this month especially, i had a little project i've spent a few weeks doing, that being: upgrading to a whole ass new computer!
after a few weeks straight of assembling the case, leaving a chasm where my bank account once was (i'm not in the negatives dw), putting an entire build's worth of new parts together, and carrying over EVERYTHING i could think of...i am now working entirely from a new PC. the monitor(s)/peripheral setup has not changed much, but if i did everything right, i should have essentially future-proofed myself and my ability to make things for a very very long time. i sure as fuck will not be needing a new case any time soon lmao ^^;; (it's so big they let you install wheels on the bottom of it ... it's so fucking cool)
i think it goes without saying that i am incredibly happy with this change. while it was a VERY expensive change, it's one that i knew was coming sooner or later, especially for some of the more demanding things i'd like to do for my work in the near future, and that future is looking...nearer than ever, with where my head is at right now.
it's not to say that this journey was without its bumps, though. for one thing, the new hard drive i ordered ended up getting damaged in transit, because i am unable to allocate its space to my PC, and aside from my computer recognizing it Somewhat, it seems completely unusable/unable to be initialized. in other words, i think it died on arrival, unfortunately :( thankfully it seems to be covered by the warranty, and once i get it shipped back to the manufacturer, i should be getting a free replacement.
the other thing, is that i didn't initially want to stick with windows 10 for the OS, but...it seems like my motherboard was too good for linux, apparently! i went through like 6 different distros and none of them were able to install properly, and it seems like an issue with the linux kernel panicking and being unstable on my model of motherboard, unfortunately; which means that at best, i may just have to wait until the kernel is updated a good bit. at least i can work around this hopefully by just running linux distros in VMs (and hey, that might even be preferable to just installing it on a completely blank PC, who knows), and given how familiar i am with windows now, i've been able to overhaul the fuck out of it with a few Special Tools:tm:, as you can see in a few of the images =v=
aside from all of those things, this computer looks like it's running very well. i'll wanna give it some time of course to see how it does long-term, see what issues may pop up, but if i did everything right, and i take good care of this thing, i should be set for a very very long time. i've wanted to build my own PC from scratch for Years, and while it was quite an expensive journey, this is part of why i even have things like this patreon and commissions to begin with: it's a lot, but it's all in service of being able to make even better things for you all, HOPEFULLY more frequently as well! i don't see myself needing to make a series of purchases this big for a long time, and i should be finally able to get the ball rolling again proper with this all sorted out.
this really would not have been so possible without the support from you all, and i just hope what i make with what i have at my disposal now will reflect how grateful i am for it. as we're nearing the end of this year, where i'd usually be thinking of making some kinda update video or smth more elaborate, i'm honestly just more wiped out than anything. a lot has been changing in how i want to present myself and approach things, as i've mentioned before, but i'm kind of at the point now where i just wanna lay low and make things for a while? not like i haven't been doing that, but i'm finally out of this awkward transitional period that i found myself in for this last third of the year or so, and there is too much in my head to feel like sitting down for much longer to think about it!!!!
if Anything, gimme a bit to enjoy the holidays and get used to the new parts, and i'm gonna be back on the saddle before you know it. just about all my current project ideas feel refined enough for me to start really biting at them, and i am frankly extremely itchy to do so after weeks of only being able to focus on switching computers. once i sort out a few other things, i'd like to also make a general blog post on my site + update on a community post about my recent Happenings, and from there, it'll be back to keeping my head low and getting the engines fully revved up again.
there's not much more to say, aside from that! my project brainstorming has been going very well, ideas have been coming to me more and more frequently, and now i feel more confident in my projects than ever, as well as my ability to make said projects. it wasn't without its bumps, but i think it was very much worth it. this year didn't turn out how i'd expected it to, but it has resulted in me feeling like much more of a person, and sometimes you need a hot minute to keep the curtains closed and do a lot of maintenance and upkeep before you can go guns blazing again creatively.
there's a lot in store, and i want to do my absolute best to hold true to that despite the Everything that may be going on in the bigger picture. i'll have to probably play it safer for a bit to catch myself up financially, but for the very most part, i'm ready to do just about everything at once that i wanna do again, and there's nothing else i'd rather be doing.
we'll see what the new year makes of that, once it comes by. either way, more to come soon! take care of urselves, love yall <3 and thank you again for your patience. things are officially smoothed out, as far as i can tell. let's hope it stays that way for a while.
