Merlina
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🕑 Added 2024-01-02 02:32:42 +0000 UTCSo this is a bit of an apology. I haven't been in the best place recently and I thought I should say something as I feel some of my recent stories might be a tad. . . not my best work.
For the past two years I have been struggling with some major anxeity and depression issues that I finnaly found the source of and I am now dealing with. But these issues did have a major impact of December.
Pretty much it made me feel I HAD to get this writing business working otherwise I couldn't solve my depression issues. I have made it no secret that I am trying to do this for a living but due to some irl stuff I had put unrealistic expectations on my business and getting my work to a livable state. When people unsubscribed due to your own financial situations, I tended to blame myself because as I didn't feel I was working hard enough to get to a place where I could be happy and every time, I saw things backslide it would be longer that I would be trapped.
But I have taken actions to help deal with this situation and make sure that when things are going rough, I won't work myself to death because of it. Like this month when I was already exhausted and because of four people unsubscribed I gave up both my weekend and time with friends just to work after I said I needed a break.
I want to continue making fun, kinky content. It is what I wanted to do from the start. And now that I have been able to work on a major issue that has been affecting me for almost longer than my business I think I should have a healthier work/life relationship. (That and I feel I have more energy just to do things in general. My anxiety and depression seem not as bad.)
Comments
Merlina
Thank you. It means the world to me that people love my stories filled with giant ladies, blueberries and more.
growem
Take your time. I love your stories and your writing style. Thank you for being you.
